Shattered Promises

forty two.

Dani's POV

Nightmare. I'm living a nightmare. I'm getting worse and I'm not sure if the people around me are noticing that, but I'm definitely noticing it in myself. I'm not even sure if I care or not either. If I tried to pick myself back up, I'd probably fall back down again. I'm stuck inside a dark alley and I'm searching for the light, but there's absolutely no sight of it. I'm about to fall deeper and end up in rock bottom. And once I hit rock bottom, there's no getting out.

I hate how people say that nightmares are only fake and it only happens in your dreams. It's just your sick imagination. But that's all false. It's a lie. Reality is just as much of a nightmare as the nightmares you dream, except you don't wake up.

I honestly feel like I'm going crazy, as weird as that sounds. I keep getting the urges to cut, but I don't want to do it. I wish I never started in the first place. It's ruining my life.

I'm getting so stressed over school. My homework is piling up by one assignment after another. I'm falling behind on most of my classes and my grades are dropping. Just by missing one day of school can make you fall behind drastically, and I've been missing a lot of school. School is usually easy for me, I'm usually acing every class, but now I'm getting C's and F's on my report cards.

Another thing about school, is that what's so great about school when you have no friends to hang around with? Friends always make school a little more entertaining, just because you at least have someone to talk to. My friends couldn't give a shit about me, they hate my guts now. As for Fernanda, she's been avoiding me quite some time now. I haven't asked her why yet, and it's probably because I'm afraid of what the answer might be.

"Hurry up, Dani, we gotta get going, we're gonna be late!" I heard Maddie's voice from outside of my bedroom door. There's just a couple months left and then I'm off for two weeks for Winter break. I'm hoping these months go by fast.

"Yeah, yeah I'm coming, I'll meet you downstairs." I called back, reaching for my bag that was on the floor. I slung my bag over my shoulder and took a quick look at myself in the mirror. Bad hair day. My hair wasn't looking the way I wanted it. But whatever, I'm ugly anyways, it's not like the style of my hair will make a difference anyways.

When I was finally ready, I slowly made my way down the staircase my eyes landing on Maddie and she sat at the dinner table with a piece of toast in her hand and her cellphone in the other.

"Demi's coming home today, isn't she?" I asked, passing Maddie to get to the fridge.

"Yeah, she'll be home when we get back from school." I reached for a bottle of water, sitting across from Maddie at the dinner table.

Just act normal. Don't look sad.

"She's having a show here tomorrow night at the Staples Center if you girls wanna go, it's free, she can get you guys in." Mom said, walking into the kitchen.

Maddie shrugged, and I copied.

"Yeah, sure." We both said and Maddie finished her piece of toast.

"Dani, aren't you going to eat?" My mom asked, pointing to the plate full of toast on the counter.

"No thanks, Mom. I'm not really hungry." Bullshit.

"Alright, well you girls better get to school."

I unscrewed the cap off the water bottle, standing up from the chair and walking toward the front door.

"Dallas, come on!" Maddie called from the bottom of the stairs.

I opened the front down and stepped outside, walking to the car.

After what felt like forever, Dallas and Madison walked out of the front door, shutting behind them.