This Is (Unfortunately)ME

9/12/2021

So I finally started college. The transition was actually really easy on me and I wasn't home sick for a long time. I did miss my mom though but that's to be expected.

I got drunk for the first time last Friday and whew I need a break from all types of dark liquor for a while. I had to force myself to sober up though cuz shit was getting too real too fast.

Yesterday I was depressed. I tried to blame it on my hangover but it wasn't even near that bad. I was having a fucking melt down on the phone with Madison and that shit reply showed me I need some fucking help.

My school offers 12 free therapy sessions so I'm gonna use that. I think I'll try on Tuesday because really when I have the time.

It was so intense then the feeling just left out of no where. Everything was so cloudy and I couldn't stop crying then boom it was like every cloud over my head left at the same time. Something just isn't right with that to me but I wasn't complaining.

I just took a shower and grabbed some breakfast because I'm starving from not really eating yesterday despite me not eating too much the day before. I'm going to do my work, text this boy, and get back on track.