Trusting The Alpha

Chapter 10

DEAN

I forced my mark on her. I knew it was a risk to see her tonight, with the first full moon. I couldn't control him. I forced her! I weave in and out of traffic as I exit the city, needing to put as much distance between Selene and I as possible. My phone rings for the hundredth time since I left Selene's house and I growl, growing tired of the incessant ringing and finally answer it.

"What happened Dean?" James asks as Aviva shouts something incoherent in the background.

"I don't know, James." I answer him truthfully, searching the depths of my brain for something to explain my actions tonight.

"She called Aviva screaming, said that you bit her. Dean, please don't tell me that you marked her against her will." James pleads.

"Not purposely, we were in the moment and I let my guard down, but she got scared and called out that bastards name and my wolf lost it- I lost it. All my control slipped and the next thing I know she's bleeding and kicking me out." I hurt her. My wolf whines loudly.

"Dean, you know what will happen if her body rejects the mark." I wince at the thought of Selene getting violently ill and being in unimaginable pain at hands of me.

"Shit, I know. I shouldn't have gone against every fiber of my being tonight and seen her, but I told her I would this morning and I didn't just want to visit her as my wolf." I say, running a hand over my face.

"Where are you now?" He asks.

"Not in Chicago." I answer simply. I hear Aviva yell something about me leaving like a coward in the distance and my shoulders sag. She's right. Instead of muscling through this full moon and my need to stay and help Selene through whatever comes next- I ran.

"You just left Dean? What about that pack?"

"I'm leaving you in charge in my absence."

"And what about your father? You know he won't be happy about this."  I can imagine him now- fuming, his face bright red. I will never hear the end of this.

"I'll deal with my father once the full moon is over and my wolf is under control. James, watch after her please." I tell him, before I hang up. A person in the next lane blares his horn as I cut in front of him, going ninety down the highway, pushing my car past its limits. Selene's fearful eyes cloud my head and my heart shatters into a million pieces. She thought I was Liam.

'Why did you do that?' I sneer at my wolf. The beast inside me whimpering, finally feeling the weight of our mistake.

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"You know you have to go back, right?" Silas tells me as he slides a glass down the counter.

"How Silas?" I ask him, staring at the amber colored liquid in sorrow. It's been a week since I fled Chicago and made my way to my friend Silas's bar in Grand Rapids, drowning my pity in alcohol, "I have no way of explaining this to her. I can't even bring myself to answer her calls."

"So, what's your plan Dean? Stay here forever? Your ass glued to my bar stool? You made a mistake, now you have to go and fix it. Tell her the truth. It has to come out eventually." He huffs, wiping the inside of a cup. Easy for him to say.

"The truth? You didn't see the way she looked at me the night of the full moon, I don't think she can handle my truth." I toss the shot back, a dull burning at the back of my throat. I am not ready for the possibility of Selene rejecting me. The thought churns my stomach, without her I am nothing.