I THOUGHT

Chapter 24|Bed scene

Jennie Kim|

Last one week para bumalik na ako sa New Zealand. To be honest? I don't wanna go.

I wanna stay with Lisa lalo na't di pa naman kami.

Yes.

Pagkatapos nung umamin siya sakin, umamin narin ako sa kanya pero walang nangyaring tanungan.

Ayoko rin naman mag tanong kasi 'I like you' lang naman yung sinabi niya eh. Magkaiba parin naman yung love, at like eh.

However, after we confessed our feelings toward each other, mas naging close narin naman kami. Pinilit ko nalang na iparamdam sakanya kung gano siya ka importante sakin pero kulang padin eh.

Tatanungin ko na ba siya tungkol samin?

I couldn't do any but sigh multiple times.
Nasa balcony ako ngayon.

Lisa on the other hand cleaning herself in the bathroom. Di ko na muna kinulit kasi alam ko namang pagod siya.

Maayos naman kami eh. I already told Chaeng about it, and she's not surprised kasi nahahalata naman na daw niya.

Unnie? Wala akong sinabi sa kanya kahit madalas ko na siyang binibisita. Palagi niyang tinatanong si Lisa at kita ko yung ngiti niya habang pinag uusapan namin ang babaeng yun.

"Jennie." Came in my senses nang maramdaman ko na siya sa likod ko.

Nakalimutan ko yata, pero mas naging sweet na si Lisa ngayon. She's slowly changing herself into better version.

"Iniisip mo?" She asked leaning her chin in my shoulder.

"Wala naman. Ayaw mo pa bang magpahinga?" I asked she shook her head.

"Di ako makakatulog kong nandito ka padin." Sabi niya. I then let a heave then face her.

Our face are just an inch from each other. I look at her deeply, she did the same.

"Days from now I'll take my flight back to NZ." I started, and somehow I saw sadness in her eyes.

"I know. I keep thinking about that. Days from now too, tapos na ako sa pagiging crew." She said. I just look down.

"What's wrong?" She asked. I then look at her.

I couldn't stop myself from kissing her. Ayoko na kasing sayangin ang pagkakataon na magagawa ko pa to sakanya.

My tears simply flowed from my eyes while tasting her lips giving her every emotions I felt right now.

Love, longing, happiness, pain, worries, sadness. Mixed emotion that brought me to tears.

"Hey.. why are you crying? What's wrong really?" She broke the kiss then asked.

"What are we really Lisa?" I asked not looking at her.

She never utter a word, and I knew it.

She don't want us to be more than this. Damn! It hurts so much.

I then wipe my tears.

"Sorry. Maybe I'm just expecting too much." I uttered at kumawala na sa mga hawak niya.

Malapit na ako sa sliding door nang mag salita siya.

"I'm scared."

I turned to her direction. Her back is facing me.

"I wanted you to be mine, but I'm scared." She added.

"Ilang araw nalang aalis kana. Di ko din alam kung anong plano ni mommy pagkatapos kong maging crew. I'm scared if we can't do it being away from each other. I'm scared of the risk, and what's might gonna happen."