The Black Dahlia (Cartel Series #1) ✔️

30. Friends-to-Foes

Gabriella

I am stunned by her confession and I don’t know how to react, should I be mad or happy for her, I don’t know. I am stuck between a rock and a very hard place.

My extended silence and solemn expressions were stressing Mirana out, unable to bear it anymore she said, “Gabriella please talk to me, don’t give me that silent treatment. I cant stand it! I wanted to be the first one to tell you about this, I didn’t want you to find this from somewhere else and feel betrayed or hurt. I know you want to destroy the Martinez family, but please keep Ricardo out of this, he is a genius with a kind heart a true gentleman, he is not involved in the cartel business. Promise me you won’t hurt him.”

I thought for a while and finally said “Okay fine, I won’t hurt him and that’s my word”

We finished our meeting with a hug and I returned home in Sandra’s car. Throughout the journey I was wondering about the situation I was in. I couldn’t risk directly hurting my best friend, my sister for life. I had to call this mission off, I had to bite the bullet and abandon this well planned mission, this golden opportunity to hurt the Martinez family really bad!

I reached home and the entire day I felt really sick, the vengeance for revenge and years of planning and plotting against the happiness of my dear friend, it was a toxic mix of thoughts making me really sick.

I did not even go down to eat lunch I had lost my appetite and just wanted the earth to open up and swallow me. In the evening I heard   a knock on my door. I walked up lazily to open and it was Alejandro.

He walked in and sat beside me he felt my temples and seeing that it was warm asked affectionately “how are you feeling?”
“I am really sick” I replied with a pouty face.
He caressed my brown hair and said
“I know, you even skipped lunch today. I suggest you take some rest and eat a light dinner. You will be alright by tomorrow”

He kissed my forehead and hugged me tight, it was a deeply intimate moment and I felt a surge of positivity in me.
I felt a little guilty in his presence. He was showering me with so much love and affection and I was trying to destroy his family. I wasn’t even sure if I really loved him or I was just sexually attracted to him and just want to have the fun and then use it as a leverage to burn his world.

I shared my virginity with him is it only because of that I feel endeared to him?, what am I doing here? I came here to take revenge; I pretended to be mysterious to win his attention. The lines between pretence and reality are getting blurred and maybe I was overstepping the lines? I really don’t know which side I am on right now. Maybe I was losing my sanity.

My mind kept indulging in these mental gymnastics while he was in my presence, playing his part as a loving and caring boyfriend so well.

I wished so hard that I was in some other dimension where this enmity and hatred between us did not exist and we could both be truly one with each other.

I was tired of grappling with these thoughts of confusion. I was suddenly hit by a lightning bolt of inspiration and my mind finally concluded something. I would really love to be with him if our situations were not so complicated. He was a great romantic partner; I would really love to be with him! I was really satisfied by this conclusion but also a little sad because it was highly unlikely I could be happy with him in the current circumstances. I accepted the cards fate had played me and focussed on the most important matter at hand.

After he was gone I finally had the courage to make the decision I was going to call the mission off. I texted my men to abort the mission and blue ticks arrived showing they had read the message, soon a message came through showing their acknowledgement and I breathed a sigh of relief.