Benji POV
I'm in Zero's car as he drives to my house. The car ride is really quiet as random music plays on the radio. Usually, when we are in his car together we talk a lot and sing out loud to music on the radio. But this time isn't usually. This time is different. This time he's in pain which makes me in pain.
I can't even believe that he came to school today. I wouldn't have been able to if I was him, but I'm not him. Zero is strong, way more than he knows. I didn't even know about the accident until today at school. Some of the students were talking about it and I overheard them. I was so shocked and I instantly thoughts about Zero. His mom is the sweetest and is always super nice to me. I've been over her house so many times that I even started to call her my second mom.
I was even around when Zoe was born. She was the cutest thing ever and me and Zero we're obsessed with her. Their death makes me tremendously sad and I even cried in the bathroom at school today, but I know that I have to stay strong for Zero. I want to be his shoulder to cry on and not the other way around.
He turned a corner and I snapped out of my thoughts. I recognize that turn. It's the turn you make right before you get to my house. Once he parked I unsnapped my seatbelt and grabbed my bookbag. We walked up to my front door as I grabbed my keys to open my door. I live in a regular two-story house with my dad. My parents are divorced and my mom lives in Australia with her husband and step-son. I usually visit her every summer but I stay with my dad throughout the school year.
"Are you hungry?" I asked Zero as we walked into my house.
"No, I'm fine." he answered with a faint smile.
He never says no to food, he eats enough for five people even though he's skinny, guess that's the power of fast metabolism. I mean he has abs that make him look like a Greek God. Every time I see them I want to run my hands down them and feel every inch of them. Whoa...I should probably stop thinking of him like that, but I can't help it at times and that makes me annoyed at my brain because I know that that could never happen. I shake my head as if it would get rid of my thoughts. As we walked up the stairs to get to my room.
He sat on my bed and I sat next to him.
"Sooo...what you wanna do?" I turned to look at him. He continued to look at my wall as he shrugged his shoulder. "You wanna play the game?" I asked not knowing what I could do to cheer him up.
"Sure" he uttered quietly.
I grabbed the controller and handed him one. We started to play GTA 5 like we usually do. We stole people's cars, shot random people, etc. And all of a sudden I started hearing Zero cry. I turned around as fast as possible to see what was wrong.
"What happened?" I asked concerned.
"I-Its no-not working." he said as tears stream down his cheeks.
"What's not working?" I asked as I tried wiping the tears from his cheek.
"The g-game, I'm still t-thinking about my m-mom and Zoe.".
Not knowing what to do I pulled him into a tight hug and told him that things will get better. He started to cry heavier as he said to me, "It's all my fault Benji, I should have listened to you and not act out of impulse. Now because of me they're dead. I killed them. I killed them, Benji." He cried into my chest as I rubbed my hands down his back as I try to comport him.
"It's not your fault Zero, I promise it's not. Please stop blaming yourself." He kept on crying for about two hours and I even shed a few tears but made sure I hid them from him. I don't want him trying to make me feel better. I just sat there rubbing his back until he fell asleep and on my lap. Crying always makes you sleepy and from the amount of tears, he shed I know he must have been exhausted.
I sat there for about an hour and a half just looking at him sleeping. I ran my fingers through his beautiful curly dark hair as I thought about how everything changed so fast and how hard things must be for him. I wish I could protect him forever but life's a bitch sometimes and hurts people that least deserve it. I wish I could take away all his pain. He doesn't deserve to suffer this much. "I love you" I whispered as I thought he was still asleep. "I love you too." he said back unexpectedly and quietly.
------------
Zero's POV
After about another 10 minutes of laying on Benji's lap, I realized it was getting late.
"What time is it?" I asked as I looked upward.
"Uhhh...let me check." I got up so that he can reach for his phone, "9:32" he said as he turns his phone to face me so that I can see for myself.
"I think I need to start going home. Is your dad home yet." I asked curiously cause I haven't seen him yet.
"Yea, he came in while you were asleep. He didn't want to wake you up. He's probably in his office."
"Aw okay." I said as I started to grab my bookbag.
"Are you sure you don't want to eat anything before you leave, my dad made spaghetti yesterday and we have leftovers," he asked questionably.
"No, I'm fine. Thanks though." He then walked me to my car and before I left I gave him a hug and a kiss on the cheek. "Thanks for everything, I would be lost without you." I said before I entered the car and drove away as he just stood there with a huge smile on his cheek and waited for my departure.
YOU ARE READING
It all went downhill (boyxboy)
Romance*EDITING* Zero was a normal teenage boy. He played basketball, hanged with friends, and lived a normal life. Then it all went downhill, his mom and little sister died in a car accident, his once great stepfather becomes mentally, physically, and sex...
