I THOUGHT

Chapter 37

Jennie Kim|

"Ms. Jane, its best when you tell Jennie, don't think too much. Emotional stress happens when your pregnant without your partner at nakakasama sa bata yan. You know that Ms. Jane. She have to be careful stress can can lead to miscarriage too."

Tears came out from my eyes. I'm still closing it, but I heard everything.

I'm conscious, and I'm so happy my baby is still safe from what happened earlier.

FLASHBACK

"AHHH! Why can't she understand me, mom?! I need her more, pero wala! Dun siya nag fo-focus sa business niya with that girl!" I yelled.

"Jennie, sweetie. Calm down, okay? Come on. I understand you, but I think you need to tell her Jennie its been months." I bitterly chuckle.

Yes, its been two months and my tummy became more bigger now.

"And what? What if she'll ignore me more huh? Mom, obviously Lisa don't care anymore. She's into business and not me! She's having fun with Mina and not me!" I cried.

"Sweetheart, I'm not against you okay? Its just maybe you misunderstand everything? Maybe, we have to tell Lisa the truth, and-

"Mom, please! Lisa's ignoring me right now! What more if she knows that I'm fucking pregnant more 3 months now huh?!" I shouted, and slammed the phone in the table.

I then ran towards my room, and accidentaly I slipped.

"Ahhh,"

"Jennie! Oh gosh! Sweetheart. Are you okay?" Mom helped me, but my tummy hurts.

"M-Mom, ahhh! It hurts!" I cried.

"Ghad, Jennie! Blood. Stay there, okay? I'll call albulance!" Mom nervously said, and I can't get enough nervous seeing blood trailing my legs to my toes.

Its like I got suffocated, I got deaf, and my eyes started to dim.

"B-Baby, I'm sorry...."

I fell in the floor.

"Jennie!"

I fainted.

END OF FLASHBACK

I hate myself for feeling this emotions. Hindi ko alam kung san pa ako kakapit. I have so much plans for us, pero eto ako.

Unti unti nang naging baldado dahil di maka galaw nang maayos, at di pwedeng magpa stress.

I'm not blaming the baby, of course I do love having a child with Lisa. Its just, unti unti na niya akong na iignore ngayon.

Palaging reason niya, magkasama sila ni Mina, chinicheck yung ganito, ganyan.
Its been months, at naiintindihan ko rin naman its just di ko maiwasang mag isip nang kung ano ano.

Nasasaktan ako eh. Napapagod ako. Nagiging malungkot ako at ang daming sinasabi nang utak ko kaya minsan di ko alam na wala na pala akong kain, at nakahilata nalang buong araw.

Natatakot kasi ako. I'm afraid that Lisa won't be ready for this. That Lisa choose her work more than me, and our baby.

What if she's still not ready for this? Nagsisimula palang naman kasi siya at eto ako gusto nang tapusin yung nasimulan niya.

Ewan.

Sobrang sama, at bigat nang pakiramdam ko.

"Jennie, sweetie? Kumain ka muna." I heard mom said. I open my eyes, she wipe my tears.

"Please, sweetie. I know what you're going through, okay? And I understand you. Pero kailangan mo rin naman maging matatag para sa anak mo." She said kaya mas umiyak pa ako.