I THOUGHT

Chapter 27|Bed scene

Kim Jisoo|

Jennie, Lisa, and Chaeng are here. They want me to join them outside. Jennie's talking to Hyung, while Chaeng's preparing my meds, and clothes.

Lisa? She's coming towards me.

"How are you?" She asked. I smile then embrace her.

I missed her.

"I missed you." I said burrying my head in her neck.

"I missed you too. Sorry if I wasn't able to visit you here more often." She said, and that's fine with me.

I mean, if she visit me often I don't know if I'm still able to unlove her.

"Its fine. At least you came." I said then broke the hug.

I look at her, and she's different now. I can see that she's learning.

She's learning how to be soft again. She's learning how to smile, and I'm proud of her.

She also gain weight that fits her. I guess, Jennie did a great work.

"How's work?" I asked. She smile.

"I'm done being a crew, Chi." She said, I smile widely.

"I'm proud of you. Will you stay here for good or?"

"Hmn, yeah! I guess for another month? Mom wants Rosie to train me as general manager." She said.

"That's good then. What about Jennie?" I asked, and sadness in her eyes showed.

"Jennie? I don't know. I think she'll be back in NZ next week?" She said, then smile weakly.

"Uhm, Chi? I- I wanna tell you something." She said, and if I'm right she'll tell me about them.

"You're dating right?" I asked first, and my heart breaks into pieces the moment she nods.

I look down. I thought I'm fine if ever this things happen, but I'm not.

However, I wanted to be happy for the both of them.

"I'm happy for you. Thanks for telling me." I told her, she smile.

I smile too. That's who I am. I can still manage even if its breaking me inside.

"Are you okay? You look not feeling well, Chi." She asked worriedly, and so I gave her an assuring smile.

"I'll just help Chaeng inside, okay? Just wait for us here." I told her then turn my back as my tears starts to flow.

Damn!

It hurts.

It fucking hurts.

"I'm almost do- hey? Why are you crying?" Chaeng asked quickly.

I throwed myself to her cause I can't take it anymore.

I sob.

"Oh ghad, Jisoo. What happened?" She asked, but I just continue on crying.

I'm to weak to handle this kind of pain. I thought I'm ready for this, but I'm not.

"L-Lisa, and Jennie.I-I'm happy for them."

Roseanne Park|

Seeing her cry makes me wanna cry too, but what hurts me the most is when she confessed that she have something towards Lisa, and she's hurting knowing about her, and Jennie.

Now that's a real pain inside.

I already have a hint, but I'm silly I didn't ask her about it.

"Shh. Shush now. Don't cry too much Jisoo. You know your heart can't tolerate too much emotion." I reminded her.