Beautifully Dangerous (Technoblade x OC [Azalea])

Chapter 45:

Tommy's P.O.V

I can't fucking believe this. It has been so long since I hadn't forcefully laughed that I forgot what it felt like to actually be happy. Like, truly happy.

I know we've all been depressed and sad since Lea left, but I just... I can't believe that I might not see her again. Everyone keeps telling me that its ok to have feelings sometimes... but it's not. Especially not for me.

If I become sad and depressed, everyone else with just fall. I know that. That's how it works. When the happiest one becomes sad, then the others loose all hope. And I am known to be the happiest one. 

But I just can't keep faking this. I can't keep pretending that this isn't hurting me. Lea was my longest friend, the friend that would have my back no matter how much I fucked up. The friend that would be by my side no matter what. Who doesn't care if I'm loud or annoying. Who actually sees it as a valuable trait.

Lea had seen a side of me that none of my family had seen. I thought of her like my big sister, or maybe even my twin. She could always tell what I was thinking, and I loved that about her. God, I missed her. I missed her so fucking much.

Lea, big sis, wherever you are, please come back to me. I need you. More than anything, I need my big sister back. Please, come back. 

Azalea's P.O.V

The sun was starting to set, and I was almost there. I was scared what I was going to find there, if I found anything at all. I mean, it's possible that they are still there. Or they could have moved somewhere else. It's very possible I might never see them again.

Bad and Skeppy told me that they all missed me, a lot, so I'm 80% sure that I won't get yelled at for coming back. But I wasn't 100% sure.

God, this is messing me up. I'm just going to go up there, knock on the door, and wait. That's all. I'll tell them my story, and if they still hate me by the end of it, I'll just go find Puffy and Ora and maybe adventure with them for a while. Or maybe even track down Whirlwind. Who knows?

I need to stop overthinking this. I walked farther, the cold finally getting to me. I shivered, and wrapped my cloak around myself tighter, trying to keep the warmth inside. I hope that they all are ok.

God, I can't wait to finally be home.

Techno's P.O.V

It was now Christmas, and I had lost track of how long Zia has been missing. I just- I couldn't accept the fact that she's never coming back. Everyone had been trying to get me to accept it. Wilbur almost lost his arm the last time he tried to convince me she was dead. I just couldn't accept it. 

I was currently locked up in my room with Tommy on my bed. We were the only two that didn't want to go present shopping with the others. We just didn't feel like. Ranboo got dragged out my Tubbo (literally), Phil said it would be good for the others to go. Besides, I haven't spent any time with Tommy lately. I think we need sometime to maybe talk things out.

"So, uh, Blade... how's life?" Tommy asked awkwardly. I rolled my eyes and humored him with a small smile.

"Life's full of shit, and all it brings you is pain." I said bluntly. He gave me a weird looking offensive face that also had a hint of disgust in it, and I laughed. Like, an actual laugh. Something that neither of us had heard in a very long time. We fell into a comfortable silence... well, for the most part.

I continue to sharpen my axe, when I heard muffled sniffles coming from the child on the bed. I looked up and saw he had his back turned towards me, but he was shaking. I could tell he was crying, and it broke my heart. I set down my axe and got up, walking over to the crying boy.

I sat down on the bed, and rubbed his back. He stopped trying to conceal his crying, and just let it all out. I wasn't the best with human emotions, but this was my little brother Tommy, I was going to try and comfort him if it meant I had to change my shirt later. 

I wrapped my arms around him, and pulled him into my lap. His fist balled my shirt up, and he continued to cry into my shoulder. It broke me to see him like this. I rubbed his back, and whispered encouraging things to him.

It was about 15 minutes before he started to calm down. His breathing returned to some what normal, and he stopped sobbing.

"Sorry, Tech. I didn't mean to break down, it's just- I miss her so god damn much, it hurts!" Tommy said, wiping the tears off his face with his whole hand. I sighed, and brought the young boy in for a hug once again.

"Tommy, I get it. I miss her too. I miss her so fucking much." I said, hugging the boy  tightly. He hugged back tighter, but I didn't mind. I need this.

"Hey Tech?" 

"Hm?"

"Do you think she's still out there? Y-you don't think she's actually dead, do you?" he asked. I was about to answer, but I stopped. Is she really out there? I mean, its possible that she is, but I just didn't know. It's possible that she isn't.

I stayed quiet, and just thought to myself, before coming to a decision that would change my life and everyone's around me.

"No... I think she's actually gone."

No one's P.O.V

That night, when everyone got home, they found Techno and Tommy playing Mario Kart on the big screen Tv, laughing and smiling, genuinely.  They were all surprised to see the sudden change in mood, but were glad about it. 

During that night, Azalea had gotten to the house. She was excited to see her family again, but she just had to check something. There was an open window that allowed her to climb through. She did, and she listened in to their conversation.

"So why are you two so happy?" Wilbur asked. She knew it was Wilbur, and she missed hearing his voice. She listened in more, and actually angled herself so she could see everyone in the living room. 

Techno was sitting with his arm around Tommy,  looking a little uncomfortable, but happy. Happy without her.

"Nothing really, just.... just accepted that Zia's never coming back." He said, looking down. Tommy hummed in agreement, and the others smiled kindly at them. Ranboo, on the other hand, stood up, angry.

"Are you guys serious? You seriously think she's never coming back?!" He yelled at them. They all have never seen or heard Ranboo yell, so this was first for them. "She's still alive! I can feel it! She's out there, and here we are, thinking she's fucking dead when she could need our help!" He said.

He glared at everyone single one of them, before storming upstairs to his room. He slammed the door shut, and everyone stayed silent. Azalea found out two things that night.

One, love didn't exist. It never existed, and never will. And when you think it does, life will just torture you until you figure out that it's all an illusion.

Two, she only caused grief and problems to people around her. So she made a vow to herself.

That she would isolate and become less problematic, for everyone's sake. She wouldn't reveal herself to anyone, and she wouldn't bother anyone anymore.

She left that house that night, and no one would hear from her for a very long time. 

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Ayup!!! How is everyone doing today? I hope yall are doing great.

Alright, so double update pog. And before yall start freaking out, no this is not the end of the book. I just wanted to through more angst in there, because I like making myself suffer for writing more! >:3

Anyways, I am actually going to be taking a break. I only have two weeks of summer left, and I really want to spend them with my friends. Also, I want to focus on my other book. If you haven't read it yet, it's called Hidden Doors, all you have to do is click on my profile, and click on that story to read it. It's based around Whirlwind's P.O.V, so you might not see Ora or Zia for a while. 

I want to thank you all for reading this story, it means a lot to me. I love you all, and I will see you all very soon!

-Person:D

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