Lust | JJK ✔️

28- Hurt

Jungkook's jaw drops, he backs away from you. His gaze switches between your belly and your face as he licks his lips while throwing his head back in dismay. He walks back and turns his back on you, gazing out into the desert and rubbing the sweat off of his forehead. You hear him sighing before he turns back towards you.

"Yn, I can explain-"

"You don't have to, explains how you magically found me crying in the middle of nowhere that day." You glare at him. "And I know where my necklace is as well." You place a hand at your collarbone, the presence of emptiness because of the absence of the jewellery which is otherwise usually sitting on your neck shows.

"You're a traitor Jungkook!" You cry out loud. "I trusted you for fuck's sake. I gave you my fucking necklace, my power." You shake, your mind was getting more stunned with every passing second, you were awestricken and you weren't able to digest the fact that Jungkook could backstab you. Everybody hates you after all, right? You destroyed an entire working and functioning kingdom, got your own parents murdered, turned your brothers into bond slaves, trapped everyone inside various hiccups and struggles of their own destiny, but you yourself?

You enjoyed all the undeserved comforts and solaces and succours, every possible materialistic object right in front of you at your first demand, compliments for your fucked up face, the only poverty you ever experienced was of struggles. What did you do for anyone in your life other than being fucked by a stranger?

You destroyed everything Aban had put together with years of efforts, protection, and blood. You scattered all pieces of the jigsaw Aban had spent his lifetime on collecting and arranging, you lost at life. You gave your virginity to a traitor, such a desperate, cheap slut you are. You couldn't wait and check if Jungkook was a person of trust, you betrayed Aban. You're worthless.

"I loved you with all my heart." You did, but you deserve to get your heart broken because you're of no use. You know nothing, you didn't even know how to fuck yourself without the help of a man you met a couple of days ago.

"I do too yn, I didn't even know ninety percent of the story because I was just told to do what I was told, listen to me-"

"Stop fucking lying Jungkook!!" You yell. "Why are you still trying?" You words didn't mean anything, you yourself were ashamed of yourself. Oh, how excited you were to tell Jungkook about the good news but? All of it went down the drain when you overheard him. You never told him Taehyung's real identity, you were afraid he'd accidentally say it in front of Aban and make him aware of the fact that you know.

You know that Taehyung was the one doing all this, you knew it was Taehyung who went to the South of the Kingdom when you were merely 5 years into life. You remembered, it only took you the half hearted, incomplete story Aban had narrated to you to get the flashbacks. You were heartbroken, but if you started crying, who'd wipe Aban's tears? You only knew selflessness, because you're stupid. You're an idiot, brainless, dumb girl. Who told you that you hold any importance?

"Yn, see, I was just blinded by the luxuries of this place, I'm sorry. I really am, please just please let me complete myself to you." Jungkook's eyes water up as well. "I know my initial reason wasn't healthy, but I am not lying! I have fallen in deep love with you, sweetheart."

"Shut that hole in your face." You spit. "You think I'll still fall for any of your hollow, meaningless words? Stop acting Jungkook!! Stop playing this freaking act, your mask has been removed. Stop with your skits and just fucking go!"

"Yn, these are my words, no skits. I cannot imagine leaving you right now. Please-"

"Then imagine it Jungkook, go do whatever you want. It's my birthday this week, I turn 20. Let me go and get fucked by my own brother." You cry, your own tongue crying before uttering such cruel words.

"I don't want any of this!!" Jungkook screams, pointing a hand at the grandeur of the palace. "I want this!!!" He points at your heart. "And I'll go against the world for it, no freaking body can stop me, not even you." He fists your hair painfully and smashes his lips on yours, kneading them together, but you push him away almost making him fall.

"Don't fucking touch me." You wipe your lips and show your teeth in disgust, slightly spitting to show him how much you hated him. "I hate you! I hate you-"

"Don't say that." He grabs your jaw and pushes your head on the wall. "Do you know how much I regret falling in love with you?!" He pushes a finger harshly into your chest, as he mumbles and you feel your chest pain, his words were always too sweet and honey like, but you knew he was nothing like so, not in reality. He was feeding you with delicious delusion and you fed on it blindly.

"Only I have the right to have my seed inside that fresh fucking womb of yours. You're mine. You're fucking mine." He mumbles on your lips as he grabs together the cleavage of your blouse, fisting it in his hand and pulling you towards him. That was it.

There your hand goes flying, planting straight across his cheek. A tight slap lands on his face, he trudges backwards and you take this opportunity to stand up on your feet. Jungkook's eyes were shut and damp, he palmed the now red skin of his cheek which burned painfully, but not more than his heart.

He feels some discomfort in his chest, almost like he could feel his heart tearing apart inch by inch. He kneels down on the floor clutching his chest, his cheeks were now wet with the salty droplets of his tears as he sobs hard into his own hands. His condition made yours worse, be it any other day before this, you would have ran up to him and taken him in your arms, but not today, not anymore.

You break the bracelet enveloped around your wrist and throw it on his figure on the floor, your heart pains more than it has ever pained or it will ever pain. The leather twines shed their threads as they unwind and clutter into shreds all over the floor. You could never imagine to do this, you loved him, and unfortunately, you still do.

You still love Jungkook more than yourself and you are completely ashamed of yourself for the same, you want to slap yourself for it, but once in love, forever in love. You could never fall out of love in Jungkook's case. You were indeed his forever, although you knew you'll never let him be yours anymore after what he did.

"Don't ever show me your face again, I'll never show you mine." You run the back of your hand on your cheek, to wipe away the irritating tears of love and hurt. You both stay still in the silence upcoming, taking a few minutes to breath and calm yourselves down. You weren't even ready to think what to do next, when you hear a voice oh so familiar. "What's going on here?" Aban says.