TOXIC(trapped passion) ✨( Completed/Editing)

Chapter 10.

*chapter 10*

The night was silent and harmless, there I was sleeping in the arms of my lover or whatever you would call in it. It was the best night of my life ? I was finally a woman.

"Sam! Why are you quiet? What are you thinking about?"

"Nothing, I'm just trying to adjust to what has just happened. That's all. What's wrong p? Why do you ask?" I asked

"I just wanted to know if you're fine or need anything to be specific "he said

" Don't worry yourself I'm perfectly fine and I don't think I need anything apart from you being here with me at this point in time." sam

We didn't really talk for like a good 20 minutes, I didn't find the words. We lay there side by side without clothes and the warmth from his body kept me warm, we were cuddling in a way under the stars it was like in the movies and for a moment I thought I would stay here in his mascular arms for a life time, it felt safe.

Sam.

"you have really never told me about yourself, I barely know a thing about you. Like where do you stay?

What do you want to be in the next five years and the like..."

Sean.

"uh.... So you already know my name and shit. You know where I stay right? (looks at me with a smile). OK so basically I'm working on something, if everything goes well I might publish my work and see how it goes from there."

Sam.

"so have you ever been in a relationship or something like that?"

Sean.

I have never really been in a relationship, I just feel like I'm not good at love. They say I'm complicated and I never really pay attention to the people I'm in a relationship with. I like being alone and it drives people crazy but I feel like when I meet the right one everything will fall in place. (looks at me for a few seconds) I really like you alot and hope things go well for us. "

Sam.

" I really like you alot as well and I don't even know how or why(no offense) but I find you really attractive and I think you're a good man plus we have shit in common."

" so like what do you really want? I asked

"I'm not sure whether I want to be in a relationship or just be having casual sex with you. But time will tell I'm not in a hurry and hope you're not either." he said effortlessly

And there I was replaying the words "someone to have casual sex with"... What have I just done. What did I get myself into? I thought he wanted to have something serious with me but I was wrong, everything felt so right for a few minutes and now I don't know how to feel about everything that had just happened but one thing I know is I will have no regrets.

"mmh.... That's interesting. But anyway I think it's time we should be heading back now. I really need to go." said Sam (there was a change in the voice tone)

"did I say or do anything wrong? Why do you sound upset or as if I have done something wrong?" he asked while holding my hands

"it's nothing don't worry about it. I'm perfectly fine and you have done nothing wrong, I'm just not feeling well all of a sudden" I said politely

I had just lied to him. I didn't know what to say or do the guys wants casual sex and here I'm dreaming of a perfect future together and shit. I need to get my life straight.

He got his clothes and put them on whole I was there just looking at his body. He finished dressing up and just sat there looking at me as though I was the most beautiful thing he's ever seen in his life.

"Do you want me to help you dress up" he asked while trying to get hold of my dress

"no, but thank you. I will manage on my own" I said

"but are you OK? Is anything hurting or something? He said

" actually nothing really hurts this went better than I ever imagined it in my head "I said wearing a smile on my face

I finished everything I was doing and he helped me with my zip and I could feel  his body close to mine and his warm breath on my neck, he pressed his soft lips on my neck and for a second I relived each and every moment we had just shared and it was amazing.

"this was the best night I have had in my life and I will never forget it" he whispered in my ear

"I feel the same way, thank you for bringing me here I had an amazing night" sam said then smiled

"you don't have to say thank you plus this will be our secret spot, we'll be coming here whenever we want to be away from civilization and noose. Anytime you're feeling down or wants someone to talk to I'm only a call away and I will come running to you anytime or day"he said

These words just made me feel more at ease, it was what I needed to hear and it just calmed my nerves. We packed everything back in the basket and was ready to go.

"hey, come here" Sean said while pulling me closer to him

Went closer to him and we started kissing. It was a very soft and effortless type of kiss. A kiss that makes you assured that 'I will be always here for you ' that's how I felt. I could feel his heart beating and we kissed to it's rhythm, we were connected we were one at that particular time.

"you are more than enough, never forget that" he said and kissed me on the forehead.

On our way back we said nothing but hold hands... My eyes were fixed on the window while I enjoyed the midnight air and he played country which happened to be my favorite type of music.

"when am I seeing you again? Sean asked

" uh I'm not sure but any day we'll both be free we can figure something out, is that OK with you? Sam answered

"yeah sure. Just let me know when you're free and I will be here.

Kiss goodnight and I walk out of the van.

Enters the room...

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