Beautifully Dangerous (Technoblade x OC [Azalea])

Chapter 41:

Techno's P.O.V

It's been a month. One month. One month since Zia had been missing. One month since Michael has met his entire family. One month since I have seen anyone other that Philza and Wilbur.

I wouldn't come out of my room, and I would rarely eat anything. I knew it wasn't good for me, but I didn't care. The one thing that I never wanted to loose has been missing for a month. And I was starting to loose hope. I was beginning to feel like it was hopeless.

For days on end, I would stay in my room during the day, and by night I would search the woods and towns, trying to find her. Trying to find an answer. But I always came up empty handed. No matter how far I would search, I could never find out where she went.

It started to take a bad toll on me. I had one meal every three days, and even then I felt guilty of eating, knowing that she might not have any food. I didn't talk to anyone, just let them talk to me. But all the conversations were just empty. I rarely ever paid attention to them. 

I could tell that Zia's disappearance has taken a toll on everyone, especially Phil. I mean, the poor guy just lost someone who he considered a daughter. Wilbur was constantly trying to calm him down, while Nikki was doing the same with Tommy.

I heard that Tommy was like him, except he got better. The first two weeks, Tommy would lock himself in his room, and only come out for meal times. Then, he just excepted it. That Zia wasn't coming back. I didn't though. Which is why I am still locked up in my room, not talking to anyone. 

Ranboo seems to be almost as bad as me. He keeps having anxiety and panic attacks out of nowhere. He seems to cry at every little thing that reminded him of Zia. He had been disappearing lately, and nobody knows where he goes. This time, I was going to find out.

He is her twin brother after all. They must have some kind of connection. It was around 3am, and I unlocked my door, slowly opening it so that it wouldn't creak loudly. I listened carefully, and I could feel 6 steady heart beats, my own, and a fast beating heart. I was confused on why one was racing.

I slowly  descended the ladder to Phil, Wil, and I's room. I listened carefully, and heard gasping breaths coming from Zia's room. I gulped, and slowly made my way over to it. I reached out and hesitated before grabbing the handle and opening her door. 

I looked around and saw Ranboo was curled up in the corner, two books opened in front of him, tears burning more scars down his face. I sighed, and went to get Tubbo. I walked into his room, and shook him awake. He was slightly startled to see me there, but I just motioned for him to follow me. He did, and once he saw Ranboo, he rushed towards him.

After Ranboo and Tubbo had walked back into their room, I walked over to the two books. One of them was Ranboo's diary, and the other was.... was Zia's diary. I felt tears come to my eyes, but I held them back as I picked up what she used to write in. 

I backed up into the corner Ranboo was in, and slid down the wall. I flipped her diary open to the last entry, and almost cried out in tears. Did she really think that? Oh god, I think I'm gonna be sick-. I hold my stomach, and I didn't even notice I was whimpering. I felt my shirt dampen, and brought my hands up to my face, feeling tears flow continuously. I didn't do anything to stop them.

I continued to read through her last entry, not even trying to stop the tears that kept flowing out. I just couldn't help it. She really believed that everyone was better off without her. If only she knew how much her disappearance has affected everyone.

I finished reading her last entry, and flipped to a completely random page. I saw that she also liked to draw a lot. She was actually pretty good. She would like to draw sunsets, and nature scenes, but they looked so life like. I was flipping through some pages, when one drawing caught my eye.

There was a diary entry next to it, but the drawing itself was extravagant. It was the night I took her to the flower field behind the pond. It was beautifully draw, with the trees still hiding the sun, and the stars peeking out in the darkening sky. There was no color, but I could imagine the image clearly. I turned towards the diary entry and started reading.

Dear Diary,

Today was... magical. Woke up this morning and we all went to a near by pond for the day. We had a lot of fun there. I got to get to know Tubbo some more, and I became more familiar with Ranboo. After all, it had been 11 years since we had last seen each other. I was so happy when he remembered who I was. 

Tommy was being loud as usual, but we all thought it was funny, because that what was funny about him. Tommy has many aspects about him, but the one thing I love about him is his clumsiness. Most people think that its actually a bad trait, but it's not. 

The way he stumbles over his words, curses at people for making fun of him, and overall being just as loud as possible is great, because it shows that he doesn't care what other people think of him, and he still wants to be himself, even around others. I find that a very valuable trait.

But the best part of today was at night. Everyone was starting to head off when Techno pulled me aside. He told me that he had a surprise, and dragged over towards a hill. We made it to the top, and out below stretched a meadow filled with beautiful flowers. It was gorgeous.

We stayed there for the rest of the night, just the two of us. It was the best night that I have ever had. That was when I realized that I actually loved Techno. Can you believe it? Me, a monster to everyone, and an abomination to everything, fall in love with the most dangerous man alive? 

I couldn't believe it when I thought it, but I knew it was true. God, I'm such a simp for this man. But I can't help it. He just.... it feels like he understands me. Like I'm not just some sort of weapon to him. Like I'm an actual person. The only people who treated me like that were my parents, Ranboo, and Tommy. 

I was happy with him. Nobody, not even Dream, had made me as happy has Techno had. He made the voices not only calm down, but agree with what was happening. That's when I realized that I wasn't cursed, but blessed. These voices.... sure, if you aren't careful, they can be an absolute curse, but when calmed, they are really funny, and comforting. 

I'm glad I have someone like Techno. He's just amazing once you get to know him. I am so glad that he found my diary, or else I would probably be back at that damned cabin by myself, while Tommy would be at Phil's, playing with Michael. I'm so happy I was found out.

-Azalea

The tears couldn't stop pouring out. I curled myself into a ball, her diary falling to the ground in front of me. 

God, I missed her. I missed her more than anything. More than blood on my blade, or slow roasted potatoes. I missed her with everything I had in me. She was my one, my only, the other half of my soul. After she got kidnapped, I then realized how much she meant to me. 

I couldn't live without her. Damn these voices. They make it so hard to fall in love, but once you do and your loved one is taken away, the only thing they crave is suicide. No more blood, no more violence... just peace. 

I cried myself to sleep that night, hoping that somewhere out there, Zia was safe and that she would be returning soon.

God, please be alright.

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Ayup!! How is everyone today? Yes, I know, double update, I just felt like spoiling yall. Idky, just felt like it.

I know I know, kind of a downer chapter, but I felt like I needed to put more Techno Angst in there, just to pain yall. TBH, it hurt me writing this. I never knew how hard it would be to write angst, but yet, now I do. 

So yeah, I hope yall have a great day, and dw, next chapter will be happier. Remember to drink some water today, your body needs to hydrate itself, and it starts with the first drop of water. It's earths purest liquid, so drink it.

-Person:D

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