Flash Point Family

Chapter 110

i woke up in the room and i looked around and saw that none of the guys where there the i tried to get out of the bed and i saw i had on these padded mittens.
getting up from the bed i made my way out of the room to see the door was allready open making my way down the stairs i looked into the kitchen to see all the guys standing around the table with all the food that was allready done.

''ok which one of you put this on me i want it off right now?'' i called out causing everyone to stare at me
''hey look who up guys'' steven said out loud as he walked towards me slowly taking off the mittens and studying my face he is so much like Daddy and Grandpa and all the other guys in my life.
''how are you felling little one'' steven asked me in the soft voice that he used with me last night maybe he is afraid that i will come undone i sometimes fell that i will the only thing that hold me together is my family and those that i know closely that know how to deal with me when i get like this.
''hungry and tierd right now '' i answerd him which i was both but i also wanted to be held i wanted my dad to make the hurt go away yes i do have to face my demons head on in order to start to heal but its so hard to take that first step yes its very unhealthy in so many ways but it hard to take that first step. i will always have things i have to deal with but maybe facing this head on will take some of the load off.

''i want to be held '' i replied to steven barley above a whispher not looking at him i could not look him in the eye i was felling very valuriable and small.
''come on little one lets eat lunch'' Steven told me as he picked me up and walked back into the kitchen where he sat down and put me on his lap while Ben passed me a plate of tarkey and chesse with lettece and tatatos and french fries we where all just qutiely eating lunch looking around i saw all the boys and Grandpa and the new guy Alex looked to be in deep thought i know it had o do with me and i got sad again.

''whats wrong kid?'' i looked up to steven who looked down at me with his serious face he gives me all the time
''you guys seem stressed and i know it has to do with me looking at you guys reminds me of how my parents and my Brother look after i been crazy.'' i responded to the guys and Granda got up from his chair walking over to me and Steven he picked me up from Steven lap and walked over to the living room and sat on the couch with me on his lap the other guys followed behind i swear these guys are not going to leave me alone.

''Dont say that about your self love some days are good and some days are bad but you have had good days right with my son right ? Grandpa asked me
''yeah one time he took us all to the zoo and we saw all the animals then we got pizza on the way home and then watched movies and ate pizza all night long we wind up all sleeping in the living room.'' i told Grandpa and the guys in the room and i could fell the room getting lighter.
''see that was a good day little one those days do happen and then some days are not so good and we have to remeber on those bad days that it will not last its hard when you are going through it you dont see those good days how do you fell on those bad days love ?
''hopeless i  fell like it would never end it makes me not want to do anything its like i want to do things to snap out of it but notting works so i just have ride that down wave.'' i replied back to the boys.

''what do you do for comfort on those off days ?'' Grandpa asked me
''i grab Daddy hoddie and i put it on or i go down stairs where ever my mom is at and just sit there not next to her because she is always moving around so ill pretend to be on my phone. it helps sometimes to know that someone is with me then most times ill go sleep in y bed with teddy bears or ill go to mom and dads room and sleep with them and daddy puts on a movie and we cuddle until i go to sleep.'' i told the boys and grandpa he started to laugh 'humm i need to talk to my son he spoils you to much your furture husband is going to have to  step up his game with you i dont know if i am still around when thats happend i am going to have to tell him how much my son spoils you.'' grandpa told me and the guys lauged
''grandpa do you really think that i will have a family of my own one day ''i asked Grandpa not fully trusting my own voice
''of course my Dear there is somone for every one i am not saying it will be easy because being with someone is never easy and you will need some one who knows you and is patient with you as well as you will have to adjust to the other person and get to know them and live with another person. but i do beilive there is some one out there for you just not right now because you are still to young to be thining of those things besides your dad said you cant date untill you are married.'' Grandpa told me and all the guys started laughing and i burried my face into Grandpa chest and i felt him still lauging when i turned around i saw there was a tablet on my lap what was this here for.

''this is a map of the grounds at the hosptial you where in can you show us where you where trying to escape and where you saw the baby ?'' Alex the new guy asked me and i started to stir where i was on Grandpa lap i wanted to jump off and run out the door i felt him hold me in place.
''come on little one you got this '' Steven told me
''there'' i pointed to the exit i tried to escape from
''right there?'' he asked me to make sure i told him the right spot
''yes '' i answered him
''there is a bunch of woods and abandon places that a baby could be at'' i hear alex tell the guys not looking at me he went back to to the tablet and started to do some thing on it the way uncle Spike dose
''how far did you get on foot before you where found?'' Alex asked me
''i dont know i was running in the dark cold i just had the robe i did not fully think the whole thing out.'' i said to him

''yeah that sounds like some thing you would do'' all the guys replied together
''hey'' i replied giving them all dirty looks

''there was a building i guess that was abondon because it was over run with plants i hid in there to catch my breath and while i was there i started to walk around and there was a court yard i guess and i hid behind a wall there was not windows and i saw rick there. he had a shovel and was digging a hole in the dirt then after he throw a bundled wrapped up it looked like a baby there was no sound coming out of the bundle but it was dark and i dont really know what i saw. so i ran back the way i came out and that is when i got caught and they grabbed me stuck a neddle in me and i woke up some where in a soiltary room. ''

''after that rick followed me every day since that night or had me followed i was growing pariod maybe i did not see what i saw that night?'' i said out loud to no one really
''no baby i think you did see something that night you just not sure what you saw because your brain is protecting it self from trama but your body knows something bad happend.'' Grandpa told me
''is this the genral area '' Alex asked me so i just pointed to the spot and turned towards my Grandpa chest i did not want to talk any more to any one.

''ok thank you Alice you did good'' Alex told me
''Grandpa i want to talk to Daddy i want my Daddy Grandpa'' i started crying into my Granpa chest i felt as he rubbed my back getting up and rocking me like a baby.
taking his phone out of his pocket he diled Dad number he picked up right away  ''Daddy Daddy i need you '' i was crying into grandpa phone i need to hear my dad voice.

''you did good baby that was a brave start little one'' was it i though i felt sick to my stomach facing your demons are scary sometimes but a nessary step towardsw healing.