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★Can.. We Just Talk? - Tommyboo

Warning this chapter may contain inappropriate language and mature content.

CW - suicidal thoughts, self harm, anxiety

Channel(s) - TommyInnit, Tubbo, Ranboo, JackManifoldTV

Platonic Tommyboo, Ranboo supporting and helping Tommy

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Tommy's pov

"Alright, I'm gonna go get fish and chips with my dad, Jack will be here in twenty minutes.. don't kill eachother" Tubbo says, beginning to joke towards the end.

"Alright, bye mate" Ranboo says softly and I smile.

"Bye man" I say softly and Tubbo waves before heading out.

An uncomfortable silence falls over the room and I shuffle uncomfortably, fidgeting with my jeans as Ranboo gets up and goes to his set up.

"I'm gonna use the bathroom" I say softly before getting up and leaving after Ranboo just hums in acknowledgement.

I don't even need the go, I just needed to be out of the room. I sit by the door, picking at the skin around my nails as my hands shake. Being left alone with someone I feel like hates me just makes my anxiety worse.

I bite my nails, anxiously tapping my foot against the floor until I can even my breaths out and I feel slightly calmer.

I get up, washing my face off and flushing the toilet before going back out and sitting on the sofa.

"So.. what are you doing Ranboo?" I ask softly and he hums.

"I'm setting up Tubbo's stream, he asked for it to be ready" Ranboo says and softly and I nod.

"Could.. we have a serious talk?" I ask softly, drawing my fingers across the sofa.

"Hmm, I suppose. What's up?" Ranboo asks, barely turning to look to me.

"Can you sit..?" I ask softly and Ranboo nods before coming and over and sitting down.

"So, what's going on man?" He asks softly and I shuffle with the cushions on the sofa.

"Um.. can we not talk about this to Tubbo, I don't want to worry him but I need to just.. talk with someone" I say, looking at my shaking hands and Ranboo nods, gently taking my hands and massaging the palms.

"Take a deep breath, you're okay. I'm not gonna tell Tubbo or anyone anything you don't want me to" Ranboo says softly and I nod, taking in a deep breath and slowly breathing out.

"I-I.. m'just really struggling with stuff at the moment.. fans are overwhelming.. especially since I told them about my therapy and everything" I say shakily. "I.. think I need help from.. friends because I know I shouldn't hurt myself but I do" I say with a soft sniffle.

"Okay, where..? How bad?" Ranboo asks softly, a concerted expression spreading across his face.

"On.. my thighs.. mostly.. sometimes it's my stomach" I mumble out and he hums.

"I see, is everything okay with the injuries. Nothing is infected or anything?" Ranboo asks and I shake my head.

"I always clean up properly" I say and he nods.

"Does anything cause this, specifically?" Ranboo asks softly and I nod slowly.

"A few things.. stress.. is the main thing.." I say shakily and he nods. "Please Ranboo.. I don't feel safe with myself anymore.. I almost overdosed last weekend.. I was at my breaking point and nothing I do helps" I whisper out shakily, searching through his eyes for something as tears cloud mine.

"It's okay, you can cry if you need to Tommy" Ranboo says softly, gently rubbing my arm as a way to comfort me with out too much touch incase it makes either of us uncomfortable.

Tears run down my cheeks but I panic, hearing the door click open and Tubbo calls to us as he comes back in.

"Food is ordered!" Tubbo sings happily as he comes waltzing in with a smile. He's just happy to be hanging out with us two.

This seems to fade the second his eyes meet my teary ones, his expression dropping in to worry and concern.

"What happened? What's wrong?" Tubbo asks almost instantly.

"Nothing! Ranboo.. just made my laugh really hard!" I exclaim, wiping the tears off my cheeks and forcing a smile.

"You can tell me Tommy.. you don't need to lie to me okay.. I know when you're sad" Tubbo says softly, slowly coming over and sitting besides me

"I'm serious man.. nothing happened" I say, forcing a toothy smile towards him.

"I'm not stupid Tommy.. tell me.. I worry about you man" he says softly and my forced smile instantly crumbles as a wave of tears come flooding back and break down in to sobs, bringing my knees up to my chest.

"I-I didn't want to worry you!" I sob out and Tubbo sighs softly, gently rubbing my back.

"It's okay Tommy, you're okay.." he says and Ranboo shuffles besides me.

"I'm.. not great with emotions.. but it's okay to cry Tommy.. you're struggling.. you're allowed to be in this pain and you're allowed to talk to us. We're always gonna be here to help you man" Ranboo says softly and I nod.

"Tha-thank you.." I stutter out with a sniffle, rubbing snot on to my arm as I feel Tubbo gently wipe my tears.

"You're okay big man.. tell us exactly what you need to.. no judgement" Tubbo says softly and I nod with another ugly sniffle.

So I begin to tell them about all the pressure that's on my chest and in my mind. They comfort me through everything, helping me calm down and feel better. They give me five minutes to make sure I'm calm and feeling okay before we start to stream together whilst eating dinner.

Ranboo sits off screen whilst he eats and all that lovely stuff. We don't bring up anything that happened before stream after that. I was glad about that cause it was kinda embarrassing since it must have been so ugly. Tears, spit and snot everything I'm guessing. I've never been a pretty crier.

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Word count - 1010

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