Odette Parker: My True Self

Chapter 50: I want to

A/N: I have labeled the sexy time part starting with (>>) safe space are started with (**)
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I wake with a start. I am in bed and my bed is empty. When did I even get to bed? Why is the bed empty? I call out into the emptiness.

Dets: "James Barnes, you better be in this hotel room."

I get no response. Panic rising I get out the bed and start to search the entire room. His bags are still here, so that's a good sign. I walk out into the living room and see him passed out on the couch, his Hydra files everywhere. I look over at the clock and it is 3:00AM.

I walk over to the couch and squat in front of him. I run my hand along his jaw line.

Dets: "Baby, come to bed."

He stirs for a bit, slowly opening his eyes.

Dets: "Hey Soldier."

Bucky: "Hey Doll."

I stand and hold out my hand to him.

Dets: "Come to bed baby."

He rises slowly and takes my hand. We walk back into the bedroom and Bucky releases my hand. He pulls his shirt off and walks over to our bags. He grabs his basketball shorts, a tank, and some cheer shorts for me. I walk up behind him and wrap my arms around his waist, kissing his back. He turns in my arms and wraps his arms around my waist, resting his head on top on mine. I use on of my hands to grab the clothes from his hand and drop them back on top of our bags.

He pulls away with a look of confusion. I kiss his chest and look up at him.

Bucky: "What are you doing?"

Dets: "Nothing." I say in a sing-song voice.

I run my hands up his back, bringing them back down with my finger nails grazing his skin.

Bucky: "Doll..."

Dets: "Hmm?"

I bring my hands around in front and start unbuckling his belt. His hands grab mine and stop.

Bucky: "What happened to going to bed?"

Dets: "I said come to bed, not let's go to sleep."

Bucky: "Is that so?"

He bring my arms around his neck and lifts me up, wrapping my legs around him.

Dets: "Yup!" I pop the 'P' and smile at him.

Bucky: "So what do you want to do, since we are not going to sleep?"

Dets: "If you hadn't interrupted me you would have found out."

Bucky: "I am so sorry Doll."

He releases me setting me back down to stand in front of him. My hands move back to his belt and I pull it from the loops. I unbutton his jeans and shimmie them down his legs, he steps out of them when I get to the bottom. I stand back up and start kissing a line down his chest. I get to the hem of his boxers and look up at him. I kiss my way back up his chest and palm the front of him through his boxers. He inhales deeply. growing hard with my touch. I start to make my way back down his chest when he grabs my chin.

Bucky: "You don't have to..."

Back on Asgard I told Bucky about all my past experiences. I admitted to him that I had never had given head to a man. I don't know how I ever managed to get away with that, but I've never done it. I know it has something to do with what happened to me when I was 16, how I was used as a toy, how things were taken from me. I told him that I never wanted to be on my knees in front of a man; that there was something about submitting myself to a man that just felt wrong. He's never asked for it, and never brought it up again. Don't know what has gotten into me, but tonight I want to do it.