Shattered Promises

forty one.

"Demi," Marissa started but all I did was burst into another round of uncontrollable sobs. My face was buried deep into a pillow and my tears were quickly soaking the soft material.

"Breathe." My best friend spoke, but I ignored her. I don't need her help, I just want to be left alone.

"Please, just leave me alone. I wanna be alone." I sobbed, my fingers tightening around the pillow.

I heard a sigh come from Marissa. "I'm not leaving you alone like this."

I picked my head out of the pillow and glared at her before grabbing onto it and throwing the pillow roughly at her. "Get out!"

She shook her head and left the room, leaving me alone. By myself.

Normally, I'd have at least one day where I'd be off track but then by the next day I'd be back to my normal smiley self. But this entire thing has really fucked me up and I don't know when I'm going to go back to myself.

My next show was in LA, so I'm going back home. My family is most likely going to see me like this still. That's only if I don't get it together by then.

I need something to get my mind off everything.

The Gym. I'm always going to the Gym, it's a way to make myself feel good. It lets me forget everything.

I slipped out of the blankets and exited the room to be met with my crew. Sugar, Jill, Holly, my band, Marissa, etc. They all had concerned looks on their faces. Marissa probably told them what happened.

"Where are you going?" Holly asked as soon as I passed them, grabbing my bag along the way.

"The Gym. Call me if you need anything." I said quickly, exiting the hotel room, making my way downstairs to the lobby where they had an indoor Gym.

**

Working out again felt amazing. I haven't had enough free time to actually work out, since I was always on the road. I forgot how great it felt. I love how powerful it makes me feel. It makes me feel so confident.

And I'm already feeling like myself again.

"What's up?" I giggled, bouncing into the other room that was full of my crew. My hair was half dry, half wet since I was too lazy to finish blowing drying it after my shower.

Marissa looked over at me, a smile spreading on her face. "Someone seems like they're in a better mood again!"

I giggled and went to the fridge to grab a bottle of water. "Working out always makes me feel good."

She smiled and turned back to her TV screen, a bowl of popcorn sitting in her lap.

I sat down on the couch next to Sugar, reaching for a handful of popcorn that he was eating. "Thanks, Sug."

He chuckled and I smiled at him before eating the remaining popcorn that was sitting in the palm of my hand.

When I was done my popcorn, I pulled my cellphone out and opened the Twitter app.

I taped on Compose a New Tweet and began typing.

"#NoMakeupMonday........" I attached a photo I took earlier when I got back from the Gym and posted it.

Immediately my mentions flooded with RTS, faves, and replies.

Most of the replies were people screaming random letters at me and some were yelling at me for apparently being too hot.

I continued scrolling through my mentions and stopped when I saw some certain replies.

fat.

obese.

whale.

ugly.

kys ugly fat.

who let u escape sea world???????¿

These type of insults continued and I let out a sigh. Some of the insults were from my own fans. Well, that's what they call themselves.

My confidence went from 100% to 0% within seconds.

I deleted the selfie and locked my phone, dropping it into my lap.

Sometimes I question why I even bother to use social media? It's the same thing everyday, it's never going to change.

**

THIS IS SUCH A SHORT CHAPTER BUT I REALIZED THAT I HAVENT UPDATED IN A MONTH SO HERES A SMALL UPDATE

theres more drama coming with dani btw!!! yeees she's gonna come back into the story

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