Owned (Minsung fanfic/smut)

Chapter 98

minho was the first to wake up, he opened his eyes, taking a second to think before looking up fast, seeing jisung's relaxed face sleeping peacefully.

he had thought it was a dream but he was really with jisung, the boy's hand resting in his hair, minho's head rested against his chest. he leaned up and buried his face in jisung's neck, hugging onto him as tightly as possible.

he felt the need to be close.

jisung tightened his arms around minho, starting to wake up as he felt him move. he opened his eyes, feeling the tense body in his arms.

he rubbed minho's back gently, holding him close.

"relax for me hyung, you're okay."

minho closed his eyes, listening to jisung as he tried to relax, holding onto him. he felt pathetic for clinging to jisung like this, he was supposed to be mad at him, he had told himself he didn't need jisung, that he wasn't going to listen, that he didn't care anymore but now he was close to jisung all of that went away, he needed him badly.

"you can't leave me." minho whispered, pressing his face against jisung's hoodie.

"i'm not, i'm sorry i left before but i'll stay now, if you want me to."

minho didn't know what he wanted, he hated himself for going so weak so fast, he was annoyed at himself for relaxing into the younger's arms, absolutely basking in his warmth and  touch. he guided jisung's hand to his cheek, holding it there as he pressed his face against jisung's palm, leaning against the comforting feeling.

jisung pulled minho closer, running his thumb gently over his cheek, admiring his face. he had dark circles under his eyes and he looked so tired even though he only just woke up, he could tell minho hadn't taken care of himself well at all. he leaned forward and pressed a soft kiss against minho's forehead.

"if there was a word more powerful than sorry i would use it, i never meant to hurt you hyung, i'm sorry."

minho closed his eyes, listening to jisung's voice. he wanted to accept it immediately and take jisung back but every time he thought about it, jisung's words replayed in his head.

"you're so perfect hyung, i love everything about you, you're so handsome and i'm so stupid for thinking for a second that anyone could match up to you. i want to be yours and only yours."

minho shifted up and hugged jisung tightly, unable to help it, jisung's words were perfect and he could see how genuine he was, he could hear it in his voice. each word left his mouth flowing and natural and minho could tell he meant it but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't bring himself to fully believe jisung.

"i-i need more space jisung." he whispered after a few seconds.

"i'll give you space, if it's what you want."

"give me another day, i want to believe you but i can't."

"i know hyung, it's okay, i'll give you space. just know that i truly mean it."

minho pulled away from the hug before getting out of bed, watching jisung get out of bed too. he watched jisung leave his bedroom, wanting to stay with him so badly as he shut his bedroom door.

he leaned against the door, looking at his bed where jisung had just been. the aching feeling of history repeating itself had been eating away at him for days, even though he had felt so comforted in jisung's arms, the feeling hadn't fully gone away.

jisung breathed out as he walked through the house, he didn't want to leave, he wanted to go to his room and curl up in his bed, where his plushies were, his favorite pyjamas sitting in his closet, fluffy socks and his soft sheets.

he sighed as he opened the front door, stepping out of the house and down the steps, he looked around a little, he didn't know what time it was, all he knew was that it was very dark and very cold outside. he walked out of the gates and down the street, putting his hood up and hugging himself to keep warm.

it wasn't too far but it wasn't ideal, he was tired and confused. he felt so bad for minho, he really didn't know he would hurt him so much with his actions. he regretted every second of it, but the thing that kept buzzing in his heart was knowing minho loves him too.

watching minho break down and reveal how broken he really felt made his heart hurt, he wanted to take care of minho, he wanted to cuddle him and make him feel loved.

he crossed the road, looking around as he walked into the hotel parking lot, entering the lobby and walking to the elevator. he stepped in with another man, pressing the button to his floor. he kept his head down, unable to stop thinking about minho as the elevator moved. he desperately wanted to stay with him.

he stepped out when the doors opened and walked to his door, scanning his room card and going inside, he kicked off his shoes and pulled his hoodie off, immediately walking towards the bed.

any other time he would shower before bed but he couldn't bring himself to care, he got in, pulling the blanket over his body, letting himself sink into the mattress as he sighed heavily.

"m' sorry minho, i love you."

he turned onto his stomach and hugged the pillow, pulling his bear closer and hugging it tightly. he was determined to show minho his feelings, he was tired of feeling sorry for himself and crying so much, it wasn't going to fix anything. he needed to prove he was genuine and show minho he wouldn't hurt him again, he was going to prove his feelings for minho.

minho closed his eyes as he buried his face in the pillow, swearing that jisung's scent still clung to it as he took steady breaths in, letting it calm him.

"i'm sorry jisung, i love you."

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A/N
double update because the last two chapters are connected ♡