I Really Wish It Was Only Me And You [BENNY RODRIGUEZ]{BXB}

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Harley's POV
I say "we talked about what I told you yesterday and we sorted our differences and he said that he would say something about what he said yesterday about how it was wrong or whatever." He says "I'm so proud of you" kissing my cheek and I say "he was really nice about it" holding his hand and he squeezes my hand. We go to my house first cause I don't want to bring my car to the sandlot and I say "come inside with me, gotta put my keys in my room" and he comes with me and I kiss him saying "you didn't have to come with me, I just needed that" shutting the door to my room. He chuckles and kisses me deeper mumbling "you look gorgeous" and I smile, wrapping my arms around his neck. He says "I know it's a lot of pressure to speak your opinion to someone who doesn't believe it and I just wanted to say that I'm so proud of you" and I say "thank you" quietly and blushing. He kisses me saying "you going to the sandlot with me?" I say "of course, love" and he says "ok, lets go then" and I chuckle and he grabs my hand and we walk out and he lets go, letting our hands brush as we walk to the sandlot. I smile saying "it's nice out today" and he says "yeah, sunny but not dying" and we chuckle and I say "that's always an upside, not dying" and we chuckle. Benny says "very true very true" and we chuckle and before we go into the sandlot I kiss him and he jokingly whines saying "lets go." I chuckle and we walk in and Scott says "damnit he's alive" and I say "yeah, I didn't burn up for selling my soul to satan" rolling my eyes. Benny says "may I ask if you actually did that?" We laugh and I say "no" and I sit where I normally sit and Ham says "hey, the princess is back" and I roll my eyes saying "shut up" chuckling. He says "you see, the thing is, I don't shut up" and I say "you see, the thing is, I know that" pointing at him and the team chuckles. They play for a couple hours then one of my ex boyfriends walk into the sandlot and Ham mumbles "who's that?" I mumble "ex boyfriend" and he mumbles "want me to go tell him off?" I mumble "no, he'll kill you" and Ham mumbles "alright" and I go up to Jeremy saying "hey" and he says "I've been looking for you" and I say "I know, why are you here?" I'm holding this knife behind my back so he doesn't go fucking nuts on me cause I know he has a conceal carry license. He says "cause I wanted to see if you'd give me another chance" and I say "why in the hell would I do that?" He says "cause you love me?" I say "not anymore" and he says "what the fuck did you just say?" He wraps his hand around my neck, he used to do this to show his authority over me, it was a mega turn on at the time, now it's just a trigger. I say "don't fucking touch me" and he says "why should I not touch you?" I say "because I don't want you to" flipping the knife open behind my back and he says "you're mine, I don't have to listen to anything you say." He grips just a little harder than he was and he gets in my face saying "I'm gonna fuck your pretty mouth and you're going to like it" and I say "we broke up, I'm not that trashy anymore. How the hell did you get out here anyway?" He says "drove and I don't think we did" and I say "proves you never listened to me" and he says "don't talk back like that" and he slaps me across the face and I punch him saying "I said not to fucking touch me." He comes close to me, hand reaching for his gun and I pull my knife before he can grab it saying "if you leave, you'll be alive, get the fuck out of my face." He pulls his gun making the kids go wide eyed and he says "you don't tell me what to do, I love you" and when I don't say anything, he puts the gun under my chin saying "say it back." I swear I could cry. I say "I love you" looking him in the eyes and just kicking myself for it. He smiles and walks away and I sink to the ground as soon as he's gone and I lay on my back, trying to get my breathing back to normal. I mumble "I wish he just fucking shot me" running my hand through my hair. Once my breathing gets to normal I go back to where I normally sit out here but I just stand there, put my knife away and I say "if someone doesn't love you and you want them to love you, they will never love you, just get over it. Don't do that" and Ham mumbles "never doing that, no way in hell" and Benny stands in front of me saying "are you ok?" He moves closer to me when I don't say anything and he quietly says "can I hug you?" I nod and he hugs me and that's when I just breakdown completely and he mumbles "you're so brave after everything you've been through today, I'm so proud of you, gorgeous." I lean my head in his neck mumbling "after everything today, you don't have to say it back but I've realized there's not much commitment to an I love you. It's just how I feel about you and it's just me telling you how I feel" and he mumbles "I've thought about it the past few days and I came to the same conclusion, I love you."