Operation Get The Girl || tommy x reader

Ivy.

⚠️tw self harm and suicide⚠️

you stood shocked for a moment before snapping back into reality and pulling the door closed silently.

i won't say anything, its fine. it's probably a family member, right? you thought. it annoyed you how much it bothered you.

you waited until he had finished on the phone and walked him back to the kitchen.

"oh there you are! now tommy dear would you like chicken risotto for dinner tonight?" your mum exlaimed once you got through the door

"sounds lovely" he replied

she smiled and turned around to start cooking.

"im gonna go feed the dogs mum, tommy you coming?" you asked.

"yea right behind you" he replied.

you sighed and called for the 5 dogs and made sure they all went up the stairs to the dog room.

"im interested to see this dog room of yours. is it like a luxury dog hotel?" tommy asked jokingly

"um not really. just a load of food and dog toys and beds."

he followed you to the door and you told the dogs to sit while you opened the door. you pulled the handle and the dogs immediately pushed their way in and stood in front of their food bowls.

"wow, your dogs are well trained. when Betty and Walter know its food time they go insane."

"eh, just takes the right training"

he laughed.

"dyou mind getting the bag of food from up there please?" you asked pointing to the top shelf "i can't reach it and we need a new bag"

"shortie bitch" he rolled his eyes but got it down anyways.

you poured the food into the bowls and gave them the command to eat.

"so, how come you painted this room like the night sky?" tommy asked making conversation

you paused, and looked up at the wall. the small flecks of white representing stars took you back to the days when you and your sister used to pretend to be shooting stars in the back yard

"y/n! my shooting star is way faster than yours!"

"no fair you can run faster than me"

"ok ok fine. I'll come back."

"kids! dinner's ready!"

"okay dad we are coming!"

"lets go sis mum made pizza"

"but what if we didn't go in?"

"but you just said to dad-"

"i know what i said. but what if we ran away?"

"we would- we couldn't-"

"oh come on lil sis don't you want a bit of adventure?"

"lets just go in for dinner.."

"okay fine. but if i did run away, would you come with me?"

"of course ivy, i love you."

"y/n?.."

"huh? oh right, um it was her choice, ivy."

a confused look crossed his face, followed by one of understanding.

"come on y/n you said if i ever ran away you would come with me!"

"but mum and dad need us! they fight less when we are there!"

"dont you know y/n? they're splitting up. dad is going to leave and we will never see him again. and mum doesn't love us. she only cares about work. so come with me! we can be happy in our own life and do what we want!"

"but ivy-"

"fine! i get it you dont want to get in trouble!"

"ivy..."

"lets go in for dinner."

the silence in the room was deafening. the dogs had long since finished and curled up in their beds content and comfy.

"ivy what did you to to your arms!?"

"y/n! i um, i fell over thats all"

"then why is mummys big knife in your room?"

"i um.. i fell onto the knife and i didn't want mummy to know so i hid it up here."

"no you didn't"

"what?"

"you did that to yourself didn't you ivy? you cut your arms?"

"please.. please dont tell mum y/n.."

"but-"

"please? will you promise?"

"okay. i promise"

"i- im sorry i didn't mean to bring that up again.."

you didn't reply, still seeing the memories flash by your mind like they were yesterday.

"ivy! i need to tell mum!"

"no you can't you promised y/n!"

"but you cant keep doing this to yourself!!"

"i can't help it! now please just go get a bandage or something. i need to stop the bleeding..."

you vaguely noticed tears streaming down your face.

"y/n? im running away today. i cant pretend to love this life anymore. its just causing me pain."

"..."

"are you going to come with me?"

"i-"

"ha. i guess childhood promises mean nothing"

"no ivy wait! please dont go"

tommy had noticed you crying and started softly calling your name worriedly.

"ivy why did you do it again!?"

"I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE Y/N! I DON'T WANT TO BE ALIVE OKAY? THE ONLY REASON I DIDN'T RUN AWAY WAS BECAUSE YOU WANTED ME TO STAY!"

"but ivy you can't keep hurting yourself"

you felt yourself slide slowly onto the floor.

"ivy? c'mon don't play games. you need to get up! did you cut yourself again? ivy? ivy?! ivy wake up! IVY!"

you shook her motionless shoulders and moved her onto her back. her dark lifeless eyes stared back at you.

"MUM! COME NOW PLEASE. YOU HAVE TO HELP IVY!"

"whats the matter sweetheart-"

"MUM IVY DID IT TOO MUCH! ITS MY FAULT! I DIDN'T TELL YOU! I SHOULD HAVE TOLD YOU! SHE MIGHT HAVE STOPPED!!"

"y/n you have to- you have to go downstairs now please"

"but mum, ivy-"

"no buts, go downstairs please"

her distraught panicked eyes told you not to argue.

"i- ivy.."