Dream SMP ~«One Shots»~

★Hard To Talk - Karlity

Warning this chapter may contain inappropriate language and mature content.

Tw - break down, slight self harm warning, panic attack, mentions being raped

Channel(s) - Karl, Quackity, MrBeast, Chris, Chandler

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Karl's pov

"And so.. I've got plans to bring back my YouTube channel from the dead and actually start uploading again!" I exclaim, talking about some future plans I have.

Jimmy, Chandler and Chris are joining me for this stream. We're playing mario kart and just talking. Quackity is staying with me at the moment but he didn't want to be on stream cause he has lore to do with Sapnap, Schlatt, Wilbur and Tommy.

"Ayo, why does Karl look like that?"

"Look like what?" I ask softly, looking up at the camera after the donation comes through.

"Like a little cum slut" (I hate myself for writing this, I hate this. I don't think like this at all!)

My heart drops. That's fricken disgusting. My smile falters a little as I try to ignore what they've said and move on, my hand shaking a little so I grip on to the controller in my hands.

"Karl..?" Chandler whispers softly, leaning on me and I turn to look at him with a forced smile. "Don't listen to them.." he says softly and I nod.

"Moving on, let's start the next round!" I exclaims as I begin to set up the game.

"Little slut boy like him could definitely go a few rounds"

I scrunch my nose up in absolute disgust, still trying to ignore the messages as I get the game ready.

"I bet he's just got the perfect body to use"

"Guys, I'm gonna get a drink before we start. Anyone want anything?" I ask softly, getting up and going over to my mini fridge.

"Coke?" Jimmy asks and I hum.

"Can I have a Capri-Sun?" Chandler asks and I nod my head.

"I'm good" Chris says and I nod.

I grab one monster, one coke and one Capri-Sun from the fridge before going back to my friends and handing them their drinks.

"Hey, is your Mexican friend done with his lore yet?" Chris asks and I shrug.

"Check my twitch, it'll say if he's still streaming or not" I say, handing them my phone.

"A guy like that should be used"

I shiver and crack my drink open, sipping off the top before putting it down on the table and picking my controller back up.

"So, the winner of this round gets to pick the losers punishment and it will have to be able to do on stream so don't go too extreme" I explain and everyone nods.

"Did anyone see that one tweet from Karl where he-"

Another donation goes on and I just frown it out with the game music, not even wanting to hear what they've got to say.

More degrading donations come through, people talking about my body and how they would do stuff to me if we were to date. It's creepy.

It becomes progressively harder to breathe as I listen to the donations, getting lost in the words and forgetting about the game.

I lift a trembling hand up to my mouth as tears leak out of my eyes and run down my cheeks. I hiccup, getting my friends attention with a panicked and shallow, desperate breath.

"I'll get Quackity!" Jimmy says as Chandler places a hand on my shoulder and watches me physically jump.

I move my hands over my ears, wanting to just block out the entire world as I panic. My breathing is shallow and fast as the room feels humid and it spins.

"Babe, hey, bubbas, I'm here.. I'm right here!" Quackity's soft voice meets my covered ears and I slowly bring my hands back, clinging on to him in an instant.

"I-I don't want to do it again.. I don't want to see him.. or be near him, I don't like it Q.." I stutter out between sniffles and Quackity hums softly.

"It's okay, you don't need to" he says softly, gently rubbing my back and I hiccup, crying heavily in to his shoulder. "Hey, don't worry okay.. you won't ever be near him again, he can't do anything to you for as long as I shall live.. he won't even be allowed near you.. you're safe with me.. I promise you bubs" Quackity says softly and I nod, nuzzling in to him.

"I.. just.. I'm just starting to get better.. I don't want to be raped again Q.. I don't want to see him ever.. never ever.." I stutter out, tired sighs escaping past my lips.

"It's okay, you won't be.. okay, you're okay.. I promise you, I won't let it happen again" Quackity says softly and I nod, staying clung on to his clothing.

"Karl.. we ended stream earlier when Quackity came in.. we want you to take a little break from twitch" Chris says softly and I nod with a sniffle.

"Oh-okay.. I will.." I say softly. Quackity gently kisses my nose as he wipes away tears from my cheeks with his thumbs.

"Let's go put on your comfort movie and we can get cozy with snacks" Quackity says softly and I nod, rubbing my eyes.

"Tha-anks.. guys.." I stutter out in a croaky tone and the guys smile softly.

"It's okay, we'll pack up and then we can show ourselves out.. we'll be at Jimmy's if you need any of us" Chris says softly and I nod slowly.

"Okay.." I say softly, sniffling as I rub my eyes.

Quackity smiles softly as he helps me up and takes me off to my bedroom. He gets me out my comfy pajamas as he goes to get snacks and then sets up a movie on the flat screen.

"Thank you Quackity.. I love you.." I mumble softly, feeling him cuddle in to me as he returns to the bed in his own comfy pajamas.

"It's okay, I love you too Karl" he says softly before kissing my temple and pressing play on the remote for the movie.

I sigh softly, snuggling in to his chest more and calming at the sound of his heart beat.

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Word count - 1056

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