His savior ( A Carl Grimes fan fiction)

Chapter32- Complications

Mia's P.O.V.

"Mia. Kitten cone on get up." I hear Carl says as he lightly shakes me. I open my eyes and look around the room. I look out our cell door from the bed and see the sun isn't even up yet. I ask "Is something wrong that you woke me up and the sun isn't even up yet? I mean the sun isn't up it has to be pretty important, or at least it better be I'm tired." Im not a morning person what so ever. I like my sleep, and last night i barley got ant. Me and Nanny had to take care of Little Ass Kicker who woke up every two hours. Me and Nanny got up at the same time because well were both new to this whole baby thing so we had to help each other. Carl shakes his head "I just wanted to ask you to do something with me because i don't want to be alone when i do it." Carl explains with a frown "But i guess since you don't seem to really want to wake up ill just ask Hayes to come. Im sorry. Just go back to sleep." Carl says with disappointment in his voice. I frown as he stands up. Mia you bitch! He wanted you to do something important with him! What the hell is wrong with you?!? I stop Carl by grabbing his hand "Carl, no Im sorry i shouldn't have said it like that." i say. "Im sorry. Im just not a morning person. Babyboy what do you want me to do with you ill do anything." I say as i pull her towards me. Carl lays down on the bed next to me "No. It's fine just go back to sleep." Carl says. I shake my head "No Carl. Im sorry i shouldn't have done that.Sweetie i wanna know what do you want us to do?" i ask. Carl sighs "Glenn made a grave for Mom, Carol, and T-Dog yesterday and i wanted to go see mom and watch the sun come up with you but you don't want to come so ill just go see mom with Hayes and then come back." Carl explains. He stands up and places his hat on his head. I frown as guilt takes over me. "Carl I'm sorry. I was just tired. I wanna go with you." I stand up and wrap my arms around his torso. He doesn't move. He didn't wrap his arms around me, but he didn't push me away. "Are you mad at me?" I ask Carl. He stayed quiet for a little while "Im just disappointed thats all." He whispers. "Im sorry Carl, I'm just really tired. I had to help Nanny with Little Ass Kicker last night and she woke up every two hours. I didn't get much sleep thats why i was bitchy when i woke up. Im sorry. Please can we go? I really want to go with you Carl." I say as I lace our fingers together. Carl nods slightly "Do you forgive me?" I ask Carl as i kiss his jawline. Carl squeezes my hands in his lightly as he nods. "Yeah. It's fine you had to get up every two hours with Beth to help Little Ass Kicker. I should've known you were gonna be tired." Carl says. I nod as i start to bring Carl out of our cell with me. "Come on lets go see your mom." I say as Carl wraps his arms around my waist and walks with me down the stairs. "This is a difficult position to walk in." i laugh. Carl laughs "Don't worry babygirl i got ya." Carl kisses my cheek. I press my fingers to my lips "They wont let us go outside by ourselves at night. We have to be quiet" I whisper. Carl nods and presses his index finger to his lips. I let out a small giggle and Carl placed his hand over my mouth "Shh!" Carl shushes me quietly. I nod and we run outside quietly. Carl brings me to his moms grave. He kneels down in front of it and pulls me down with him. Carl stared at the grave. Carl whispers "Hey mom." He grabs my hand and laces our fingers together "Me and Mia are here." Carl says "I miss you..... a lot." I smile as Carl continues. "The baby, Daryl nicknamed her Little Ass Kicker, and shes healthy." I lean my head on Carl's shoulder. He lets out a slight laugh. "What am I doing? Im taking to nothing." Carl shakes his head. I frown as Carl stands up. "Come see." He says. I stand up and walk towards him. "Were going to go on that hill and watch the sun come up." Carl explains. I nod and respond with "Lets go" Carl and I walked to the hill he was talking about. "Are you okay?" I ask Carl. He nods "Im fine" he says. "Okay so now we just wait about five more minutes and the sun will start to come up." Carl tells me. I nod as he sits down and pulls me into his lap. Carl kisses my cheek "I love you." He whispers to me. I smile and whisper back "I love you too Boo." Carl smiles "Look." He says as the sun starts to go up. I smile "It has so many beautiful colors." I say referring to the sky. Carl nods "Yeah. It's beautiful. Like my Princess." Carl says and taps the tip of my nose with his index finger. I giggle as Carl puts his face in my neck and his nose hair tickles my neck. "Carl!" I giggle and push him away. He laughs with a smile. "This reminds me of all the times we looked at the stars together." Carl tells me. I nod "It does." Carl places his hands on my cheeks and leans my head back. He kisses my lips and i kiss him back. Carl pulls away then kisses me over and over agin. "Babe your gonna kill me" i say and Carl cuts me off by kissing me agin "With kisses." i say and he kisses me one last time. "Good. If you die thats how I want you to die." Carl says. My mouth falls "Why would you want me to die at all?!?" I ask. "I don't." Carl says. "I want you to live with me forever and ever and ever." Carl says. I smile "Will do babyboy." I say. Carl smiles "We should probably go inside before everyone wakes up." Carl tells me. I nod and raise my arms up "Carry me?" I ask as I get off of Carl's lap. He looks at me "You serious?" He asks. "I mean yeah." I say. Carl crosses his arms over his chest. "No." "Yes" "Nope" "Yes" we go back and forth. Carl grabs my arm and starts to pull me towards the prison "No." He says as we starts to laugh. "Yes!" I say as I sit on the ground and Carl pulls me through the grass. Carl asks "Why the hell are you so stubborn?" And I shrug in response as I stand up. "I don't know. Why the hell are you so stubborn?" i ask and Carl shrugs. "I dont know ether." he says. We laugh "Okay lets go" I say. We run inside of the prison and quickly to our cell. I fall onto the bottom bunk "Now what?" I ask as Carl plops down next to me. "Um..." Carl says as Glenn walks in "We have some cereal come eat" He says. I nod as Carl looks at Glenn "Is Dad back?" Carl asks Glenn. Glenn shakes his head "No not yet Carl." Glenn says. Carl frowns with a nod "Carl," Glenn says to get Carl's attention. Carl looks at Glenn "Your dad. He is gonna need time but I promise he will be okay." Glenn tells Carl. He nods "Yeah. Thanks I guess." Carl says. We all went down stairs and ate. Nanny was holding Little Ass Kicker as we silently ate our dry cereal. Rick walked in and Carl placed a hand on my knee. "Is everyone okay?" Rick asks us. Momma nods and says "Yeah we are." in response. Pawpaw looks at Rick "What about you?" He asks. I place my hand on top of Carl's as he squeezed my knee lightly. "I cleared out the whole other block." Rick tells us as he looks at Carl. Carl squeezed my knee harder as Daryl asked how many walkers there were. "Carl." I whisper and tap his hand lightly. Carl still squeezed my leg. He squeezed it more the longer he looked at his Dad and it hurt more and more. "i don't know a dozen two dozen." Rick says. Carl squeezes my leg more to where his nails were going into my skin. "Carl stop." I say agin and push his hand off of my knee. He looks at his hand on then at my knee since I had shorts on and it was visible. You could see a red circle and indentions in my skin. I passed my hand over my knee "Mia I'm sorry-" i cut Carl off "Its fine." I say and rub my knee. Carl frowns "Im sorry." Carl says "I know. It's fine." i say. Carl nods "I have to get back. I just wanted to check on Carl" Rick says. Carl frowns more then stands up and walks out to our cell. I sigh and start yo stand up "No, Mia sit down. Ill go talk to him." Glenn says. I nod "Please do." Glenn nods and goes get Carl. Rick looks at me "Hows he been?" Rick asks. I shrug "He smiles for me but i know it's fake. He is actually crying and dying inside but he smiles for me. He pretends he's happy for me." i say. "He gives me kisses, hugs,cute lovey dovey words, and just love in general just to make me happy. He isn't even showing his true emotions towards me right now I know it!" I say. "It's all a god damn act to make me happy. It doesn't seem like it but it is i know it! Its making me sad because he is trying so hard but he doesn't even mean it." I explain then shake my head "It's not an act it's
just your the only thing right now that can make me happy and if your not happy then I'm not happy." I hear Carl say. He looked pissed "I cant believe you called my love for you an act!" He yells at me. I shake my head "Carl your obviously not okay! Your not really happy and you know that." I say trying to get him to calm down. "Fuck you Mia! I was trying to make you happy so I could be happy! All those things i did for you was not an act! I love you so i wanted to show you! I wanted to make sure you were happy while I died inside about my mom because thats how much i love you and thats how much you of a stupid effect you are on my life!" Carl yells at me. He shakes his head "Your a fucking selfish little bitch." Carl tells me. I frown because that really hurt. My eyes started to water "I think.....I think I'm gonna go for a walk." I whisper. I stand up and so does mom "No." she growls. She looks at Carl "You ever call my daughter that agin and i swear to god i will kill you!" My mom tells Carl. He looked at me as tears slipped from my eyes "I just...I just wanted you to show me what you were really feeling im sorry." i say as i walk past Carl. "Im sorry I'm such a stupid effect on your life, and a selfish little bitch." I say then nod "I was never good enough for the first guy who i loved i don't know why i would think i could be good enough for the second guy. I guess every guy thinks I'm a selfish bitch then leaves." Carl frowned "I also guess ive been a bitch since even before i was born in my dads case,which if you were wondering is the first guy I loved." I say and Carl goes to grab my hand "No. Don't. Im not trying to make you feel sorry. Im just stating the facts." I walk up to my cell "Mia stop this! You know your father was a stupid man-" my mom calls after me and i cut her off "A stupid man who left you because of me! Me, mom! Me! Im the reason why Dad is gone! No one wants me! No one ever will!" I yell "Im a selfish bitch. I am! Carl's right! He has every right to call me that." I say and walk into my cell. I lay down on my bed and pull Carl's pillow up to my chest. A few minutes passed till Carl walked into my cell. I felt this wave of being afraid run through my body. I was scared and nervous because i didn't know what he wanted and i didn't know what he was going to do. He kneeled down on the side of the bed to where he was close to me. "Your dad is the stupidest man ever." Carl says as he wipes my tears from under my eyes. I swat his hand away as more tears form from just looking at Carl. "Stop" i whisper. "Why do you want to be with your selisfh little bitch ex girlfriend?" I ask. Carl frowns "Ex girlfriend?" he asks in a hurt tone. I nod "Why would you date a selfish little bitch?" I ask. Carl says "I wouldn't." he grabs my hands. "Exactly." i say as i try to pull my hands away. "Your not a selfish little bitch though Mia." Carl tells me. I shake my head "Yes i am! I accused you of not showing me real love when you were." I say. Carl laces our fingers together "Mia these last few days should've been fucking hell for me, but they weren't because of you. You made it better. So you made a mistake by thinking I wasn't actually showing you love and that it was just an act when it wasn't, but what did we say at the farm?" Carl asks. "We'll love each other no matter what mistakes we make." I whisper. Carl smiles "Thats right princess." Carl says and kisses my hands "I love you and everything i do to show you my love is one billion percent real. Okay?" Carl tells me. I nod "Good. Now are me and my baby okay?" Carl asks and i nod in response. "Can my baby actually talk to me?" Carl asks as he rubs his thumbs over my knuckles. I nod and Carl smiles "I love you Mia." Carl says and i smiles "I love you too Carl." Carl smiles at me. "Now about your dad." Carl says. I frown "What about him?" I ask. "I think your mom wants to talk to you about him before she leaves to go on a run with Glenn" Carl says. I nod as he moves my hair our of my face "Maggie!" Carl calls my mom. Mom comes running into the cell "Ill talk but i want Carl to stay." I tell mom. Mom nods as Carl gets on the bed behind me. "Mia your father loved you very much, he was just always scared." Mom explains. "When i told him i was pregnant he told me. He said he loved us but that he was scared" Mom squats down next to the bed. "He was the most stupidest man ever to leave you, and he missed out on so many amazing things. I don't ever want you to think bad about yourself because of him because you are an amazing person babygirl." Mom continues. Mom kisses my forehead "Now we all have jobs to do, so I'm gonna need you to watch Little Ass Kicker with Nanny while i go on a run with Glenn, and Carl i need you to go with Daryl, Hayes and one of the prisoners to check our some of the prison" Mom instructs. We nod "Okay well were going now. Love yall." Mom says. "Love you." me and Carl say at the same time and mom smiles then leaves. I stand up with a sigh as Carl stands up. I watch Carl put his gun holster on the hug him. "Be safe." Carl kisses my forehead "Always am kitten." Carl tells me. We walk downstairs to see Daryl waiting. "Ready?" He asks and Carl nods. They left and i sat down next to Nanny who was holding the baby. Nanny and I just talked till Carl and all came back. "We just ran into two walkers and found Carol's knife were fine" Carl tells me as I hug him. "So no problems?" I ask. "No problems." he says. I nod "Good." I say. Nanny hands the baby to Me "I gotta start cookin somethin for tonight." Nanny says. I nod and Carl smiles at me "I love seeing you hold her." He says. I smile "I love seeing you hold her too. It's so adorable!" I gush and Carl smiled. After that we just talked. Me Nanny Carl and Pawpaw. It was nothing important just little random conversations. Rick walked back into our cell block quietly and looked at the baby. He carefully took the baby into his arms for the first time. Carl smiled a little at the sight of his father holding his new born baby sister for the very first time. Rick smiled at her as we stood up. Carl wrapped an arm around my shoulder and i smiled as i watched Rick smile at his new daughter. "Hey" Rick says to her. He held her close and kisses her forehead. I kiss Carl's cheek and whisper "He's gonna be okay." In Carl's ear. Carl smiles and nods "Yeah. I think so." he whispers back to me. I smile and kiss Carl's cheek agin. "Lets go outside." Rick says. We all go outside and Rick still smiled at the baby. "She looks like you Carl." Rick says.I smile and look at the baby "Oh! She does! She looks like how you did when you were a baby!" I say "I never noticed that! Oh my gosh thats so cute!" I gush. Carl smiles and laughs slightly. Rick smiles then looks out at the filed. Concern takes over his face as he quickly hands the baby to Carl "You got her?" Rick asks. Carl nods "yeah. I got her." Carl says and takes the baby in his arms. Rick runs out to the field and I look out to see a dark skinned women holding a big red basket full of formula. "Who is that?" I ask. Carl looks out towards the field "I don't know" he says. New person we don't know with formula shows up to our gates. I can tell things are gonna get more complicated. Why does everything have to be complicated in this world? Why cant we go one day with out death,fights, scratches, bites, or any complications?