Owned (Minsung fanfic/smut)

Chapter 103

A/N
im sorry
TW mentions of sh

minho and jisung ended up eating pizza with minjoon and taeya, catching up a little and talking things through as they ate. minho ended up being the first to go to his room and jisung finished soon after.

"i'm going to go to minho's room." he mumbled, finishing his can of soda.

"okay, goodnight sung."

"goodnight, thank you for the pizza hyung."

minjoon nodded, smiling as jisung left the room.

jisung walked through the hallways, heading up the stairs towards minho's room. he was lost in thought as he got to the bedroom, opening the door and walking inside without knocking.

he gasped as he walked in on minho getting changed.

jisung's eyes weren't locked on minho's body however, they were locked on his left arm.

minho quickly moved his arm behind his back, panicking as he pulled a hoodie on.

"i-i'm sorry jisung." he mumbled quickly.

jisung stayed quiet as he walked towards minho, gently taking his left hand.

"wait-" minho said quickly, trying to take his hand back.

"hyung it's okay, just let me see." he replied softly.

minho teared up a little as he hesitated, looking at jisung as the younger kissed his cheek, holding his hand.

"relax, just let me see okay?"

minho stayed quiet, biting down on his lip as jisung carefully rolled minho's sleeve up, his heart breaking for him.

"oh hyung."

jisung's eyes scanned over the collection of cuts on minho's forearm, some of them looking completely healed and hwrdly visible, some of them looking very new. it looked painful. jisung looked up as he held minho's hand.

"i'm sorry." minho whispered, lowering his head in shame.

"don't be sorry hyung, i should be the one who's sorry."

he looked down again at the cuts embedded into minho's skin, he lifted minho's arm, trying to hold in his own tears so he didn't make it worse for minho.

he pressed a few gentle kisses on his arm, holding his hand tightly.

"i'm not mad at you for this hyung, i promise i'm not angry with you, why didn't you tell me?"

minho watched jisung kiss his arm, a few tears running down his face as his lip trembled. jisung left kisses over the cuts, guiding minho's hand to his cheek.

"i-i thought you'd h-hate me... i'm sorry..."

"it's okay hyung, i don't take you for this i promise. are they clean? do you take care of them?"

minho lowered his head a little again before shaking it.

"i-i don't know how."

jisung took his hand away from his cheek and held his hand, leading him to the bathroom. he opened the cabinet and took out a first aid box, sitting up on the counter and guiding minho to stand between his legs, minho's arm resting on jisung's thigh.

"will you promise to tell you if you feel the need to do this again? i know asking you to stop isn't realistic but will you let me try to help if the urges come back?"

minho nodded slowly as jisung opened the box, first taking out an antibacterial wipe. he tore it open and started wiping over the cuts, some of them were older and pretty much healed but he wiped it all over anyway. he then took out a small bottle of ointment and some cotton, applying some of it onto the cotton and wiping the newer ones. minho hissed at the sting, balling his fist.

"almost done hyung it's okay."

minho wiped his cheek with his other hand as jisung got out a dressing, opening it and putting it on the newer cuts, securing it there before leaving little kisses on top of it.

"i'm proud of you for letting me see this hyung, i'll take care of you okay?"

minho nodded as he wrapped his arms around jisung's waist, hugging him tightly.

jisung hugged him back, smiling sadly as he rubbed minho's back. he felt awful that minho was hurt enough to do that to himself but he knew he would be able to make it better now.

"can you tell me why you did it hyung?"

"the scars are from before i met you... the others were to punish myself for hurting you."

jisung cupped minho's cheeks and pressed a gentle kiss to his lips, looking at him.

"you don't need to punish yourself hyung, you said sorry for hurting me and i forgive you, now i've apologized to you, do you forgive me?"

minho nodded softly, putting his hand over jisung's on his cheek.

"no more punishing okay? i know it's hard to stop, but i'm here to take care of you and keep you safe if those feelings come back."

minho nodded softly, giving a small smile as he looked at jisung.

"i don't deserve you."

"you deserve the world minho, we both made mistakes, but lets work on communicating and trusting each other okay?"

minho nodded again, feeling a little better.

"they're ugly, i'm sorry you have to see this."

jisung watched minho touch the old scars on his arm.

"they're fine, you're beautiful."

minho leaned against jisung again, resting his head on the younger's shoulder, closing his eyes as jisung hugged him.

"do you want to watch a movie and cuddle hyung? will that make you feel better?"

"please."

"come on then."

jisung slipped down from the counter, walking through to the bedroom followed by minho, getting into bed and smiling when minho got in too, shifting close to him.

they lay down together, coming closer so that they could cuddle up to each other. minho closed his eyes as jisung turned on the tv, finding something for them to watch. he shifted closer and buried his face in the hoodie jisung was wearing, taking small breaths in. jisung immediately moved his hand to minho's hair, smiling to himself as he chose a movie.

minho had become the clingy cuddly one, the one that needs the praise and affection and the one that needs to be taken care of and jisung had become the provider of those things and he didn't mind it one bit, he was enjoying every second of taking care of minho because the small smile on his face when he got cuddles and praise made it worth it.

minho just secretly loved being babied, he wouldn't admit it but he didn't need to admit it, jisung could tell by the way he clung to him. he chose a movie and lay back with minho, hugging him tightly as he breathed out in relief.

after days of crying and hating himself he was finally close to minho, he had closure and minho forgave him. what was sitting under the dressing on minho's arm however was concerning, he felt guilty that minho did that because he was hurt by jisung but he knew that feeling guilty about it wouldn't solve anything, he needed to care for minho and make him feel as loved as possible.

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