Chasing Kate

Chapter 13. Do I sound like a Crazy Stalker?

I watched as long sleek legs step out of her small car.

She stands before me in a blue jean jacket, a blue and white knee length dress and a pair of silver flats, her blonde hair curled around her face, she smells like flowers and coconut and I notice she has on makeup.

Looking at her makes me feel a pull in my jeans. I know I know! I'm a real jackass but my gosh how damn beautiful is she.

She is breathtaking, gorgeous, beautiful, sexy, sultry, pretty, amazing, perfect, pleasant and attractive.

Could I have used more adjectives to describe her?

I could have looked at her blue eyes all day and never get tired. I could stare at her mouth and watch it as it moved to speak words and still be mesmerized.

"Hey there! Sorry I'm late, My roommate had a melt down." She says as she adjust her dress.

"Hey you, don't even worry about it." I say.

I hand her the flowers, "These are for you."

She smiles as she reaches out and takes them from me. She rubs her fingers over each flower before smiling.

"Thank you, Lucas." And she wraps her arms around me to hug me.

I inhale her Kate scent, I melt at the feeling of her delicate embrace and I yearn for this closeness of her.

Do I sound like a crazy stalker? Because I feel like crazy stalker.

I open the door for her and we take a our seat.

Our waiter, a young man, got our drink order and leaves us to skim over the menu.

I settle on the BLT with Chili cheese fries, cheese sticks and marina sauce and jalapeño poppers.
Kate-Anna barley order anything but a grilled chicken sandwich and fries.

When our waiter returns with our food, there's an eerie silence at our table that was truly awkward.

Moments later, Kate was the first to speak.

"Are you going to eat all that?" She asked.

"Probably." I said popping another fry in my mouth and dropping ketchup on the table.

"You are the messiest eater I know besides my, um roommate." She said.

"Mmmhmmm." I replied.

"So about this lunch and therapist thing?" She asked as she slurped her Dr. pepper.

"Yeah? What about it?" I asked.

"Well, how's it going?"

"I'm clean if that's what you mean, Kate." I said squarely.

"Not at all. You know me Lucas. I'm not here to judge." She said, almost offended.

"Well, I guess I should just cut to the chase. Dr Schwartz, my therapist has recommended that to further my progress that I start apologizing to people who I feel like I am responsible for."

"What do you mean?" She said.

"I mean, I know I was a class a fuck up in high school. What I done with Allie Redhorn was a dick move, literally. I should have never let it go as far as it did. I shouldn't have gave up on you,
Or us so easily.
I should have fought for you, or made it easier for you. I'm sorry that I cut you out after Brody. I'm sorry that I behaved insanely. I'm sorry I failed you."

"Lucas. I don't think--" she whispered and I interrupt her.

"Please just let me get this off my chest." I say.

She nods, understanding.

" I know I didn't make it easy for you, I know that I was a dick head when I was in the hospital. I'm not proud of the fact that I have used drugs or drank so much that I blacked out. I'm not proud that I slept with every girl who came to my house for a college party, I'm not proud that I screwed up my last semester of college. I want to right my wrongs and I wanted to start with you. I am sorry Kate, I am so sorry. You deserve the world, and I always tried to give that to you. I just..... I just failed to give it to you, every time I tried."

"Lucas, you are forgiven." She said as she patted my hand.

"I am? I am not worthy." I said confused.

"Yes, you are."

Her phone beeped and a few moments later it started ringing.

"I have to take this." She says as she picks it up.

"Hello?" She says.

But I can't hear anything from the other line and after a moment I hear her speak.

"Ok, I'll be right there." She says and hangs up the phone.

"I hate to run, Lucas. But I have to go. It's a thing with Rhett. I mean with my roommate."

I nod but I want to ask who Rhett is.
Why is her roommate a guy? Why am I suddenly so jealous.

I stand up away from the table and walk her to her car.

She reaches up and hugs me and places a swift kiss on my cheek. I smile at her gesture and hold her in my arms a little Longer.

As she pulls away, I grab her finger as she walks further way from me they pull apart.

"Thank you, for everything Kate."

"No, thank you Lucas. Lunch was nice." She smiled at me.

I turn on my heel when I hear her say, "Hey Lu?"

"Yeah?" I asked. My heart melts at the use of our high school nicknames.

"Since you have my number, you can call me tonight if you want. I know what your going through is hard and you need a friend."

I nod to tell her I will call and I basically glide over to my truck.

I am so glad I listened to my bat shit crazy Therapist. It feels good to be at a good place with Kate-Anna.

She makes me want to do better, to be better.

I can't shake this feeling of uncertainty though, she has a room mate that is GUY. Hello red flag!

Is he her boyfriend? Is that why she had to have it cleared by him to come to lunch?