Chasing Kate

Chapter 25. Nice Try.

I stand there in front of Kate and "Rhett", just eye balling them. I'm trying to take in the situation before me, because THIS is not like anything I had thought of in my head.

I was so confused, I had so many questions and I needed answers. I couldn't put the words to my lips and make the sound come out.

I physically felt sick and my emotions were running a marathon inside my head.

Kate didn't speak either and I can't place the look she has on her face. She just keeps blinking her eyes like she's waiting for me to show anything, to be angry? I don't know.

How did this happen? When did this happen?

I look back to the ground and I coach myself for courage.

Don't be a douche bag, Lucas.

My legs feel weaker by the second so I crouch down to the ground to relieve some of the pressure to them.

I lick my lips and clear my throat.

"Hey! there buddy. Remember me?"

Standing before my crouched body is now, a brown headed boy who I know isn't even three. I know this because this little boy who stands in front of me is R.W. and not Rhett.

"Wuke!!!" He says and throws his arms around my next and hugs me so tight.

I pat him on the back and squeeze my grip to him.

I pick him up and stand before Kate.

"You should come in." She says to me and moves so that R.W. And I can come through the door.

I walk over to the couch and sit down. The little brown haired boy sits in my lap and starts to run a truck across my shirt.

My eyes follow him but I can't speak.

"Lucas." Kate says as she sits beside me in a chair and grabs my arm.

I turn my head to her and I see she has tears falling from her eyes.

"Lucas, please say something."

I can't, can I?

"Kate, is umm, R.W. yours?"

She nods. "He is."

"How old is he?" I ask her.

"He will be 3 on May 3rd." She says.

"Does his father help?" I ask her.
As if it's my business but I can't form anything else to say.
"His grandparents do." She nods.

" So his dad isn't around?"

"He has saw him once, now."

"Do I know him? You know his dad?" I asked but I'm remembering things that Kate -Anna has said to me.

"Yes, Lucas you do."

I just stare at her. I'm still so confused. I don't understand any of this.

If I knew Rhett's father it would mean we are friends, and if one of my friends betrayed me and slept with Kate, I won't be able to see past that.

"Lucas? Can you look at me please?"

I hesitate and I watch Rhett or R.W. As he get down off my lap and go down the hall.

I meet her glance. She's still spilling tears from her eyes. I want to wipe them away.

She grabs my hand and I squeeze it to tell her I'm here and I'm listening to her.

"Lucas. I never imagined saying this, but you, Lucas are Rhett's father."

WHAT? I'm not falling for that one, nice try.

"What?" I say.

There is NO way.

"How? Kate I mean how? We haven't been with each other in over 3 years. There's no possible way."

"Lucas, listen to me. Remember when we were together the week before you left? That's when. About 2 months later I got so sick and I had to be rushed to
the hospital, after so many tests, I was told I was pregnant. Rhett is very much yours. I've not been with anyone since that night until you and I ." She stopped.

"How? Kate. How did you do this? How did you keep this from me? Why did you keep him from me?"

"You weren't in a good place. I held you back so much. I wanted you to be happy and I didn't ever think it included me, especially not a child. About 2 months before he was born I ran into your mom and she knew with one glance that I was carrying your child. . Your mom & mine were with me when I brought OUR son into the world. He was here so fast and it was so scary but he was so breath taking. He looks just like you, Luke. He acts just like you, the things he does, how he sleeps even, it's all you. I didn't want you to burden yourself with us and by the time I wanted you to know you were so far into your habit I couldn't do that to him. I couldn't give him a father and him half ass it. I couldn't tell you about him and you pick something over him. "

Tears flowed from her eyes and then I noticed my cheeks were stained wet.

"Kate-Anna, I would have been with you, I would have came back for you and him. I would have tried to be a good father to him. I've lost so much time. He doesn't even know me."

I think back to him, this little brown haired, green eyed boy.

I see it now, how much he is like me. I love him already. I loved him as soon as he became my possibility.

"I'm sorry Lucas. I wanted to tell you, I just wanted to make sure you were stable enough to handle it. I love you Lucas and he loves you too. You are his father and I will never deny him to have you. "

"What's his name, Kate? Why does my mother call him R.W? Does he call her Lollie?"

"He does call her that and It's just a nickname she came up with to cover up my story. But his name is Rhett Lucas." She smiled at me.

I smiled and wiped her face.

"Rhett Lucas Wesley? ." I said.

She nods. And he is mine.

"Yes. R.W." She said back to me.

Rhett comes back and shows me his red truck.

"Truck go vroom." He said looking at me through long eyelashes.

I chuckle and pick him up. I squeeze Kate-Anna's hand and I pull Rhett closer to me. I kiss his little head of hair.

I have so many questions and I'm really angry. I just don't know what in the hell I'm suppose to do.

I love her, God do I love her.

My heart is broken to have missed out on so much already.

Regardless of my uneasiness, I won't leave him. I won't let my son grow up with out a father.

I won't let him grow up with a shitty ass father either.

I love him, more than I have loved anything else in this life.