It all went downhill (boyxboy)

Part 24- THE END (Part 1.)

Virtual hugs to everyone who's about to read this chapter. I'm sorry in advance.

Zero's POV

I stripped, taking off all my clothes before getting into the shower. I have to go to school but I have to take a shower first.

The hot water cascaded down my skin, reminding me of the pleasure it offers. The soothing sensation it gives my harsh skin.

At times showering can be a very scary thing for me. I have to look at my body, my used, broken body. The same body that he touched. The same body that he corrupted. His fingerprint, forever engraved on me. I can never forget how his cold hands felt, how they made me feel weak and ashamed. Scared and hopeless.

How he made me feel like I was in an irreversible curse, one that is filled with sleepless nights leaving me with a soulless body.

I quickly got out of the shower after forcing myself to shampoo my hair. I dried off and moisturized, something I haven't had the motivation to do in so long. I put on some joggers and a hoodie which seems to have gotten looser from all the weight I've lost.

I made my way to my car dreading every step that I made. The undeniable feeling of nervousness and even fear seeped into me as I realize that there is a chance that Benji wouldn't accept my apology, and I could lose him. Forever.

I also have to see Alex, and the last time I saw him his lips were on mine.

I got in my car starting up the engine and pulling out of my driveway. Before I knew it I was pulling up into the student drive-through. This has been happening a lot lately, my brain seems to just go into autopilot and when I gain back full consciousness I'm already done with whatever I was doing.

I took a deep breath before removing my car keys from the engine and grabbing my bookbag. I stepped out and walked towards the school building.

Here we go.

I put the books that I don't need for the first half of my school day in my locker and then locked them up. I was happy that I didn't see Benji or Alex like I usually do in the mornings. I need a little bit more time, even if it's for a couple of periods.

I walked into my first period five minutes before the bell was supposed to ring so I put headphones in my ears and started playing music because what else I'm I suppose to do.

After the first period, I knew that I was probably going to see Alex in second period so my nerves spiked up and I felt like throwing up.

I walked into the class moments before the bell rang and to my Luck, I didn't see Alex in his seat. A weight was lifted off me as I walked to my seat.

But I should have known that I'm never lucky because moments later Alex walked in with a late slip.

He made eye contact with me before making his way to the seat next to me. I couldn't read the expression on his face but all I know is that I feel like throwing up.

He didn't say anything to me for the entire class and I most definitely didn't say a thing to him as well but I could feel the tension between us, it was strong and thick and I feel like throwing up.

Once that class was over I was able to have a breath of fresh air, well corrupted intoxicating air but better than nothing I suppose.

My next few classes went semi-smooth, and I tried to listen to the teachers and do my work but of course, I couldn't, my mind was too focused on the heavyweight of my heart, and the aching feeling in my guts. I feel like throwing up.

But then lunchtime rolled around. I have that period with both Benji and Alex. I contemplated on whether or not I should go to the lunchroom and as I stood in front of the door with the buzzing sound of teenagers I couldn't bring myself to step in. To much work, too scary.