Save me - LevixReader (modern AU)

P2 Twenty three - Sick

Warning contains mentions of things like suicide, depression, and self-harm. Read at your own discretion. ( I do not promote any of these stay safe <3 )

Yes finally an update!!!!!!:•)

-The day after-  (The last chap was Monday and now it's Tuesday I'm too lazy to write the part where u answer to all the worried friends and shit :) )

' Cold... I'm cold... Please... Mom, Dad, please, I'm sorry! Don't leave me please! No! No!'

" NO!" You screamed your eyes shutting open. You panted heavily and sat up. It had been a while since you dreamt of that day.

You slammed your hand on your mouth when you realized you had screamed out loud. You held your breathing for a few seconds hoping that Levi in the other room didn't hear you.

You thought back on that memory and you felt a lump in your throat making you let go of your mouth to breathe in and out heavily.

You looked at your wrist, then at the door visualizing a path to the kitchen. You were about to move the covers off you when you heard faint footsteps. You immediately laid back covering yourself and turning your back to the door.

When your heard him entered you tried to hold back your breathing a bit so it looked normal and not like you just ran a marathon.

" Brat... I know you're awake, I heard you. Look at me." You felt him come closer to you but you didn't move one bit still thinking that maybe you could pass it as nothing and stop making him worry.

" Tell me what happened I told you I'm here for you, I want to help you. You're not alone." You didn't answer. You concentrated on calming your breathing and it was starting to work.

He sighed and you heard him walk to the other side of the bed. He crawled his way over to you and slipped under the covers.

" I'll be here even if you don't want me to. Now go back to sleep, I'll be right there... You're safe." He gently enveloped you with his arms and place himself a bit higher to rest his head on yours so you could snuggle in his chest. You wiggled a bit and hugged him back finding the best position to sleep.

He traced circles on your back effectively calming you. But even if you felt better you couldn't help it. You had to do it. It was the only way you could completely calm down. He had looked through all your stuff taking out the blades and hid his. The only ways left were the kitchen knives and...

You reached your hand to your left wrist. You slid to where there weren't any scars, yet, and started to scratch slowly so he wouldn't notice. You pressed hard moving your nail back and forth. It started to sting, you sighed.

You stopped when it started to feel a bit wet. Internally apologizing to Levi, you drifted off to sleep.

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" Hey, wake up..." You groaned and opened one eye to see who was disturbing your slumber. You felt his hand slowly caress your cheek. You smiled a little and looked at him. He looked sad.

You pushed yourself up in a sitting position and brought up your hand to place your hair out of your face and saw your wrist. The one you had not so gently scratched yesterday, was bandaged. 

' So he saw it...' That was probably why he had that look, the one filled with sadness, pity, and regret.

" Good morning," you said to him trying to make him forget about it.

" Morning, breakfast is ready. Get dressed and come to the kitchen... And no arguing today you eat breakfast." You hummed and did as told. You quickly put on a light grey crewneck and dark green sweat pants before going to the kitchen table where a smoothie bowl waiting for you.