Dream SMP ~«One Shots»~

★Still On Stream - Quackity

Warning this chapter may contain inappropriate language and mature content.

Cw - mentions childhood abuse, self harm scars, past suicide attempts

Channel(s) - Quackity, Sapnap, Karl, George, Bad

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Quackity's pov

"Quackity! C'mon hurry up!" George exclaims and I put my phone down face up on my desk.

"Sorry, I was just messaging my shrink" I say softly, looking down as it says that he's typing.

"You're what?" George asks and I look up from the anxiety inducing dots.

"Oh, my therapist.. he's making sure I haven't done anything stupid like he does every night" I say with a nervous laugh, pushing my phone aside and glancing at the screen.

I look to the screen and then remember, like how could I forget, I'm on George's stream doing this weird bit for it where I'm a cow in need of milking.

"My game therapist, obviously" I say, nervously bouncing me knee.

"Mmm.. we'll talk later" George says and we soon slip back in to our stream characters and continue on with the stream.

<Later on>

We sit in silence, all three of us in the call just after the stream ended. It's kinda awkward.

"So.. you see a therapist?" George asks and I hum slowly.

"Yeah I.. tried to un-alive my self a few years back.. and I still have thoughts of it occasionally so my therapist texts me every night at the same time to make sure I haven't tried to dead myself" I say softly, fidgeting with this metal ring thing.

It's two rings and they just twist around eachother. It's great for playing with in one hand and works as a great fiddle toy.

"You haven't thought about that recently right?" Bad asks softly and I shrug.

"Umm.. I wish I could say no.. I've considered it at least once this week" I say softly, running the rings through my fingers.

"When are you next seeing this therapist?" George asks and I look to my calendar.

"To~morrow" I say, squinting in the dark to see the words written on my wall calendar. "Yeah, tomorrow afternoon" I say softly as I reach for my snacks.

"That's good.. does it help?" Bad asks softly and I hum.

"Yeah.. I mean it must if I haven't actually tried to off myself in three years" I say softly and the two hum. "Anyways I'm gonna go, I'm gonna get a snack and do some editing" I say softly before saying goodbye to the two in the call.

I sigh, leaning back in my chair and looking at the stuff on my screen.

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"So.. just before we get in to the main stream with Dream and George, I want to talk about what happened on George's stream.. I spoke about my therapist" I begin softly. "I want you all to know I don't go cause of the media or how anyone's treated me online.. my childhood is a wreck.. and I tried to kill myself at fifteen.. and seventeen.. it's rough" I say softly, fidgeting with my clothing.

I pause, looking over at chat before glancing around my room.

"I.. wasn't in the greatest of places and honestly I'm still not.. streaming is my outlet and I really enjoy doing this.. and I'm gonna continue to stream, make content and entertain you guys because that is what I enjoy and it's what makes me happy.." I say softly, clearing my throat before moving on from the heavy topic and in to the more comedic side of the stream.

I honestly feel so much better being able to get that off my chest and have my audience aware. I am so grateful for my fanbase and the support I get from them. I wouldn't want these past years to change or go any other way. Yes I'm still doing law in school but content creating is such a good outlet for my stress.

I'm just glad I got so lucky with streaming and all that.

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Word count - 685

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