Odette Parker: My True Self

Chapter 19: Magic?

Loki and I stare at each other in silence for a bit. After almost 60 seconds of silence I remember what he was thinking.

Dets: "Can I ask you something?"

Loki: "Of course."

Dets: "Are you more upset that I somehow got into your mind, or are you embarrassed by what I saw while I was in there?"

Loki: "What do I have to be embarrassed about?"

Dets: "Oh, I don't know. Maybe being caught in the middle of some imaginary sex romp while you were supposed to be reading my mind?"

Loki: "I assure you I have nothing I am embarrassed about. It caught me off guard when you brought it up because no one has ever been able to see into my mind. Not even my mother who taught me how to see into others."

Dets: "So what does that mean exactly?"

Loki: "It means you have more power than you realize Kitten."

Dets: "Fuck. My. Life. OK, what was that flash from earlier that apparently caused the seizure? I saw a memory of yours involuntarily. You did not project that, and I didn't even try to look, not that I know how, mind you. So what is happening to me? Why is this starting now? Why is it progressing. I mean after the incident I started to be able to feel peoples emotions, not just know how they were feeling, but actually feel them like they were mine. It wasn't everyone or every emotion, just the strong ones they were trying not to feel I guess. Then I started hearing thoughts people swallowed, or at least that is how I figured it. I mean it wasn't every thought but like a sentence they wanted to say but didn't at the last minute. Then I arrive here and it gets amplified."

Loki: "Kitten, I need you to calm down."

He is crouched in front of me. His hands grab my face and force me to look at him. God those eyes.

Dets: "I am not going to calm down. How do you expect me to calm down? This is all new to me. Its an invasion of other's privacy. It's making me think I am going crazy. Maybe I am going crazy, maybe this all some psychotic break. I mean it's not like I haven't earned one."

My breathing is getting heavy, panic-y, and I can't slow it down.

Dets: "I...can't...breathe."

I grab my chest and feel the panic attack coming. Shit, not now.

Loki: "What do you need? How can I help you?"

Dets: "Calm...my....breathing.." I stagger out between huffs.

Loki grabs my face again and kisses me. I was not expecting this. The shock is evident as I hold my breath. He pulls back slowly and looks at me.

Loki: "Have you calmed yet?"

My eyes are still wide as I shake my head yes. Loki nods and the stands back up. He walks to the bathroom. I bring my hand to my lips, I still feel him, and smile beneath them. I drop my hand when I hear him walking back in. He places a cold compress on the back of my neck as he sits down next to me. I turn to look at him.

Dets: "How did you know that would work?"

Loki: "I didn't honestly, I just hoped it would shock you enough to end your panic. It did. I was expecting a slap after though. It was without your permission and I seem to recall you threatening to remove my hands if I ever touched you without it."

Dets: "Do you want me to slap you?"

Loki: "Not particularity no. Are you feeling better Kitten?"

Dets: "That is one way to avoid a panic attack. Thank you."

Loki: "That was quite terrifying, what happened?"