His savior ( A Carl Grimes fan fiction)

Chapter23- Mistakes

Mia's P.O.V.

"Well what are we going to do about him?" Lori asks. We were currently talking about Randal outside. "We don't know yet." Rick says. "I think we would all feel safer if we knew the plan." Lori says. Carl wrapped his arm around my waist and I hugged his abdomen. Daryl comes towards us "He has a group. Thirty men." Daryl says "They some hardcore guys who aren't looking to make friends." Daryl continues. "They roll through here our men will be dead" Daryl pauses "Our women......there gonna wish they were." Daryl finishes. Carl's grip on me got tighter "Your not keeping this guy!" Carl snaps "Carl stop let your dad handle this." i whisper "And let you and everyone else ether die or get raped?" Carl asks. I grab his face "Read my lips." i say "It is going to be okay." i kiss Carl and then let go of his face. "No one goes near this guy." Rick says sternly. "Rick what are you going to do?" Lori asks. "We have no choice he's a threat. We have to eliminate the threat." Rick replies. Carl still had this death grip on me and i tapped his hand. He looked at me "Sorry." he says and i nod. "So your just gonna kill him?" Dale asks and Rick nods. "We'll do it today." Rick says. He walked away "Lets go to the barn." Carl whispers in my ear as he kisses my cheek. "Okay." i say thinking it was the barn Randal wasn't in but i was wrong. "Carl your dad doesn't want us near here!" I say. "Come on i just wanna see him!" Carl says and drags me to the barn "Carl let me go!" I say and push him off of me "We can not do this!" I say as Carl climbs to the top of the barn. I groan as i follow him. Carl looks at Randal and i make sure to keep my distance. "Carl i swear to god i will go get your father right now!" I growl. "Mia calm down." he says as he shakes his head. Randal looks up at us and smiles. "Hey!" He says in a hushed whisper. "That's a sweet hat." Randal says with a smile "Im Randal." He introduced himself "Carl lets go now!" I tell him as i pull his arm. Carl just watched Randal "What the heck is wrong with you!" I hiss at him. "Sheriff guy thats your dad?" Randal asks. "Yeah i like him he is a good guy i can tell." Randal says. "Thats enough!" I tell Carl and he pushes me away from him "Dont let him see you." Carl tells me."Lets go now he can hurt us!" I say "God your so annoying and paranoid and stupid sometimes!Just sit and everything will be fine!" Carl says and i frown. I stay behind a hay stack so Randal can't see me. "You got your mom here too? And a girlfriend?" Randal asks. "Your lucky you see i lost mine." Randal says and Carl cocks his head to the side "Hey i dont know what people have been saying about me but i didn't do nothing." Randal explains "Carl!" I growl as Carl climbs down to go closer to Randal "Stay up there baby." Carl says. "No you come back up here right now!" I tell him but of course he didn't. "You help me and i can talk you and your folks back to my people." Randal says. I bite my lip "I swear to god I'm gonna kill you." i shake my head. "We got good people who will keep you and your family safe." Randal says "Even your little girlfriend. You just gotta get me out." Randal says and thats when i had enough. I snuck out of the barn "What the hell were you doing in there?" Shane asks "Trying to get Carl put but it wont work so i need you to go get him!" I say. Shane curses under his breath "God damn boy." he growls and burst into the barn. "What the hell are you doing here?" Shane asks as he pushes Carl back from Randal. "What did you say to him? What did you say?" Shane asks as he raised his voice. I grabbed Carl's arm and pulled him out of the barn. "Andrea watch Randal Carl your in a shit load of trouble." Shane says then looks at me "Please don't tell my parents!" Carl begs. "Carl he could've killed you!" Shane shouts. "I can handle myself!" Carl says. "No you can't!" Shane says then looks at me. "Why were you in there ?Your momma is gonna be pissed at you too." He says me "I was just..." i say and Carl cut me off "She was trying to get me to get out but i was being stupid so she came and got you." Carl tells the truth. Shane nods and Carl looks at me "I love you." Carl says. "Yeah save it! Carl he could've got out of those handcuffs he was in and killed you! Did you not hear what he told Daryl what his group would do to us?" I ask him. I was mad. I couldn't believe he did that he could've got hurt nut of course he didn't listen to me because I'm "paranoid, annoying, and stupid sometimes" "I don't understand how me wanting you to be okay made me annoying stupid and paranoid." i say as i cross my arms over my chest. "Baby you aren't i didn't mean that." Carl says and i scoff "Sure." i say. "You do not go near him agin do you hear me?" Shane asks and Carl nods. "I would've thought you cared about Mia and her feelings." Shane says. Carl looks at Shane "I Do." he says. "Oh really? Mia when you were in that barn and saw Carl next to Randal how did you feel?" Shane asks me. "Scared, mad, upset, like someone who is annoying." i say and Carl frowns. "Mia i didn't-" I cut Carl off "Mean it? You never do." i say. "Your gonna tell our parents aren't you?" Carl asks. "Yes but I'm gonna say how Mia was the smart one and its not about getting you in trouble Carl its about you understanding! He could've got in your head because it happens trust me i know! Then you would've let him go and you could say goodbye yo your mom and Mia and the baby." Shane says. Carl frowns "Now go find your mom and quit trying to get yourself killed." Shane says. Carl grabs my hand and i yank it away "Why do you wanna be with someone who is annoying stupid and paranoid?" I ask him and walk towards the house. "Mia babygirl stop you know i didn't mean it!" Carl says. Those mean words always got to me. I didn't like them. They always made me feel bad about myself. I walked inside "Mia stop!" Carl shouts and i run up to my room. I closed and locked my door not wanting to hear or see Carl. I hear Carl try and open the door "Mia open the door." he sighs as i sit on my bed. "Mia open this god damn door right now!" Carl yells. "Just let me explain!" He yells and bangs on the door. I open the door "Stop banging on my door you annoying twit." i growl. Carl grabs my arms and pushes me in my room. He slams the door shut "Im sorry okay i was scared myself." Carl says. I shake my head "Carl you know how words like that hurt me a lot!" I say as Carl held onto my wrist. "I know kitten and Im sorry just please." Carl says as he kisses my hand lightly. "Can we just go see Sophia?" I ask and Carl nods. We walked over to her grave and sat down by it. Carl looked at me and bit his lop "Can I...... can I hold you close to me? Or are you still mad?" Carl asks. I smile at his cuteness. I sat on his lap and he quickly wraps his arms around my waist. We sorta just sat there looking at Sophia's grave until Carol came. "You know we will see Sophia agin some day in heaven." Carol says and i nod. "She is in a better place." I say as i place some flowers i got for her on her grave. Carl looked at me and Carol like we were crazy. Right he doesn't believe. "No she's not." Carl says as he stands up. Oh god Carl don't! "Carl!" I growl as i stand up. "Heaven is just anther lie and if you believe in it then your stupid!" Carl spits out then runs away. Carol's mouth dropped "I am so sorry he has been having problems these days." i say. Lori and Rick walked over our way "You need to control that boy!" Carol says. "He is disrespectful." Carol continues. "What did he say?" Lori asks Carol explained to Lori as me and Rick went see Carl. "Carl!" I yell. He turns around "What was that?" I ask. "She just lost her daughter and you say that!" I yell at him. "She wants to believe her daughter is alive in some type of way still." Rick says"But she-" Carl says and Rick cuts him off "Don't..... don't talk think. Thats a good rule for life." Rick says. "Now what if Mia died and i told you she was gone forever and that there was no way in hell you were seeing her agin?" Rick asks. Carl frowns "You would start having a fit and you know that." Rick says. I look at Carl "Start thinking before you talk because your hurting a lot of peoples feelings today." i say. "Mia i told you didnt mean it!" Carl says trying to defend himself. "Does it look like I care? You didn't only hurt me today you also hurt Carol." i say. Carl looked so mad and disappointed at him self. "I know you don't want to disappoint any one Carl so stop, because your really disappointing me a lot." I tell him truthfully. Carl looks at me with tears in his eyes. I knew he hated disappointing people especially me. "Im sorry" he says and then runs out to the field. "Carl-" his dad calls out and he sighs. I run after him and see him sitting in the middle of the field crying. He had his face in his hands so I sit down behind him and wrap my arms around him. "I never meant to disappoint any one." Carl sniffles. "I know. I know you didn't baby." I tell Carl softly and kiss his back. "But you have to choose your words and actions more carefully Carl." i stress to him. I nuzzle my face into his back and close my eyes. Carl rubbed his thumbs over my knuckles. "Is it bad that i love you so much that it makes me want to cry when you frown?" Carl asks me. I smile "No because i feel the same way." i say. Carl moves me to in front of him. "Your my beautiful queen that has to promise now matter what you'll stay with me." Carl says. "I promise as long as you promise that you'll be my handsome king who will always stay with me." i say. Carl nods "I could never leave my queen." he says. I smile and kiss his lips. "Ill be your Juliet if you be my Romeo." i say and he chuckles. "Ill be your Mickey if you'll be my Minnie." Carl says and i smile. "Il be your Ariel if you be my Prince Eric." i say and Carl smiles "Deal babygirl." Carl says. I smile as i wipe my thumb under Carl's eyes to get all his tears away. "I cant picture my life with out you. Honestly if i had to be just friends with you to keep you in my life I would." Carl says. I giggle as i lace our hands and fingers together. "Im gonna make a lot of mistakes Mia.....do you think you can look past them?" Carl asks. I nod "I can look past all of them as long as you look past mine." i say. "You haven't done anything wrong" Carl says and i nod "Exactly.That means I definitely will in the future." i say. Carl smiles and kisses my lips. "I just cant tell you how much i love you. If it wasn't for you I honestly wouldn't be here right now" Carl says.I frown "No don't say that!" I say. "Mia my family was falling apart you don't understand how upset it made me! You were the only one that was there to make me happy and I honestly cant thank you enough, because of you im gonna get to see my sibling, im gonna be able to feel what love is, im gonna be able to do so many things because of you and i know I may be blowing this out of proportion but it's the truth Mia! I honestly wanted to do it i wanted to cut i had the blade in my hand while you were sleeping. I watched you and had tears streaming down my face because i didn't want to leave you but i wanted to leave everyone else." Carl says. "I put the blade up to my wrist and right before i did it you started mumbling my name in your sleep. You were trying to get me so i and to move besides you. You cuddled up to me and mumbled that you loved me as I silently cried because i didn't want to wake you up fully. The next morning i threw it away." Carl says. "Mia your my everything right now and i just cant have you ever leave." Carl says. I nod "I wont i promise but why didn't you ever tell me?" I ask Carl. Carl smiled at me "The next morning i was planning on telling you but you were just so happy and once i saw that beautiful smile of yours everything left my mind and the only thing i could think about was you." Carl says. I smile "You've had a lot of mistakes Grimes" i pause and Carl frowns "But i will always love you." i say which makes him smile. "No matter what mistakes we make we have to promise we will always stay by each others side." I say and Carl nods. "No matter what mistake." Carl says and sighs "Okay your gonna think this is a mistake but look what i got." Carl says. He lifts up his shirt to reveal a gun. I sigh "Im not even mad any more. I mean we did learn how to use them" i say. Carl smiles "Okay good because i don't want you to be mad. Now come walk to the lake with me?" Carl asks. I nod and follow to the lake. There was a walker there and Carl started throwing rocks at it. "Stop it Carl we should really be going" i say. The walker started getting out of the mud. Carl raised the gun to shoot the walker as it got out and knocked the gun out of Carl's hand. "Carl!" I yell as he falls and the walker falls next to him.I looked for the gun but couldn't find it. Carl tried kicking the walker off of him "What do i do?" I yell "Whatever you do don't get next to it!" Carl yells as he kicks the walker. I pulled Carl up "Go!" He yells. We ran out towards the farm and I stopped Carl. "Did he get you are you okay?" I ask Carl. He nods "Yeah." he says. "Im sorry i didn't know what to do!" I say feeling guilty. "No no no kitten it's okay" Carl says as he hugs me. "Lets uh..... lets not mention this mistake." Carl says. I nod and reply with an okay. We walked to the house and went to my room with Hayes since the adults didn't want us to hear how they were going to kill Randal. I was sitting on my bed with Carl behind me. He started playing with my hair as Hayes read one of my books. Carl kissed my shoulder and I smiled. Carl started to rub my back "Lay down on your stomach." Carl says. I was a little confused but did as he said. Carl sat in between my legs. He lifted up my shirt to where my back was exposed and i felt his finger start to lightly draw patterns on my back. I smile "That feels nice." i giggle and Carl chuckles. "Thats the point Mia." Carl says stating the obvious. I closed my eyes as Carl drew on my back. After a while i stopped Carl and told him we would take turns. He took of his shirt and we got settled. I started tracing my fingers over his back and saw Carl had this big scratch on his back "Carl what happened why do you have a big scratch?" I ask as I slightly touch it. "A tree scratched my back when we were running. It'a fine though." Carl says. I nod "Okay if you say so." i say. "Just continue what you were doing because it felt really good." I giggle at Carl and continue. After doing that for a while it got dark and they had finally decided to shoot Randal. "Lets go outside." Carl says as he stands up. "Okay." i agree. We go outside and see a light in the barn. "There doing it now." Carl says as he walks over to the barn. "Carl don't please! I really don't want to follow you in there and see him die." I say. "I don't want you to see that ether thats why your gonna stay here and i promise ill be right back." Carl says. I followed him to the barn but stayed to where i couldn't see anything. "Do it. Do it dad we cant risk it." Carl says. Im guessing Rick was just about to kill him. "Hey what did i tell you?" I hear Shane ask and pull Carl out of the barn. I run over to Carl "Take him away." Rick repeats referring to Randal. "Why cant you stay in the house with Mia? You do realize she is doing this because of you right?" Shane asks and Carl nods "I know." he says. They took Randal out and explained how they weren't going to kill him anymore, or at least for now. Momma was outside with Glenn "I want you to go inside and get some rest soon its getting late and cold." momma says. I nod as Carl grabs a blanket from his mom and dads tent and wraps it around us. There was a loud scream. Carl gripped my hand at the loud scream of pain "Carl, Mia i want y'all to go inside the house and lock the door! Don't open it till i say!" Momma tells us quickly. We ran to the house and did as told "What happened?" Pawpaw asks. "I dont know there was just this loud scream of pain." i say. "Mia open the door!" I hear momma yell. I open the door "Daddy Dale needs help quick!" Momma says. We all ran outside to the field. I gasped at what I saw. Dale's stomach was ripped open and a few feet away from him laid the walker that me and Carl saw today that we didn't kill. Carl pulled me into a hug as I started to cry. Carl starred at the walker in fright "It's all my fault." He whispers "No no its not your fault!" I say as i cry. Carl started crying and i shook my head "Don't look baby. Don't look." I say as Carl hides his face in the crock of my neck. "Sorry brother." Daryl says then shoots Dale in the head so he wouldn't have to suffer. Carl was crying bad "It's my worse mistake." Carl cries. "No Carl this isn't your fault we couldn't get the gun okay." i say and Carl nods slightly. "Lets go to my room." I say and try to bring Carl to the house but he didn't move. Hayes grabbed Carl's arm "Come on Carl." Hayes says. He helped me bring Carl to my room. Carl changed into pajamas and went straight to sleep. The lights were out and i felt Carl squeeze my hand. "Im right here it's okay." i whisper in his ear. Carl wrapped his arms around my waist. "It's okay I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere." I whisper. Carl shoved his face in my neck. I knew he felt like it was his fault Dale was now but it truly wasn't he couldn't kill the walker nor could I so it's really no ones fault. I guess i have to explain that to him in the morning.