TOXIC(trapped passion) ✨( Completed/Editing)

Chapter 31.

*chapter 31*

We kissed so passionately and it felt like my soul had been put back from the broken pieces. He was the food for my soul, he was what I needed and what I always need for my soul to be whole again.

He unbottoned my jeans and removed them from my body, he then kissed me from my toes up to my inner thighs and at the moment my blood was boiling with desire, I really wanted him to be in me and just make me his. I didn't think about anything but us making love the whole night if possible.

He kissed me on my belly and sucked on my pink nipples and they became hard and firm, he used his tongue to play with my body while his hands explored the other parts of the body.

He carried me to his bed and layed me flat back on the bed, he removed my polo neck bodysuit and there was no underwear underneath it. He looked at me and then smiled at me, he kissed me on my lips and then gave me soft kisses on the neck and I felt like I was in another world just made for the two of us and I loved it.

He then stood up to remove his clothes and I was there just being thirty for his body, he has a very sexy body which was everything.

He was hard and I was dying for him to be in me at the very moment, he reached on the bed and kissed me again. Spread my legs wide enough and used his tongue to play with me, this man really knew how to use his mouth to my advantage.

He was in me at for a second it felt like it was the first time this was happening, he was so passionate and gentle and I really enjoyed every part of it and he made me realize how much I really loved him and how my body missed all this.

We made love over and over again and I literally forgot that I had body pains. How can someone be the one who hurts you but also be the one who makes you feel like the most beautiful thing he's ever seen. I don't know how I manage to just forget about everything he's done to me the moment he just touches me or kisses me.

I think it's best I just stay with him and help him fight whatever he's going through, that's what partners do. I would be a bad person if I was to leave him at his darkest moment.

After we had made love we lay side by side and my head on his chest, I could feel his heart beat and he held me close to his body. These are the moments I want to always remember no matter what happens this is what will keep me going even if we are going through bad times or situations I will just be closing my eyes and be here, if I can't be here physically then I will be doing it in my head.

We never said a single word to each other and it's like we could communicate through our hearts, my heart responded to his heart beat. There are just certain things that can't be put in words and this was the moment. He sometimes treats me like a queen and sometimes like a slut or no body he just picked up from a strip club.

"I wish you would stay here with me for ever and I couldn't be worrying about any other man setting a Glace on your body or even touch you. I'm really happy that we're back together and please don't you ever stay this long again without talking to me, that shit drives me nuts and for the fact that I love you more than anything in the world I literally die. I love you being in my arms, carrasing you and making love to you, I want you to be mine in this life and the next lives to come. "he whispered in my ears while his fingers run through my messy hair.

" just because I'm naked in your bed doesn't mean that I forgive you and we're back together "I replied.

" what's that supposed to mean Sam? He asked while lifting my head off his chest.

"what I just said is what I mean. I don't get how a person can be this bipolar. It's really scary because I don't even know what you will do next to me, I was lucky enough that I made it out alive but I don't think I can do this anymore. Yes I love you and want you to be a better person but this is just way too much for me and you don't make it easy either. I need a man who is patient and kind, a man that understands that I can be friends with other people without having sex with them and a man that will make me feel safe. I shouldn't be afraid when I'm with you, it should be the opposite. "I said as I slide off the bed to grab my clothes.

" I have really tried to hide my demons and be a better man for you babe, I totally agree with you and I'm willing to be a better person, a better man. But one thing you should always know is if I can't have you no one else will, Mark my words"

I know he was serious about this and it really freaked me out, I think this man might be obsessed with me. ?

Sean will be the death of me if one of us doesn't end up in a grave then it will definitely be the both of us.

"Sean take a good look at me, just look at me. Haven't I suffered enough, I can't go outside without make up or covering my face this is not what I signed up for and I'm too young to die.