Anchor- A JJ Maybank Fanfic

14. The Porn, 𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗥

The Porn, 𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗥:
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JJ grabs onto my thighs and pushes me up to his torso, wrapping my legs around his waist. He doves into my lips and kisses me without stopping. I clenched his neck and pressed his lips with mine to deepen the kiss, opening my mouth to slide my tongue towards his as he allowed me to access his tongue. We both slither our way to each other's mouths while JJ starts walking forward towards something. Suddenly, JJ gently leans his body forward to drop me on a mattress that appeared out of the blue.

I felt his hand slide up my shirt to massage my breasts from the fabric of my bra. JJ pulls away and takes off his shirt to uncover his defined abs and tightened V-line. With confidence, I took off my shirt and tossed it to the side, letting him kiss all over my collarbone and neck. I closed my eyes, admiring the feeling of JJ's tongue on my skin. I ran my fingers through his soft blonde hair, gripping and brushing it while I caressed his neck.

"God, Merrie, " JJ moans deeply through breaks of kisses, "I need to feel you, please, " He moves up and licks the side of my jawline, "Please let me fucking feel all of you." He breaks contact with my jaw and kisses me hungrily. I hummed at his taste, enjoying his wet lips slide with mine. I shuffle JJ's hair around with my hands while his hands moved down towards my upper body.

But something didn't feel right.

An abrupt heavy load of dizziness tugs down on my head, suddenly making my brain feel like it was the most painful thing on my body. I break away as the pain grew more robust, "JJ, I want to, but I-." My breath hitches as if I unexpectedly lost my capability to speak. JJ notices my pace as his expression changes; JJ desperately examines my eyes, trying to find my explanation. "JJ, I can't," I cried, "God, if only you knew why-."

"Is it because you're scared that there's nothing unique about you?" JJ considers coldly, showing no emotion on his face anymore, "Considering everyone has seen all of you, so you hold nothing special about your body or yourself anymore." JJ departs from me, leaving me speechless, and climbs his way off the mattress, "Or is it because you're a desperate slut begging for attention? I mean, imagine grinding on someone you just met and or videotaping your first time? That's fucking disgusting, Mer, and you know it," JJ scolded.

I tried opening my mouth, but it was as if my jaw muscles couldn't lift themselves for me to speak. I wanted to defend myself, I tried to fight back, but I couldn't find the words. The weight laid on my head slowly disintegrated down to the rest of my body, making me feel heavy.

"You know he's right, Star, " A voice spoke in the dark distance. I shifted my eyes off JJ and tried to catch a glimpse at the tall figure approaching, but the outer darkness was coating it. "Nothing is amazing about you, Starlight; I should know." The figure came out of the shadows and approached the spotlight.

Topper.

"Miss me already, Star?" Topper whispers with that vicious grin on his face, "You just can't get enough of me, can you?" Tears appeared in my eyes at the sight of him. Nothing hurts more than seeing the person who made my heart sore from all the crucial damage. Every time I let it sink in, it floods my heart with offensive threats and insults that I've gotten, and it fucking hurts.

I look down to cover my sloppy tears streaming down my face when I noticed a black camera with a red flashing light magically appeared on my palms. I wanted to make a sound, but I was incapable of doing so. I stare at the camera, terrified of what was recorded on there. My hands started to shake, wanting to throw it across the room and never to be seen again, but I couldn't.