THIS IS US

Part 39

I rang the bell and took a small step back, trying to control my beating heart. The door immediately opened revealing Louis dressed in his usual black tracks with a white T-shirt. His hair, a little messed up making him look hotter. He smiled widely at me and stepped aside to let me in. I walked in and he closed the door behind us. I saw his dog running up to us and I immediately bent down as Clifford slightly jumps on me. I chuckled and rub him behind his ear, he sticks out his tongues in happiness. I kiss his head and look up to see Louis looking at us with a small smile on his face. I stood up straight and we went to his living room, with Clifford behind us. 

"Coffee?" He asked and I nodded. He was making Coffee while I was playing with Clifford. In a minute or so, he was in front of me holding a cup. 

"There you go..."He said as I took the cup from his hands and took a sip. It is exactly the way I like it... he remembers. He takes a seat next to me as Clifford lays on both of us.

"He is lazy today, isn't it?" I observe and Louis laughs with a nod, softly brushing  Clifford's head. 

"So, how have you been?" He asked looking at me. It's been a week since we properly spoke to each other. I tried to speak to him after that interview with James Corden but couldn't because something or the other came up between both of us. Either I was busy working or he was busy with work and interviews. The boys were currently working on new songs. We would text but we would not engage much. He then texted me yesterday, wanting to meet and we decided to meet at his house. 

"Good and busy. How is the album coming along?" I asked. This type of conversation seemed foreign to me, especially with him. Louis and I have never been like this. 

"Great, have had great writing sessions with the lads, pretty buzzed about it." He replied with a happy smile. I nodded, happy that they were doing great. We were quiet for a while before he broke the silence and faced me completely.

"Alright listen, I know you are confused... let me explain..." He said, getting straight to the point. 

"I know I have been acting a little weird lately. I have been thinking a lot about you and us... you know what I mean... I know we thought it would be easier to be together after the tour and everything. I sure as hell am not making it easier..." He explained, his blue eyes were trained on me and I could see the confusion yet a certain type of desire in his eyes. 

"Louis... look, I don't want to pressure you into anything. Remember you told me that, this.." I said pointing to both of us, gesturing towards the 'us'. "is peaceful and full of passion. It's fun yet it makes you feel calm. So, being under pressure is not what I want you to have nor I want that between us. If it feels like, the time is not right then I understand. I do understand and I know there is still a part of you who is still finding yourself."  I completed. He was silent for a while, licking his lips, he ran a hand through his hair and then over his face. 

"How do you do that?" He asked me and I looked at him with confusion. 

"What?" 

"How do you know exactly what I am thinking or feel better than I do?" I smiled at that.

"It took me a while to understand but I figured it out," I replied. He leaned in and kissed my cheek softly, and then met my eyes. I am in love with his eyes but then he closed his eyes, leaning further in and touching his lips to mine softly. He brought his hand up and placed it on my right cheek, kissing me harder as I kissed him back. We poured every feeling into that kiss. He placed his other hand on my side. I laid down on my back with him on top of me, our lips still connected. My hands wound up in his hair as I pulled the ends of it, slightly and by the way, he responded, I knew he liked it. He groaned deeply and deepened the kiss. I didn't realise when Clifford had climbed down the couch and left us, probably sensing the tension between us. 

He was supporting himself on top of me, careful not to put the entire weight on me. Our hands were roaming all over each other like we couldn't get enough of each other. Once we pulled away, both of us breathing heavily and the way he looked at me, I knew at that moment I am all his and nothing can ever change that. He already owns my heart. That depth of a look, the passion and desire in his eyes. His protective yet gentle hold was just unbelievable. His touch was like lighting a fire, he was lighting every part of my body. 

He started kissing my jaw and down to my neck. I arched my back, giving him more access to it and he is so good at this. He was running his hand up and down my back and then resting it to my waist. My arms were wrapped around his shoulder, keeping him closer to me. 

He found a spot on my neck, which bought an immediate reaction out of me as I pulled him closer and softly called his name out. He realised and came up meeting my eyes with a smirk on his face. Eager to wipe it off,  I pulled him down and connected our lips once again. 

It got heated one more time and he pulls away slightly and looks at me hesitantly. 

"Kathy, we should stop before I lose control and trust me, love, I am this close to doing so." He said, his voice was so deep. It sounded so sexy...  I blushed at what he said and nodded slyly. 

He kissed my cheek before getting off me. I sat up straight fixing my hair with my hands, and I am sure I looked flushed. Louis noticed it and laughed adorably. 

"There is no one like you, darling." He commented and I rolled my eyes playfully. 

"Hungry?" He asked and I nodded. He ordered a pizza for both of us and then we were just comfortably sitting on the couch, cuddled into each other while some movie was playing on the TV, and we were just talking about different things, with him making me laugh with his stupid jokes. 

I don't know where we stand but I am glad I don't because currently, I like how we are, unsure yet enjoying every moment with each other. We care deeply about each other and I know when it's the right time, we will know automatically about where we stand. Till then we are just going to spend more time with each other. 

I lifted my head from his shoulder to look at him, while he was talking about a documentary that he had watched once which grossed him out. I noticed how he scrunched his nose when he sees something he doesn't like, his eyebrows furrowed and squinted eyes. His sharp features standing out, like high cheekbones and a sharp jawline. 

He is cute and sexy at the same time.

We were having the Pizza, once it was delivered when I asked him this.

"So, how are the other 3 or 4?" I had casually but his response was not what I expected.

"You know what, I am being honest. I honestly don't know, all four of us are going through this emotional turmoil since the reunion but we didn't mention it to each other. I still feel like there are some barriers between us and you know what, it's scaring me a little. We have never been this way..." He said, staring straight ahead. 

I leaned my head on his shoulder and he leaned in, sighing softly. Both of us lost in our thoughts as we stared at the screen ahead, not really paying attention. 

I think I knew though what was going on and I think I have a way to solve it.