Beautifully Dangerous (Technoblade x OC [Azalea])

Chapter 43:

Philza's P.O.V

I was breaking down at this point. I just couldn't handle Zia disappearing. I was currently locked up in my room. I was never really close to her, but she was still part of the family. No questions asked. It was killing me inside that she was gone.

I mean, yeah, Ranboo and Techno got the worst of it, but that doesn't mean all of us weren't affected. Tubbo was always concerned because not only was Ranboo upset, but Michael would constantly ask where she was. Michael, her nephew that she had known for barely an hour, was worried for her.

Wilbur wasn't doing that well either. He was starting to get that insane glint that he got a couple years back. Nikki was trying to calm him down, but she wasn't doing great either. Tommy... Tommy was probably the weirdest out of all of us. He pretended that she just didn't exist. That he never knew her.

I knew that was his grieving method, but it wasn't healthy for him. But I couldn't help him. I didn't know how to help any of them. I couldn't help them when I couldn't help myself. But somehow...

Somehow, I knew that we would see her again. Whether it be in this life or the next, I knew that she wasn't gone forever. Just temporarily.

So, Zia, wherever you are, I hope you are safe, for everyone's sake.

Azalea's P.O.V

We had been moving for around 3 days now, and we were getting closer to L'manberg. I was really excited to see my friends. I was even more excited to see Techno. God, how I missed him. I really was excited to see them again. But yet again, a part of me wasn't.

You see, the voices weren't always their weird, quirky selves. Sometimes... they have really dark thoughts.

'They probably don't even want to see you... yeah, they probably think your dead... why bother them? They are probably happy without you... why are you even considering going back?'

'Because they are all I have left? Why else?'

'You've caused them all pain... you think they would really take you back?... You disappeared for how long again?.... they don't want you back... you're better dead... But what about Techno?.... He's probably moved on by now.... why are you even trying anymore? All people ever see is monster.... murderer.... just go get rid of yourself already, nobody will ever love you...'

Yeah, that's the thoughts I have to deal with while walking towards L'manberg with the group of girls. Luckily, I mastered masking my emotions years ago, so they don't know what's happening. How I am getting mentally abused by myself. 

According to the tracker system that Puffy has, we were about half way to L'manberg, when it started happening again. Only this time, I felt it before it happened.

We were stopped by a river, when I felt this sort of heat wave come across my body. It started out just slightly, then increased by a lot. I couldn't see straight, and my head was pounding. Then I felt my eyesight grow sharper, and become a shade red. I felt my breathing increase. I wasn't in control anymore.

I looked around frantically, trying to find a way to snap out of it. I heard someone calling something out, but I couldn't hear what they were saying. I felt someone's presence in front of me, and my eyesight focused in on them.

They had dark red hair, emerald eyes, and dusty red wings behind them. They were looking at me concerned. Why were they concerned? Why did they look so familiar?

"Zia, you have to calm down. You're going to be ok." They said. I felt my breathing slow down, but the redness in my vision didn't fade. I whimpered, and wrapped my arms and tail around myself, trying to back away from whoever was in front of me. 

They sighed, then some sort of noise came out of their mouth. It sounded sweet, and it had a beat, steady rhythm. It was followed with lyrics as well.

"I think this time I'm dying, I'm not melodramatic, I'm just being pragmatic beyond any reasoning for thinking I've got fuckin' rabies, or something." The lyrics were odd, but comforting in a way. I listened along, my breathing slowing down significantly.

"I think this time I'm dying, I think this time I'm dying."

"I think I've lost my mind blurring the fact and the fictions while simultaneously fixing myself up with a girl named Panadol. Bite the tablet, elixir. Disintegrate, mouth's a mixer."

"I think I've lost my mind. I think I've lost my mind."

I uncurled myself from the ball I was in, and actually started to sing the song. Somehow, I knew the lyrics to it. I can't remember right now where I heard them, but I knew them.

"If I could just break one more night, maybe I could wake up and feel alright. My optimistically set alarm clock time serves only to mock me with flashing lights." She was surprised that I knew this song, but so was I. We just continued singing it, whatever the song was.

"I think I've made my choice. I'm a deceased playing victim, slip the face, slip the victory. I think I've made my choice, sit secluded in hatred. Void the plans friends are making. I think I've found my voice, I'm a leech sucking blood bags, taste defeat it's a sandbag."

"Saline solution." We sang. That's when the memories started to hit me. Right in the face. 

"Saline solution to all your" Wilbur singing this song to Tommy and I when we were hanging out while Phil and Techno were hunting, Ranboo and Tubbo were sleeping upstairs, and Nikki was at work. 

"Saline solution to all your" I remembered why I was there, and what had happened to me. 

"Saline solution to all your problems." I remembered who was in front of me. The red faded from my vision, and I gave a weak smile to Whirlwind. She smiled back, and we hugged for a second, her wings wrapping around the both of us. I smiled a bit. I knew I could count on them.

We let each other go, and Puffy sat down on my right, Ora on my left.

"What just happened?" Ora asked, placing a hand on my knee which was bouncing. I bit my lip, wondering if I should tell them what just happened. 

"You all know how I have sanguinem audiens, right?" They all nodded. "Well, the voices almost took over right then. Nothing even triggered it, they weren't even asking for blood. I-I think they were just bored." I lied. 

I didn't want them to know what the voices were saying. I would just be putting more stress on their shoulders. I didn't want that to happen. 

"Ok, well I have good news and bad news." Puffy says, standing up and Whirlwind replacing her spot. We all looked at her expectantly.

"Good news is, L'manberg is just beyond that hill, so we should reach there tomorrow morning." She said, smiling. I was about to jump up with joy, but Puffy's smile faded really quickly.

"The bad news is... Z is a wanted criminal with a 5,000 gold nugget reward on her head. Wanted dead or alive, preferably alive."

Oh shit.

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Ayup!! How is everyone doing today? I hope yall are doing ok.

Anyways, double update again! I just want to put it out there, that I do not prewrite these chapters, they just come to me. 

Anyways, I really don't have anything to tell you guys, other than to drink something. YoU nEeD tO hYdRaTe OfTeN. No questions asked. Anyways, have a great day!

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