Flash Point Family

Chaper 114

i had a really bad dream last night i do not really know if it was a dream or a memory i woke up in a cold sweat i jumped up from the bed and started to cry.
as soon as i started to cry in came Arron scanning the room before his eyes locked on my own then it dawned on him that it was me indetress not some outside forces.

''come on kid its ok your safe your here with us right now'' Arron told me as he grabbed my arms and pulled me out of the room and down the hall down the stairs to the kitchen where all the guys where still up.
''some one had a nightmeare '' Arron told the guys and everyone turned to look towards myself
''come here honey '' i herd my Grandpa telling me but i felt miles and miles away from where i was standing in the kitchen i did not know what to do next and my body and brain was not responding to what was being asked of me.

i felt when Arron starting to lightly pushing me towards the kitchen and the guys once i got towards Grandpa i felt when Granpa touched my back it was wet with sweat.
''ooo honey lets get you changed into some dry chloths '' Grandpa said outloud while i saw Arron pass chloth to Grandpa i wonder when did he have time to grab them.

walking into the bathroom i was still slowly coming to i hate when i get into those moods because it take a long time to get out of it daddy knows what to do when i get like this. but i do not know if Grandpa and the guys know how to help me i wonder if i tell them how to help me would they get mad at me or judge me.

i felt that Grandpa was reading my mind he is alot like daddy i wonder if my husband would be able to be like Grandpa and Daddy why was i even thinking of that.

''what do you need me to do honey you are just standing there lost in where ever you are right now ?'' Grandpa asked me so i looked down at my wet cloths
''i need to change my chloths there wet'' i said out loud and grandpa passed me my chloths one piece at a time after i was done i used the bathroom and throw the chloths in the hamper.

''what next ?'' Grandpa asked me
''i want to be held papa'' i told Grandpa barly above a whipser he chuckled when i said that and open the bathroom door and turned to pick me up walking back into the kitchen.

''what else does my son do ?" Grandpa asked me
''he makes me write in my journal and have some thing to eat then he gives me a mommet then i have to tell him what happend '' i told Grandpa
''ok love'' Granpa told me as he passed me my journal that i did not even know he had or i cannot remeber i packed it then Ben passed me a plate with a grilled cheese fries and a pickle my favorite comfort food. Eating food and drinking some soda sitting on Grandpa lap writing in my jounral i felt like i was getting better i was slowly coming out the daze.

closing my journal i put it on the table and the empty plate of food i want another sandwhich but i dont want to tell the boys even though with one look Ben allready knew and was allready making another sandwhich.
''here kid'' Ben told me handing me another plate and drink i ate quitely everyone was around the table patiencely waiting until i was done.

''i had a nightmare but i do not know if it was a nightmare or a flash back'' i told the boys and everyone was allready seated around the kitchen.
''what happend it the dream '' Steven told me
''i think i saw the guy hurting another girl and then he turned and hurt me and then i was running and that when i got caught and thrown into a dark room. i was crying i was out of breath and crying that i wanted my daddy and all the events where playing in my head again over and over in my head until i could not take it anymore and i tried to hurt my self to make those bad racing thoughts stop.''

i said outloud to all the guys in the room that was the first time that i let people in to what i struggle with and noww i do not know how i fell right now i do not like that felling. Steven or course picked up on that and got up and took me out of Grandpa lap and put me on his lap so i just burried my head on his chest.
''you did really good opening up to us and i want you to know that we will not judge you at all this is a safe space for you to be vuriable with us.'' Steven told me
''i do not know how i fell i fell embrassed i think i fell small and vuraibal and moody and irtable right now."  i told Steven
''well honey you did good expressing your self and trust me the guys do not judge you and we will help you work through all that you struggle with in a healthy way.
''but right now you need to get your rest so lets go back up to bed because when you do not sleep your are extra hell to live with '' Steven said out loud and all the guys laughed and agreed with him.
''hey '' i whined out looking towards Grandpa
''dont look at me kid Steven is right besides girl need more sleep then guys do espically young girls who drive there Grandpa crazy.'' Grandpa said while getting up to give me a kiss then steven got up from the chair and started to walk up the stairs and int othe bed room dropping me on the bed.
''can we watch a movie Steven ?'' i aksed Steven hoping he would say yes
''ok but no scary movies because then you would never let me sleep.'' Steven told me getting into the other side of the bed with me i put on live free or die hard.

i fell fast sleep with Steven next to me before the movie started i felt when steven pulled the blanket over my head the way i liked and keep rubbing my back the same way that Daddy does.