Shoni

Chapter 10

Shelby's POV

Today is July 5th, and honestly, I am really surprised with myself, last night I was way bolder than I ever have been before but I guess death constantly hanging over my head has made me realize I don't have much to lose, also I was REALLLLY drunk.

"Hey, babe." Toni whispers in my ear

I give a little hum in response before checking to make sure no one else is awake.

"Wanna go for a walk?" She asks

"Yeah sounds nice." I say as a link my hand with hers and we interlock our fingers

"So do you remember anything from last night or were you like wayy waisted?" Toni asks while giggling

"Oh no, I remember." I say giving her a chuckle back

"So do you want to talk about it?" Toni asks

She seems nervous to ask I could hear the slight hesitation in her voice.

"Yeah, we can talk about it." I replied

"Sooo" Toni started "it was good right."

"Really good." I replied fairly quickly.

we stared at each other in a comfortable silence.

I gazed into her brown eyes, the sun gleamed into her eyes, and I got lost in her gaze.

My eyes darted down to her lips, they were inviting and I couldn't resist.

I look back to her eyes for permission only to notice her staring at my lips.

I place my hands on the nape of her neck and slightly grip her hair.

our lips crash together with the most passion I've ever felt before. 

I feel tingles throughout my whole body and a swarm of butterflies in my stomach.

we lose track of time in the kiss.

I felt the world fade away.

we separated and we both were out of breath insinuating that we have been kissing for a while.

we were looking at each other without saying a word.

Our moment is interrupted by a twig being snapped. 

we turn our heads in the direction of the sound in fear.

we see Fatin and we let out a sigh of relief.

"Woah did I interrupt a lesbian lover moment." Fatin says with her tongue out 

"If you want to keep this a secret then maybe you should be a little more cautious when your sucking faces." she says slightly more serious 

we both look at her knowing that she was right we looked back at each other questioning what we should do.

"Anyway, everyone's waking up so you two should make your way back." Fatin says walking away from us

Toni looks at me with a look that tells me she has a thought on her mind that she's afraid to tell me. 

"What is it?" I say with a laugh to ease the delivery so she feels more comfortable telling me how she feels. 

all I want is for Toni to feel as comfortable around me as I do her.

This is the most freedom I have felt in a while and I owe that all to Toni so I want her to feel safe.

"well," she starts

Toni's POV

I'm scared to tell her an idea I have had for a while but I don't want to scare her away.

Shelby is the only person besides Martha that I am scared to lose she has become so important to me. But if I am being honest I can't hide anymore it's eating me up inside.

"So I was thinking.....maybe we should tell the other girls." I say quietly

I just stare at her hoping she will say something, anything to let me know she is not completely freaked out.  After a few seconds of silence, I feel a pit growing in my stomach and the waiting becomes unbearable.  

"Shelby please say something." I quickly blurt out 

"yeah uh sorry." she says quickly 

"Are uh...are you sure?" she asks nervously

I can tell that despite her comment the other night she is still scared I wanna comfort her so I put my arm on her shoulder and tilt her chin to look at me then I give her a slight nod, and she slowly looks back at her feet. 

Shelby starts to speak again "I know the other night I said I  might want to tell them and I really don't mean to be all hot and cold or whatever but I don't know I was really drunk and."  but before she can finish I cut her off

"Look Shelby it's okay I understand and we don't have to tell them if you're not ready." I say shyly 

"No your right we can't keep hiding, I'm just still kind of scared." She says softly

"Listen Shelb it's not gonna be like with your parents I promise they're not gonna hate you or something like that, I mean if anything they will probably like you more because right now they think your kind of a homophobe." I say with a giggle 

Shelby just looks up at me and chuckles back. 

"Yeah, okay, let's tell them." she says while smiling 

"Great" I say back 

I grab her hand and start to walk but before I continue she stops me and leans into my neck.

"Hey, thank you." she whispers

"Yeah of course." I say back 

"No seriously you always know just what to say to make me feel better." she says with a smile 

I smile back at her, I am so glad she said that because I feel the same and with that, I grab her hand and we head back. As we approach camp I see the girls snacking on berries, I look over at Leah who is staring at our linked hands. 

"Oh, where have you guys been?" Dot asks

"yeah about that there is something we want to tell you guys." I say nervously while sitting down and pulling Shelby down next to me

Dot, Rachel, and Leah are staring at us patiently while Marth and Fatin are holding back smiles because they know what we are about to say. 

"Well, Shelby and I.. where uh." I start to explain but Shelby cuts me off

"We are seeing each other." Shelby says confidently I look over at her surprised but before I can process she leans in and gives me a peck. 

"Oh my god you too, wow I didn't see that coming." Rachel exclaims

Shelby and I just smile at each other.

"See I knew you weren't really homophobic." Dot says with a laugh 

Shelby must have found it funny too because she is laughing just as hard, she really does have the best laugh. Leah doesn't really say anything she just gives them a weird and indescribable look which is kind of strange. Anyway, let's be clear I'm glad people reacted well, but I don't really care either way I'm just so glad I got this off my chest. 

writer- Hi guys super sorry it has been a second since I have updated but I really hope you liked this chapter (it was a big one), and next chapter should be really exciting too. Thank you so much for reading.