Within A Stardust

Chapter 39 - Spiral

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That same night, Lizzie can't sleep. She tried covering her whole body with a blanket, switch to another side, tried sleeping on other areas of the bed, even if it's uncomfortable.

What she can't recognize is that her mind is so loud all of it, is about y/n.

How she's so cuddly, like that cute grumpy bear she saw on the internet and that she can match her weirdness.

And when she's quiet, busy with her stuffs, Lizzie can tell that she was talking inside her mind. Probably having conversations with herself that she will never hear unless she's comfortable again with her. As if she was talking to a real person using her telepathy.

You're doing too much but... Thank you

Every memory of her keeps flashing that she had to stop it by wince.

It stop for a moment. And then another images flashes...

Y/n holds her left cheek and they kiss passionately.

"Oh my- no... What is happening to me?!" She muttered. Now breathing heavily.

She shakes her head no and went downstairs to get a glass of water.

She's asleep.

Lizzie opens the light in the kitchen and get some water without making a noise. After drinking she had the urge to check on y/n so she went there and turn on the lamp nearby.

She carefully sit on the little space in the couch, y/n made sure her arm and a bit of her back touches the cushion. She was slightly leaning on her side but Lizzie can still see her face.

After staring for a few minutes, she combs her hair and then touch her cheek. It made her smile...

But she became nervous in an instant as that image flashes again.

Something's telling her it's wrong, but there's this strong desire to do it on the other side.

She holds her hand, careful not to wake her and move closer to her, few inches away from her face. Her whole being is now screaming two things: Don't do it. Yes, do it.

But right when she is about to do it, y/n moves a bit and then started speaking in her sleep. "Lizzie..." She said.

Lizzie moves away because she might wake up and freak out if she saw her like that. Then, she started sobbing and a minute after she was reaching out to something with her hand.

As much as she is confused, Lizzie touches her hand and hold her. "Hey." Lizzie whispers. Her sobs now getting louder. "Shh... You're going to be fine.. I'm here. Nobody is going to hurt you, ok- hear my voice."

She repeated that while holding her and caressing her hand with her thumb until she stops.

Her sobs become soft then fades. She wipes her tears and whisper. "I'll just get some stuffs and I'll be back, ok? You're safe." Before leaving, Lizzie gives her a peck on the lips and in the forehead.

As she go upstairs to get her things, that damn smile is just there, contented, mix with a quick beat from the heart that she can hear, thanks to mr. Silence who is occupying the night so that everyone can sleep.

After doing her work, she sleeps, y/n in her arms.

Aug 2 - 5 pm

Lizzie is carefully looking at the cakes behind a glass. Deciding on which flavor will she like the most.

Then she calls the lady at the cashier and point the unknown cake she had chosen for you.

Satisfied yet nervous, she saw a nearby store that sells art supplies, it's the same store where she bought the pencils she just gave. Outside the shop, if anyone bothers to look, they would see a Lizzie checking out materials with a smile.