This Is (Unfortunately)ME

5/25/2021

I've started working at McAllister deli near my house again. My birthday just passed so I wish I could blame this on how I reacted since my birthday always made me sad and anxious for whatever reason.

So one of my managers, who is my favorite manager came in today. He wasn't scheduled but he told us he was turning in his uniform. 🙃

He said that he was quitting because one of the other managers got angry at him on Sunday because he didn't take out the trash. Of course I believed him cuz why would he lie about that.

I liked him a lot so I got sad because he was leaving. Hell I even got choked up. My employees and I were talking and we were all sad and wanted to go home because we didn't want to work without him.

I was even ready to go off on the other managers when they talked about him after he left. I got mad at him for leaving because he had just said that he wanted us on his team because we work hard and the customers like us. I felt abandoned.

Apparently, he was just playing about quitting. He was really just dropping something else off.

Bruh I'm trying not to overreact because it's not that serious but damn. He could have said he was playing before he left instead of just letting us think he quit on us on his off day.

I can't lie that shit really fucked with my daddy issues way too much.

I think he comes into work tomorrow so we'll see how I act. Hopefully this just teaches me to mind my own damn business when it comes to work. I said on my second day that I don't come to work to make friends with my managers, but here I am.

Anywho my skin has been looking sexy as fuck lately just thought you should know. My anxiety has been much better since I've graduated school.

Him "quitting" really fucked with my anxiety though I can't lie. I could tell because I kept scratching my head and cracking my knuckles which are apparently tells of anxiety. It made me think how I really can't be ready for a relationship if I have so many abandonment issues.

Hence why I'm trying to stay single (no matter how hard this little boy tries)