His savior ( A Carl Grimes fan fiction)

Chapter24-No More Kid Stuff

Mia's P.O.V.

"Carl if you say Dale's death is your fault then it's my fault too." I explain to Carl. He gas been sitting on my bed looking out the window not saying a word for an hour and honestly it was driving me insane. "I could've smashed it's head in but i didnt so if your blaming your self then blame me too." i say. Carl looks at me "You didn't do it. It's not your fault don't....don't say that." Carl says. "Then you stop saying its your fault." I say. Carl sighs as i bury my face in his chest and ball his shirt up in my fist. "I love you." i whisper as Carl resets his hand on my back. "Kids were havin Dale's funeral." Momma says. "Were coming." Hayes says. Momma left and i looked up at Carl. He was in tears once agin. "Baby stop." i tell him softly. "I made him die." Carl croaks. "Carl no you didn't! We couldn't find the gun it's not your fault!" I say. "Whatever lets......lets just go." Carl says. We all ended up going to Dale's funeral and Carl was crying the most.He didn't make any noise as he cried. He had silent tears as i held him close to me. Rick made this really long sad speech and i could feel Carl's grip in my shirt get tighter as he grabbed it and balled it up in his fist like i was doing to his shirt a little while ago. The funeral ended and Rick asked Pawpaw if they could stay in the house. Pawpaw of course said yes and said he should've moved them in sooner.They started talking about how we would deal with everything with Randal. We would simply let him go but make sure he didnt know how to come back, and if his group found us some of us would hide in the basement while the rest fought i guess. Carl stayed silent as he walked away from me and over to Shane. Carl stopped then looked at me. He held his hand out for me to take and i smile slightly. I walked over to him and took his hand. "Shane if I...... if I told you something would you promise to not tell my parents?" Carl asks. "Its not the best idea but hit me." Shane says. Carl pulls out the gun from yesterday "Carl you went back and got it at night!" I say and Carl shrugs "I couldn't sleep so I thought go find the gun!" Carl defends him self. Shane tales the gun "I took it from Daryl's motor cycle." Carl says then starts to explain everything as he gave the gun to Shane. "If I would've shot it Dale would still be here and-" Shane cuts Carl off "Stop it." Shane says. "This ain't your fault, but i want to keep this. You need to protect yourself and Mia." Shane says then looks at me "And i uh..... i never apologized for your head. Im sorry about that" Shane says. I nod "It's fine." Shane nods. Shane goes to hand Carl the gun and Carl shakes his head "I am never touching anther gun agin." Carl says as he starts to walk away "Thats not an option" Just give it back to Daryl" Carl shouts at Shane and runs away. I run after him "Just leave it Mia." Carl says as he walks inside and up to my room. Hayes who was on the couch stood up "What the hell happened this time?" He asks and i shrug "ill explain later." i sigh and walk up to my room. Carl was sitting holding something up to his chest and i smile at it. It was the teddy bear he gave me for my birthday. "I see you found my bear." I say with a smile. Carl nod slightly and i playfully pout. "I would've thought you would want to cuddle me but if you want the bear" i trail off as Carl throws the bear to the ground and opens his arms I smile and sit in his lap with my legs wrapped around his waist. Carl wrapped his arms around my shoulders as I shoved my face in his chest. We stayed silent like that for a while till Carl said he wanted to go for a walk to the barn. I of course agreed but made sure it wasn't the one Randal was in. We decided to get Hayes to come with us and we just sat in the bug window they had on the top floor of the barn. Rick soon came in and sat down in between Hayes and Carl. I leaned my head on Carl's shoulder and kissed it. Carl smiled as Rick started talking "What are yall doing up here?" Rick asks. Carl shakes his head "Nothing just looking." Carl replied. He grabbed my hand and laced our fingers together. Rick pulled out three guns. "I want you to each take one." Rick says. "Mia your mom said you could so you too." Rick says. I look at the guns Rick was trying to give us then at Carl. "What happened to Dale had nothing to do with you Carl, or Mia, or anyone." Rick says. Carl looks at Rick "He died dad." Carl stressed. "Yeah, yeah he did, but it wasn't your fault." Rick says. "Lots of people are gonna die you guys." Rick stresses to us. "Thats why i need you guys." Rick says and shakes his head "No more kid stuff." Rick says. "I wish you guys could have the childhood I had with no worries about dead things trying to eat you but thats just not gonna happen." Rick tells us. I moved my head off of Carl's shoulder so i could get a better look at Rick "People are gonna die." Rick tells us truthfully. "Im gonna die, Lori is gonna die, Maggie, Glenn, Daryl, Hershel, Beth we are all gonna die one day, and there is no way you can ever be ready for it. If this stuff continues and we die we cant protect you because we will be gone." Rick says. "So you need to all start protecting yourselves." Rick says and looks at the guns that were in his lap "Please take it." he says. Carl hesitantly took one of the guns and gave one to me then took one for him self. Hayes took a gun and placed it in his lap. I stared at the gun that was in my hands. "So momma said to take it?" I ask and Rick nods "She feels the same way i do." Rick says. I nod as Carl looked at me. I squeezed his hand with a small smile telling him that everything was going to be okay. Rick left and We watched the sun start to go down and told some jokes and stories. "If Carl in the future asked you too have his kids what would you say?" Hayes asks. I smile "I would say yes because i want kids but I couldn't imagine having them with anyone else but him because well he is like the only guy i have feelings for that i know." I answer truthfully. Carl smiles and kisses my temple. "I feel the same way babygirl." Carl says and i smile. "Carl, Hayes Mia get down here now!" I hear Lori yell in fear. "Oh god." Hayes sighs. We ran down the barn and too the other one. "Have you seen Randal anywhere?" Lori asks quickly "No, Aunt Lori why?" Hayes asks. "The cuffs are still there but he isn't." Rick says. I grab Carl's arm as i put my gun in my boot. "Rick! Rick!" I hear Shane yell. We turned around to see a very beat up and bloody Shane. "Oh my god!" I gasp. "What happened?" Lori asks. "He has my gun! He's armed!" Shane yells. "Are you okay?" Hayes asks. "Im fine its just that the little bastard snuck up on me!" Shane yells as he walks towards us.By now every one was panicking. "Hershel T-Dog get everyone is the house! Glenn Daryl come with us!" Rick says. "Mia baby over here." Mom says. I run over to her and she grabs my hand. "Go to the house lock the doors and stay put!" Rick demands. We all ran to the house and locked all the windows and doors. An hour or so passed and nothing happened to what we know of."Mia I'm sneaking out to help dad stay in here with Hayes." Carl says. I grab his arm "No! Carl are you crazy?" I ask him. "If you go...." i pause with a sigh "I go." i say. Carl shakes his head "Mia you..... you cant." Carl says. "I am not letting you go out there on your own! You wanna go fine but I'm coming with you!" I say. Carl sighs "Okay but you have to be quite and you stay with me the entire time do you hear me?" Carl asks. I nod "When we get outside i want you to hold onto my belt lops and don't let go unless i say." Carl says. I nod agin then Carl and i slowly and quietly snuck out of the house. I wrapped my index fingers around Carl's belt lops and followed him into the woods. We got to the field and i was shocked at what I saw. Right as we entered the field Rick shot Shane. I wrapped my fingers around Carl's belt lops tighter and whimpered as I saw Shane fall to the ground. Rick started crying and yelling then saw us. "You.... you two should be at home" Rick says as i hide my face in Carl's back. I lifted my head up as i heard Carl grab his gun and cock it. Shane had came back as a walker and thats when I started silently crying. "Carl just..... just put the gun down." Rick says as he cries not realizing Shane was a walker behind him. "It's not what it seems please!" Rick begged in tears as the thing that was once Shane got closer. Carl pulled the trigger and walker Shane fell to the ground. Carl pulled me in front of him and hugged me. "We gotta go." Rick says. "What?" Carl asks. "Walkers" is all Rick says. I look up from Carl and saw a least a hundred walkers maybe even more, and at that very moment i knew why Rick told us no more kid stuff.