Life Choices Two

Chapter Thirteen - Regrets

JENNIE POV

I dropped my phone right after the ending of the video Nayeon had sent to our group chat. My knees were weakened and shaking, my blood flows like a running tap water to meet the sea and my world stop spinning around because of one fucking hurtful word-REGRETS.

I lost it. I fucking lose the game of owning her again and have a family with her because she found someone I think much better than me and I had no one to blame but myself alone. Its all my fault after-all. She was pure and innocent that she choosed us to protect than having her happiness and me instead, I just assumed bad things about her that leads to destruct everything in her whole being.

My threatening tears falls instantly imagining all our happy memories, her smiles, laughs, assuring hugs and sweet kisses, and most especially our pove making. I am damped hurt.

This pain I endured for more than a year had tripled and its still growing with the reality of Lisa having a baby. A family and that's not with me anymore. We dreamed it together but its all just a dream because of my fucking mistake.

'What if I didn't accused her?'
'What if I let her explain first'
'What if I just believed her love'

Many of those what ifs are now only hanging unanswered knowing that I completely lose the person I dreamed to be with.

Reality sucks right? And the only question now. 'How I am going to accept this hurtful reality'

'You have too Jennie, you started it so you need to accept and finished it'

Yes, I do. But how? I never imagined that its more painful knowing that she's in the embrace of other woman-and that woman was carrying a child, her child to be exact-a pure Manoban which from Lisa's sperm. If I just didn't listen to her before of controlling birth maybe I have little Lisa's now.

'Did she already forgot me-our love?'

'Yes idiot Jennie, how come she's not going to moved on, after those things you and your family had done, she deserved happiness'

My thoughts were debating. I can't really gasps with this new information, like I was waken up with a cold water.
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JISOO POV

My wife Rosè sent me a video and I didn't get to finished it because I have someone to take care off.

I fastly went to my car speeding to its limit not minding the fucking traffic just to get to my cousin Jennie.

And I didn't made a mistake of coming here because she was there. Leaning her head to the wall looking far away in the wonderful sky of Seoul and I know the view can't help in mending her broken heart.

As much as I want to question Lisa but I don't have the face to do that knowing that we're the ones who put her through those things.

I hugged Jennie behind who was in crying mess, thankfully Yeri and Dahyun came right after helping me to stand Jennie and helped her to sit in the couch. Dahyun offered her some cold water to calm her down which she drank still in her own world.

In only 10 minutes the rest of our family were here with the same emotion I had. We are sadden with the news. Uncle Jiyong was regretful towards his action. Grandpa had the same uncle reaction. No one dared to talk because we really don't know how to start it.

Auntie Dara was silently crying in the corner of Jennie's office not making any sound and my mom was calming here soothing her back whispering something but I can see through it that she was just making herself strong in front of Auntie. I know she felt the pain her niece was feeling. I was too, because I've been there during Jennie's devastated state.

"Ca—— can I ha—have my al—alone time for now"Jennie break the silence but she was hiccuping hard and not able to breath in normal and I was about to object when Uncle gestured and mouthed to everyone 'its okay, leave her alone'

So we did.

Later that night someone called me. I groaned in annoyance because of this fucking ring tone distruption of my precious sleep.

I immediately awaken after knowing who it was-Jennie.

Driving my car only wearing my nighty pair because my cousin was drunk and making a mess that can stain her name.

A loud music welcomed me and I immediately spoted her. She was really drunk and having a brawling competition to some brunette, two of bouncers which I assumed was holding them separating the two.

Thankfully the management of the club understands that it only because of the alcohol intoxication and let us get away not having a problem.

"Li-Lili why"My cousin said drankily but weakly. I know Jen. But its the reality. Someday you're going to accept this and have your own life.

I managed to brought her safe and stayed here for a night to scold my cousin the next day. My wife understand the situation allowing me to do so.

Morning came but Jennie was someone — how can I explain this, hmmm like someone I didn't know. She changed and I assumed she put too much walls to her self that no one can able to break it down. So instead of scolding her, I just remind her to drink Advil to mend her headache and cooked some dish to eat. She didn't say anything and just drink the medicine and drag her self back to her bedroom not eating my prepared food. I only sigh loudly with that and didn't bother her more because I know she was just hurt and needed space.

So I leave her penthouse to have herself alone time to think of things she needed to realize.
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AUTHOR POV

Lisa was shocked that she was the one in the portrait. Harry and Ozami was there with her to watch the live video of the event where Amanda attended. They were proud and can't utter any word because the two was happy for Lisa and Amanda.

'I can't wait to marry this girl'Lisa thought being hundred percent sure decision of claiming Amanda as her legally bonded lifetime partner.

She felt extremely special with Amanda. It is something she only wanted in her life and she found it already.

Lisa had save enough money and she had now a reason to used it. And that was for Amanda and her upcoming family. She also decided that she'll bring Amanda to meet her parents and she hoped her parents already forgiven her even she did nothing wrong.

Not to her knowing that her parents already know the truth and they're just waiting for Lisa to come back home.

Bam also received the news and shared it to Lisa's parents. Mother Chitthip was sad with the idea of Lisa was going to have a family but not with Jennie but also respected her daughter's decision that loving someone else. Father Marco just a neutral man who just silently supporting his daughter in whatever she wanted in life.

The Kims were really not in their usual happy family knowing that there's certain someone missing- what I mean someone was obviously making herself away from them.

The Kim brothers was annoyed and felt fooled for not thinking to searched Lisa in Japan before this happens. And now they can only sigh and drink their loses to ask forgiveness to Lisa.

While Jennie on the other hand, lately she was fond of drinking wine but not in the bar anymore because she didn't want to repeat the chaos she started.

She was letting herself drowse with the intoxication and it helps her to sleep peacefully. If before she was a tiger, now she was a raging mad psychopath tiger, laughing in bitterness every time she's alone, not able to control her madness and doesn't feel any remorse of firing her employee for a simple mistake.

Her family found it unhealthy and decided to let Jennie rest and let Yeri managed her businesses. Jennie agreed to it dryly, she doesn't feel living already so why bother. Her family sent her to visit psychologist to help her control her emotion and bring back the old Jennie which the latter obliged blankly.