TOXIC(trapped passion) ✨( Completed/Editing)

Chapter 9.

*chapter 9*

didn't even wait for him to open the door for me or anything with all the excitement and adrenaline in my body I just had to come out.

We sprayed the blanket in the open van so that we could have a clear view of everything. We had 2 bottles of white wine some snacks and music ?.

He pouled some wine in a class and gave it to me then another was his. I took like 3 sips before saying a word. For a moment I forgot I was with someone, I was carried away by the spectacular view I was looking at.

"so.... Uh how is your work coming up so far?" he asked

"I don't really know. I have not even started it but I will eventually right! Of course after I gather the courage and strength to do it. I really don't want to rush into it because it will determine my grade at the end of the year as an English major. I want to take my time and do alot of research on it even though it looks like a personal question, plus I'm not really in the right state to like.... Uh to like (sips wine) write anything or do anything school related. "I replied

Sean.

" yeah if you say so, I guess you're supposed to write it when your mind is free from other thoughts so that you can do your best. I'm a writer and all but it's not easy to write something that makes unless you really put your mind to it. I just wish you all the luck in the world (looks at me then smile). And I just hope this night makes you forget about everything else, just enjoy and live in the moment let go of everything.

There was an awkward silence between us.... It's like there was some sort of tension (I think.... &) but the good tension.

He moved close to me and in seconds his hands were wrapped around my waist. I had mixed feelings, I liked it but I didn't know what was going to happen. I also felt safe in his arms as though I have known him for a long time but it was just a few days.

He moved closer and looked deep into my eyes... His eyes looked so beautiful and innocent, they were peaceful and I could see what he felt and it's like I lost control over my body. Our lips were touching, his pink lips were soft and tasted like wine. It was like we were in sync, like our bodies knew each other from before. It didn't feel like it was the first time it felt like we have been doing it for a long time. His kisses were soft and gentle his hands were around my waist for a few seconds then moved to crab my boobs. He squeezed and played with them and it felt really nice and I forgot for a second who I was.

The kisses became more intense and his hands were all over my body, and his lips were now on my body. He knew exactly what His tongue played with my nipples, neck and the rest of my body and it I was a good feeling I can't lie I have never felt like like in my life. He was moving down playing with me as if he knew my body very well...... His head was in between my legs and I couldn't stop him. My heart wanted to but my mouth couldn't just say the words.

He gently kissed my inner thighs for a few seconds moving his tongue up and and just going with the flow, he reached for my panties and removed them gently. He looked at me in the eyes, gave me a soft kiss on my lips before he opened my legs a bit wider and his mouth was allover my vagina....

My heart beat increased in seconds and it was like I was having a late night run. I dont know what he did but the only thing I wanted was Jim in me there and then and I don't believe myself but I said it

"I want you in me right now"

"Sam, are you sure about what you are saying? Asked sean

" yes I'm very sure, don't ask further questions just do it "Sam replies

" it might hurt a bit, this is your first time. Just relax and don't think about it. " said sean

He removed his shirt and his body is to die for.. Just looking at it would make someone wet. And his trousers as well, he reached for my dress and removed it. He kissed me and it was amazing while we were kissing he put his finger in my vagina, seconds later he put one more and they were two..... The motion was smooth and slow and it felt really good.. After that his tongue was playing with my clit which made everything more nicer and interesting.

He looked me in my eyes and try to put his penis in and for a moment I felt pain

"eish that hurts." I said

"just relax and calm down" he replied

"so what did you say you want to be in the next 5 years?" Sean asked

Wearing a confused facial expression I replied "I don't think we talked about that today"

"but I'm asking you so why can't you just tell me. I want to know" he said

"I don't really know for sure I'm still contemplating on alot of things" I answered

And in seconds his penis was inside me and I could feel it. He was moving gently and slowly and at that point I didn't know what to feel or think but it was happening. We made love(atleast on my part) I didn't know what he felt for me.

We continued kissing while we made love and looked in each other's eyes and I felt he was the one for me. My body just connected with his and we were one it felt perfect.

Minutes later........

It was over, I broke my virginity and I have no regrets about it. It was really amazing I had it under the moonlight and it's the best feeling ever. I never knew or pictured myself doing such anytime soon but it has happened and here I'm sleeping on the chest of a man who deflowered me and it just feels right in the moment. No regrets or blaming anyone for what has just happened.

But the question is am I really doing the right thing with the right or wrong person?

Background song playing..... Pretty little fears by 6lack ?