Dream SMP ~«One Shots»~

★Checking Up - Sapnap

Warning this chapter may contain inappropriate language and mature content.

Tw - anxiety, self harm scars

Channel(s) - Karl, Sapnap, Chris and Chandler, Dream

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Sapnap's pov

I smile softly at Karl's classic laugh, my heart fluttering softly. I breath in deeply, trying to distract my thoughts from his stupidly cute laugh and his stupidly adorable everything.

I hug the pillow tighter, just letting my imagine Karl in my arms. The safe and warm feeling I get when he's by my side just swarms in my stomach.

"Sapnap! You in your own happy world over there?" Chris asks, snapping me out from my thoughts and my heart speeds up with a sense of anxiety as my cheeks heat up and I bury my face in to the pillow.

"Awe, he's like a little tomato" Chandler says and I press my forehead in to the pillow, breathing slowly in through my nose and out through my mouth.

We go back to playing the game, having a soft laugh.

"Sapnap is surprisingly good at this" Chris says with a soft smile and I nod quietly, playing chess on my phone to help settle my mind.

"Someone said Sapnap looks like he's being held against his will!" Karl exclaims, breaking out in to fits of laughter and making me smile a little.

"Someone else said he looks really sad!" Chandler says as they all laugh and I nod my head.

"Guys, don't worry! Sapnap is going through his shy boy arc right now!" Karl exclaims and I sheepishly smile.

"I don't know why, I don't know what to do or say.. it's weird.." I say softly, fidgeting with my phone.

"Man you're cool, it's a whole new setting for you" Karl says, rubbing my shoulder and I nod my head slowly.

"Someone said they're sad cause you removed your nail polish and they thought it looked cute on you" Chris reads out and I look at my nails.

"Some of it's still there.. I bite my nails, bad habit when I feel anxious. I kept chewing it off then realising and spitting it out cause it tastes disgusting and it's probably toxic" I say, looking at the chipped paint on my nails.

"Yeah, stop chewing your nails Sappy, you make your fingers all red and swollen" Karl says softly, looking at my stubs of nails.

"Sapnap! We only just got those looking nice again! - Dream" Chris reads out and I laugh.

"Sorry man, I left my medication there and I just slipped back in to bad habits, could have been back with the arms though" I say softly and Karl looks worried.

"Is.. this about.. the bar codes?" He asks and I hum.

"Dream made me promise a whole load of things such as, no harming, always take the medication given, keep to my sleep schedule.. blah blah blah" I say an Karl nods his head.

"Is that what happened to your arms.. I kinda saw earlier when you got hot" Chris says softly and I hum.

"I haven't done it in like two years but.. they're still there.." I mumble, subconsciously scratching at my covered left arm.