Linked To You II

LTY II: Jiji

>>YANIKA NEDA CHAN ALVAREZ<<

So far so good. The kids are adjusting to the time difference and the jetlag. They were enjoying the chilly weather and the new view. Well, I don't know if they are outsmarting my smartie pants but I know that they really trying their best not to show their mommy a flaw they see from this new journey we are in.

I recognize, and I freaking distinguish that this is me going to the flow again. Against from what I have planned in my mind previously. I already calculated what's going to happen soon and that is to at least let my twins meet their daddy when they turn five. I have heard the rumors about him being engaged but didn't have time to check on every news about him since the day I almost killed my twins for being so blinded by the pain I caused myself. April keeps me on track of the news. Spotify keeps me updated with their new songs. April is my social media basically.

I get it when people say I am selfish for not telling the kids who their dad is but I can't ruin his career. He is happy now, I think. I know he will probably be the happiest person now knowing that he no longer has a responsibility. Also, I'm way too ashamed to tell him a thing about the twins because I still remember the day, we made them. It was wrong, sadly. I was mistaken for somebody else and chances are he doesn't know it for sure. He is clueless.

What I was just thinking is that I could not ruin his career and make it at risk again. It will be greater danger this time. To think that it will not only be his career but also the career of his team. This isn't their dream and that's the last thing I could think about.

However, life has been playing on me yet again. The flow and plan I have in mind just expedite. The kids aren't five yet and they are still three turning four this year.

I admit that my twins deserve to know who their dad is but I am just egotistical and weakling to name him because of those facts I just mentioned. All they knew is that their dad is working so hard and that he is an angel and very handsome.

The thing here is that they knew that I gave limited answers about him. And I think that's the reason why they haven't asked about him when they finally grew bigger, in which I already knew that it's pretty bad because it might have engraved in their minds that they don't need a daddy in which I am absolutely afraid of.

I adore every bit of them, their mature thinking and more so when they play around together like real kids trying to outmaneuver each other. "Mommy! I've finished my Lego cars before oppa, Look!"

I made sure that my Shielo Angelique will still respect her older brother in all languages and culture.

"Wow! You did great mi niña," I told Shielo when she showed me what she just assembled. She did the Legos with his brother who naturally loves them because Raph has been assembling Lego cars recently and Shie loves cars that's why she accompanied her oppa. Raph loves Legos in general.

Yeah. Like father, like son. "And you did great too mi niño. My twins are just awesome," I praised.

"Aren't we eomma?" Shielo giving me her signature swag-handsome pose.

That makes me love them even more, "Irrefutably." I smiled brightly and the two gave me their morning hug.

What a beautiful morning to wake up to.

"Auntie Jiji!" I heard the two screamed out loud on my ears while I heard footsteps from the open door of our new home. They immediately broke the hug and run towards the person who just entered. I automatically turned my back to witness a loving hug and bond between the twins and their one and only Auntie Jiyeon.