Shoni

Chapter 15

Shelbys POV 

Today is July 20th, I have been doing a lot better since Dot helped me out, I haven't been having random mental break downs and I can function again so I'm doing pretty good.  But we were all sitting by the fire and Dot Fatin and Leah are talking about plans for the future and I got myself thinking what the hell am I doing once I get out of here I mean I don't really have a plan. 

"So Dot what  do you think we will do once we get down to LA?" Fatin asks excitedly 

"uhh, I still can't believe you're leaving me." Leah groans 

Fatin just looked over at her and gave her a chuckle 

"I don't know, I just don't want to be by myself again." Dot answers 

"Hey, you won't." Fatin tells her with a smile 

"Yeah, ya know UCLA has a pretty good diving program." Rachel says with a smirk

"yeah, a pretty good basketball program too." Toni adds while grinning at Rachel 

I am honestly just confused about what they're getting at 

"ya, know we could all just go to LA together guys." Fatin says enthusiastically 

"yeah I mean as weird as it may sound I really don't wanna be apart from you all." Dot adds

"I really don't wanna go back to the bay without Fatin so it seems like the perfect solution," Leah says 

This is a great idea I mean I can just run away to LA with all my girls, I know as soon as I tell my dad about Toni I will get kicked out, and as much as that hurts, this way it won't be such a big deal.

"Well, I'm down because there is no way I am going back home." I say with a little giggle, Toni looks over at me and smiles 

"Yeah, and I have grown to attached to Martha to leave her yet so Martha you have to come to." Rachel says as she pulls Martha towards her to give her a hug 

"Okay, I guess I'm going to." Martha says with a laugh 

"Well Marty, Shelby, Leah, what do you want to do in LA?" Toni asks 

"Well I have always wanted to be a vet since I did some volunteering at a vet clinic a few summers ago, not like I couldn't go to college and do that somewhere else but if your all going to LA I could do it there." Marty says with a smile 

"Well I wanna do some kind of literature in college, I know that and I see no reason why I couldn't do that in LA." Leah answers 

"I don't really know what I wanna do but I can figure it out." I say with a sad smile, I am a little upset I mean everyone has a plan but me.

"Okay this is a fun plan guys but where are we gonna get the money to live in LA?" Martha asks 

"Oh as soon as we get out of this hell we are suing everyone responsible and we will definitely win." Fatin assures us 

Toni's POV 

I always did want to play basketball in college but I figured I had messed up too much to be able to but if we survive this place I think I can at least try to have a second chance at basketball. The best part about this whole plan though is being able to be with Shelby I hadn't thought about what we would do if we made it off the island so knowing there might be a way for her and I to stay together is nice.

"Fatin, Dot, Leah you could get a place, Martha and I could get a place, and Shelby and Toni could too but we would have to be close by so we could still see each other all the time." Rachel suggests

Shelby looks over at me and smiles at Rachel's suggestion I'm happy she feels the same way about the idea. 

"Well, it's been fun but I'm gonna peace out." Dot says

"yeah same here." Marty adds 

"Okay, night yall." Shelby says

"Hey wait Shelby lets go," I say while pointing my head towards the lychee tree

Shelby smiles at me softly, then grabs my arm to pull herself up. As we begin to walk she rubs her thumb up and down my hand, I really love when she does that.

"Come here." Shelby says, patting the spot next to her on the ground beneath the tree

I sit down next to her and she rests her head on my shoulder while keeping her firm grip on my arm. I run my finger through her long blond hair, and take a second to admire her.

"I'm really happy we will get to stay together." I whisper into Shelby's ear

"Yeah me too" She replies 

"but ya know if we get out of her son we'll have to be apart for a while." Shelby blurts out

My brain is scrambled I don't wanna leave Shelby I need her and she needs me I can't let her go back to her emotionally abusive home, I can't let her get hurt. 

"I don't.... I don't wanna leave you, Shelby." I say through small tears 

"I know, I know and I don't wanna leave you either but it's only for a few months and we can talk on the phone and stuff, okay." Shelby says comfortingly 

Shelby looks me in the eyes lovingly then looks back down.

"It's okay Toni I'm scared too, I'm scared my family will never speak to me again I'm scared all end up with nothing and no one, I'm scared that I might go to hell, I'm scared too but we can survive this together." She says softly while attempting to keep her smile

I had never thought about all the stuff Shelby would have to go through just to be herself, just to be with me. I feel awful for her. 

"Hey, I know this whole thing will be really hard for you, I mean you could lose everything so... I understand if you don't wanna go through with it."

"No Toni I have spent so long having to pretend, I had to pretend I was happy with my life I had to pretend I loved some guy, I had to pretend I hated Becca, I had to pretend it didn't break me when she died. " Shelby chokes out through her tears

  "Not being able to just be myself has cost me so much and I have been miserable, I lost my best friend, I was with some ass who cheated on me constantly, I had to see the constant look of disgust in my dad's eyes, and I have hated my life. But when I'm with you, even though we are stranded on a fucking island I a finally happy. "Shelby confess through tears 

I am crying now too and I can't quite tell if they are tears of joy or pain. 

"Yeah well, I don't think you can give Andrew shit about cheating anymore." I say with a laugh in an attempt to listen to the mood, Shelby softly laughs too

"Yeah I mean in a way I was cheating on him too, I was in love with someone else and even if Andrew wasn't such a prick I knew I could never love him." Shelby says while looking down at her feet 

"Hey, we'll figure it out, and I promise you, you will never have to hide or pretend or feel that way ever again." I tell Shelby softly 

She looks up at me and we lock eyes, and smile at each other. I stare at her beautiful eyes for a moment and imagine the amazing future that's waiting for us. 

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