Soulmate (Completed) 18+

*10*

**Boun's POV**

I understand where he is coming from but this is just as hard on me as this is on him...

Boun: "prem..."

Prem: "Don't you want to?"

Boun: "I do, I promise you that I do. I think about it all the time but I don't trust myself enough to know that once we start I'll be able to stop again..."

Prem: He gently pulls my arm so that I was now hovering over him before whispering. "I would never ask you to stop, I want you..."

Crap...

I knew that he wasn't going to let it go this time, I tried so hard in the last month to dodge his advances because I really didn't want him to come to resent me or something once we did. I just keep forgetting that he's stronger than I'm giving him credit and that's my own fault...

Maybe if I keep denying both of our feelings I will end up creating more trouble than helping. Giving in to what he wants I slowly lean down and press my lips to his before pulling away. 

Boun: Whispering. "Are you sure?"

Prem: He gives me a small smile before wrapping his arms around my neck. "Kiss me..."

He looks so gentle and fragile under me as I try to think of all the things we have been through in the last three and a half years. It took me a long time to get him to trust me and return the feelings that I have for him. 

If he didn't want this as much as I wanted it than he wouldn't continue to try to start something. 

I'm just being too protective and I need to start to think about how he feels. 

Sitting up I pull the hem of my shirt until it was resting by my side as he pushes himself up to join me. He just silently stared at me as I pulled his shirt over his head before grabbing both of them and tossing them onto the floor. 

He was staring at my chest where my tattoo was before bringing his finger tips up to it. This seemed to be one of his favorite things to do now. He was absolutely fascinated with it and I kind of eye the feeling of his fingers on my chest.

Looking down I could his the length of his member pressing against the fabric of his boxers as he crawls into my lap. 

No one has ever been this bold the first time but I have to remember that this isn't his first time. He's experienced and he knows what he wants. 

Prem: He had his arms loosely wrapped around my neck as he leans toward my ear to whisper. "You don't have to worry about helping me get ready, I took care of that when you got out of the shower first."

As the reality of his words processed in my head I couldn't help but blush at what that meant. All I could see in my imagination now is Prem leaning against the wall with his shoulders and arm as he used his other hand to slowly pry his entrance open so he wouldn't be exceptionally hurt if we ended up doing it. 

Boun: "What did you use?"

Prem: He went strangely quiet as his breathing picks up against my shoulder. "I may or may not have bought something for the days that you refuse to sleep with me..."

Boun: That sparked my curiosity as I try to pull back to look at his face. "What did you get?"

Prem: "..." I could see that his face was bright red as he climbs off of my lap and heads for the closet before rummaging around for a few minutes. "I usually grab our clothes now so I knew you wouldn't find it in the closet..."

Boun: He slowly exits the closet before walking over to me with something behind his back. I was about to ask what he was hiding when he grabs my hand with one hand and than places the object in it with his other hand. "You... You used this on yourself, this morning?..."