paracosm-delusional nightmares

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Pretend that
I'm not near,
Pretend that
I'm gone,
Pretend that
I'm not here,
Pretend that
I'm not in your arms.

Just pretend darling
How hard can it be?
Unless your dreams are shattered,
Broken into pieces like me.

Those dreams
Mine and yours
Those dreams
Feeling so far away now.

I loved them,
So did you.
Then tell me why
You shattered them without thinking twice
About me, my love and our love?

The dreams that I used to love
The ones I longed to fulfil
The ones I knew I would die for all my life.

And the ones you wouldn't mind-shattering twice.

But darling,
They're gone.
Replaced with something fierce.
Something you wouldn't get past
Even if you tried a thousand times.

Those dreams have turned into nightmares
Of me.
Of my personality.
Of you.
Of my existence.

I'm living in them now.
I'm drowning in them.
But do you care?

Because at the end,
You did pretend,
Didn't you?

Your dreams aren't shattered
Because you shattered mine.
Left me in the gutter
To follow your silver line.

I understand love,
I was there as well,
I was following you,
If you didn't know,
To destroy you
In any way, I could.

I understand darling,
I really do.
But you need to know,
That it wasn't hard
For me to pretend too.

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-about-

written: march 19, 2021

Another one of my 'emo phase' poems. Unsurprisingly, I like this a lot. I first got the idea of the 'pretend' concept when I was going to sleep at night. I immediately asked my sibling for my phone and opened the notes app and started writing. Hehe.

At that time, I thought that I would never be able to complete this poem because the concept seemed really dull, but if you've noticed, I depend heavily on the last lines in my poems, and as soon as I got that in this one, the whole poem came about. That's why I really love it.

-anyways, thanks for reading, people!! do vote and comment if you liked it-

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