for the best...?

part fifteen

Y/N POV
(time skip)
i woke up to the sound of my alarm. i quickly shut it off and rubbed my face, ariana's grip was so tight on my. she had her head on my chest and was holding onto me for dear life "ari" i whisper and ariana started to tighten her already tight grip on me "ariana i have to get my last detoxing you have to let go" i told her and she rolled off me with a sigh. this is how it's been all this time since the night everyone came over. i have been feeling way better with the whole situation. ariana and i are at a good spot right now, i've been more comfortable with her again but i still have my guard up. i'm just so thankful for her, she has put up with my mood swings and everything. but these last few weeks i've been better and been telling her how i feel instead of acting out. i honestly don't know what i would've done without ariana during this time. she has kept me stable. i just feel terrible for all the terrible things i've said to her, i've never put my hands on her because that is such a low blow but i've said terrible things. that ended up in me saying i'm sorry and begging her to stay. if i were her i would've left me to be honest. "do you want me to come downstairs with you" she asked groggily "no i have to go to the doctors for these last ones so i won't be home til my last detox" i told her "what why" she asked sadly "they have to run tests on me and make sure i'm good to have no more detoxing" i explained and she nodded "okay i'll just go to the studio i guess" she sighed and i giggled a bit "how about after i'll take you on a nice late date" i asked her and she immediately sat up "date" she asked, this is the first time i've brought up anything relationshipy. "yes a date, you deserve it" i told her and she smiled "sure" she said "okay go back to sleep" i told her and kissed her forehead when her head hit the pillows. "bye i love you" she whispered "bye" i said and got ready. i haven't told ariana i love her because i'm scared. i'm scared because i was so venerable to her before, i just don't want heartbreak to happen again. i got in my car quickly before grabbing a coffee and heading to the doctors. i was going to need the coffee before this rough day. i pulled up to the doctors and sighed before getting out of my car and walking in. great.
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this is officially my last detoxing. they just told me that all my test came back great so i don't need anymore detoxing. "okay y/n this will be your last two hours of hell" my doctor joked "thank you" i smiled at him and he smiled back "y/n i see this glow in you, i'm so proud of you" he told me and i smiled more widely "thank you again, you've helped me so much i don't know what i would've done" i said truthfully and he pulled me into a hug "i'm always here to talk" he said before leaving my room. i quickly pulled out my phone and facetimed justin "what's uppppppp" he asked answering the phone "nothing much at my last detoxing" i smiled and he jumped up "i'm so happy for you" he smiled and i giggled "thank you, i didn't know it would feel this good" i exclaimed and he nodded "so what are you doing after" he asked "i'm going to take ariana on a date" i told him and he looked at me shocked "a date" he asked and i nodded "i think it's time for her and i to have a fresh chapter, she's kept me stable you know. like this whole thing wasn't easy and she's taken my mood swings and helped me on days i was too sick to move" i explained and he nodded listening contently "do you love her" he asked "i've never not loved her" i said and he smiled "i love you guys together, you just gotta make sure you trust her" he told me and i nodded "i do surprisingly, i just feel terrible because now that i'm starting to be more like myself again i've noticed how unfair i've been to her. and how i should've noticed that she was in pain as well with the whole pete thing" i explained and he nodded "trust me i said terrible things to hailey, probably worse than what you've said and of course i would have to ask her to stay but she stayed and helped me" i nodded "just believe in your gut y/n, trust me i know you and ariana are meant for eachother" he said with a big smile on his face "i do too" i told him and we talked more before he brought up something that caught my attention "have you thought about putting out another album soon" he asked and i kinda thought about it "honestly i would wanna start working on one as soon as possible" i told him and he nodded "how about we make some songs together, we both went through similar shit so i bet we could relate on a whole other level" he asked and i nodded "i'm down just let me know when" i told him and we finally said our goodbyes. i decided i should text ariana because i knew she was at the studio