Desire ; Remus Lupin

𝐶𝐻𝐴𝑃 𝑇𝐸𝑅 34

A/N: sorry if u saw this earlier, I accidentally published it w the wrong chapter number

- HOMEY

Sana's pov: 

It was about 8 AM, I think. Scratch that, I have no idea what time it is. All I know is that the curtains were banging on the wall because of the breeze and the sun was quite literally blinding me. 

I shuffle under the covers, carefully placing Remus' hand on my thigh instead of my waist in order for me to sit up.

He lets out a groan at the sudden movement. I chuckle softly, pulling the covers right off his body and crawling on top of him. I place one soft kiss on his cheek. "Morning handsome." 

He softens at my words, allowing me to lay on his chest and wrapping his arms around my back. "It's far too early for this, love." He whispers in his raspy morning voice. 

"Never too early when you sound like that in the morning." I tease flirtatiously, to which he shoots me a boyish grin in response. "I'm sure Snape will be delighted to hear about you complimenting my morning voice instead of attending his class." 

I stiffen at the mention of Snape. Memories of the day I saw him attending a Death Eaters' meeting flooding right back into my head, and engulfing me into a wave of confusion. 

Was he really one of them? I mean, how could he be? Snape can be many things, cold one of them, but he would never betray Dumbledore like that. Wouldn't he?

Another thought that crossed my head is how Remus didn't comment on my dark mark, and I'm so glad he didn't. He knew that they initiated me, and he knew what my alleged task was and yet he still slept with me.

God what did I do to deserve this man. 

"Hey Remus?"

"Yes, Sana?" 

"Can I stay here today?" I ask. I don't really wish to go back to Hogwarts and face any of the professors. I'd love to see Hermione and Isabelle, but they can wait a day or two. 

He hesitates, unsure of what to say. 

"Absolutely fucking not." Says Sirius who barges into our room with the same clothes I was using yesterday. 

I quickly pull the covers over my half naked body and turn it to face the left. "Bloody hell Sirius I'm naked!" Remus nods, "Yeah so am I! Maybe take some knocking lessons?"

"No one cares, now quit whining and put some damn clothes on. Also, stop screwing without a silencing spell you filthy animals!" 

I groan, pushing Sirius out the room and locking the door behind us. I turn around with a tired smile on my face and place my hands on Remus' neck. I pull him closer for a small kiss. 

"Not so fast, that was a pathetic kiss. You're gonna have to do better than that." He mutters, pulling me by my waist and engulfing me into a much deeper kiss, leaving me rather breathless. 

I whimper, running my hands along his bare chest and pulling away gently. He looks at me in desperation, heavy breathing. I look at him the same way, just mixed with a little bit of an apologetic look. "We can't." 

He huffs, laughs and throws on one of Molly's Christmas sweaters over his head. "I'm just messing with you. Have a good day my love." He whispers, kissing the top of my hair. 

I smile, bringing his lips to mine one last time. "Don't miss me too much." I smirk. 

***

"Madi, hey. Please tell me I didn't miss anything." I groan, running my hands through my hair and slumping back onto the soft couch of the common room. 

I can't say I didn't miss this place. Something about the Gryffindor common room makes everything seem so homey and calm. That's what Hogwarts does to you. 

It challenges you in ways so extreme you might want to just run away, but It's so beautiful and so full of love that you just can't bring yourself to do it. 

"Woah woah, you stay the night out and I don't even get an explanation? Sorry gorgeous, not how it works." 

I giggle and throw a small pillow at her face. "You know where I was dimwit. I just really hope you're the only one that does. If you're not then-"

"You're royally fucked." She finishes, shrugging and nodding comprehensively. "Understood. Back to the 'forbidden love' situation? What did you know who even do to you a couple months ago? 

"Threatened me, threatened Remus, threatened you. Honestly what else do you expect from him." I mutter, hoping no one was eavesdropping because Lavender was staring right at us. 

"So you're not one of them, yet he still gave you your mom back? I don't know Sana, it doesn't add up."

"I know it might sound weird, but it's what happened." I lied. 

Lying to my friends was excruciatingly painful. But they couldn't know about my dark mark. Only one person did, and I trust him with my life. If I tell my friends, one slip up could practically destroy me. 

I'd start by getting expelled, of course. Then my friends would turn on me, especially Hermione. She's already suspecting it. Harry's been telling her things. 

Potter's been so focused on Draco being a death eater that he followed him to Sirius' house and saw me leave with him. I'm just glad he didn't follow us back to the manor. 

But it was fairly obvious part of the reason he followed was because he's so smitten over Malfoy. I wish he'd just realise, he's playing both Madi and himself by staying with her. 

"Madeline?" Her head shoots up at the mention of her name. "Yeah?"

"How's Harry? You guys still a thing?" I ask carefully, trying not to catch his or anyone else's attention. 

She laughs as if I had a cock sticking out my forehead. "We've been over for weeks. God Sana, how much have you missed?" 

I sigh, shaking my head in amusement. "Having a werewolf as a boyfriend is pretty time consuming." I smirk, she throws her hand over my mouth in disgust. "Quit talking, it'll do the world a favour." She teases. 

"Piss of, you love me." I state, pushing her hands off my face and back onto her lap. "Course I do."

"You hesitated!" I laugh, pointing at her in as she gasps in defence. "Did not!" 

A sudden clear of the throat interrupts our conversation. "Miss White, I believe we have much to talk about." Snape speaks coldly.