Anchor- A JJ Maybank Fanfic

19. The Bitter Direction

Not Tiktok taking down my videos and banning me on them because of "Adult nudity and sexual activity" as if my writing has porn in it. This is an elegant, family-friendly, educational story about two kids just trying to fuck the shit out of each other, that's all. The audacity Tiktok has for banning me and implicating me of those accusations as if I write pure filth, like who does that? 🙄🤚

The Bitter Direction:
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I thrust a little more before I pulled out. I watched the girl tremble from her release as her red hair sticks to her forehead with sweat. I lay on my side of the bed, sliding off the condom and gasping for air, knowing we've been doing this shit for the fifth time this week. She wanted me to fuck her, so I did. It's that easy. I'm still pissed at Mer, even though it's been a week since I last saw her or Kie or anyone else. God, I'm so fucking pissed at her. I don't push girls into doing things if they don't want to do, but shit, why would she lead me on like that and then ditch right after?

Mer didn't give me a reason either. She just...stopped. So I stopped too. I'm not going to stay around and wait for Mer to make up her mind. She either takes it or leaves it. Mer left it so I called up this tourist, the one I made out with at the party, and asked if she wanted to hook up. She obviously said yes.

I sighed in my mind. No, no I'm not going to stop. For some reason, I can't. Ever since I met her, she's the only thing running through my brain. Mer's body is always on my mind, and so is her confidence. She acts like she doesn't have it, but she made all the first moves. Our first kiss was something I'd never expect a girl to do. Grabbing and pulling me in like that after turning me down was interesting. The way Mer pinned me down was turning me so fucking on that if it wasn't for Kie and her party, I'd keep her up all night and made sure that she wouldn't even have the ability to stand in the morning.

But then, Mer had to go and tell those lies to Topper and Rafe by saying we're just friends. So, making out with this random ass girl I met at the beach, I was only proving Mer's point. But to make matters worse, she let John B touch her. It could've been Tana, or Kie, or even Pope for all I care, but it had to be John B going after her. I know that he has Sarah now and that he would never cheat on her, but it gave me flashbacks that led to a memory that ripped me apart.

I forgave John B once, I'm not doing it again.

I should've seen it coming. But I was so blind by the need to feel something, to feel some comfort in a person without them hurting me physically, that I didn't see her little pattern. But what killed me the most was knowing that she knew exactly what would've happened to me after that night. Is that why I'm always trying to sleep with Mer? To feel and do something again that pleasures me and not always brings me pain? Is that why-.

"You okay over here?" The ginger, who I don't even know the name of, asks over my shoulder, "You're quieter than usual." I completely forgot that this girl existed for a second. When I nodded, she followed my head movements and mumbles, "Cool, cool, that's completely...cool." It was silent again until my eyes felt heavy from the exhaustion, and I'm guessing she saw that since she opened her mouth again to say, "You can stay the night if you want to, I don't mind."

No, I didn't want that. I want to go back to my friends, to Mer. Maybe it wasn't the right time since Kie and Santana were sleeping on the couch 10 feet away from us. There were people there, but I bet they would love the show. That was another thing, does Mer like to record when she's doing it? Is that why her soggy ass parents meant about a sex video? I mean, I'm not going to judge if she's into that, I'll let her record us if she ever asked me. My face heats just by thinking about her tits since I saw them on the old phone. God, does Merrie have any idea how beautiful she is? She's so pretty.