Zero POV
"W-Who is t-this?" I stuttered into the phone hoping and praying that the deep voice belongs to anyone else. Anyone but him.
"Your dad. Look Zero I'm sorry..." He kept talking but I couldn't hear him. It was happening again. I think I'm having another panic attack.
Why would he call me? Did he just say he was sorry? What the fuck.
"Zero are you listening?" He spoke, his voice was calm. Uncharacteristically calm.
"What do you want?"
"I wanted to say sorry. Please forgive me. Do you think we can meet up for ice cream at that parlor we used to always go to? So that we can talk things out." He used to take me there every Friday if I was good at school. It was one of the things we bonded over.
But I don't know if I can trust him anymore. What he did is unforgettable. But maybe just maybe this is exactly what I need.
Maybe if I forgive him things will get better for me. I just want to get better.
"When?" I asked with a lump in my throat.
"Oh my God thank you. We can meet tomorrow after you're done with school." He sounded relieved. His voice went from nervous to happy.
"I'll think about it. Umm... Bye." I said before I hung up. I stared at the phone in my hand. My hands were slightly shaking but I wasn't as scared as I was when I first picked up the phone.
"Who was that." I heard Benji's voice say from behind me. I forgot he was here.
"Oh umm, my stepdad."
"What he wants."
"To meet up at an ice cream parlor after school tomorrow."
"Are you going to go?"
"I don't know yet," I said honestly. Benji obviously doesn't know about the rape but he still doesn't like my dad anymore cause of that time he found out my dad hit me.
"He's still treating you right like he hasn't hit you again, right?"
"No no of course not," I answered rather quickly. Of course, he hasn't hit me, he's stepped up a level, well actually a lot of levels.
"Good." He said before laying back on his bed.
I got up and tried studying again but I couldn't. I kept thinking about my stepdad. I kept wondering if it was a good idea to meet up with him tomorrow.
He can't do it again in public but I'm still scared. I debated on whether or not it was a good idea to forgive him. He doesn't deserve it but maybe it'll help me.
Maybe forgiving him will help me move on. I thought about it for the rest of the day. Barely being able to fall asleep at night.
I thought about it while I ate dinner, while I took a shower, while I got dressed. It was on my mind for the rest of the day. He was on my mind.
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I woke up the next morning nervous. I probably only got an hour of sleep last night and even during that small amount of sleep I was thinking about the decision I have to make.
I was too scared to be sleepy so even though I looked like a dead skeleton in the mirror with my pale skin, deep eye bags, and skinny figure I still didn't care.
Benji and I walked to school and did the usual, but once I got into second period I remembered another issue I had to figure out.
Alex.
He was already sitting at his desk when I walked in just before the bell rang.
"Hey," I said as I sat at the desk next to him.
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It all went downhill (boyxboy)
Romance*EDITING* Zero was a normal teenage boy. He played basketball, hanged with friends, and lived a normal life. Then it all went downhill, his mom and little sister died in a car accident, his once great stepfather becomes mentally, physically, and sex...
