TOXIC(trapped passion) ✨( Completed/Editing)

Chapter 26.

*chapter 26*

I Finally opened my eyes and it was night time, the hospital was quiet than I expected it to be. I could only hear a few noises here and there but after a long time.

The room had become cold, it felt like I was put in a cold room, I tried to cover myself with the blankets which in the actual sense where not that thick. I tried to move my hands but with a cannula on my arm it was impossible to move it, the sedative had make me weak even though it had actually helped with the anxiety I had been feeling.

I turned to my left and saw Julia sleeping next to me, she had been there the whole time. She was always there and will always be, she is a friend that turned into family and I was proud to have found someone like her as a friend and sister.

At this moment I became numb to the pain, I felt nothing it felt like the love I had was now on the brain and not in my heart. My heart had become cold and there was nothing I could do about it, the innocence me had been lost forever.

The night was long, I barely closed my eyes to sleep, all I saw was the flashbacks of the beating and this was eating me up inside. This was the moment I wished I could imagine the ocean or the stars at night like I used to when I failed to sleep but my brain lost its ability to imagine and I felt I was trapped in my own brain, trapped in my own skin.

I tried my best to fight with my own demons but I had no chance of winning because my heart was in the hands of the devil himself.  I thought he would be my savior to bring me salvation but he turned to be the villain that made me fall in love with him and then ripped my heart out of my chest.

I tried to move so that I could try and get up and pee, I really wanted to pee and if I don't stand right now then I just just do it right here on the bed.

"babe, what's wrong? Do you want me to get you anything?" Julia asked while trying to get out of the dream land with her fingers rubbing her eyes.

"I'm just trying to get up and use the bathroom, I didn't want to disturb you. It's been a long day and I figured you would use a bit of some rest." I whispered

"really girl, that's not even an issue. I'm at your service anytime anyday." Julia chuckled

Julia got up where she had slept and helped me get out of bed, I felt like I had never walked in my life ? all this felt like it was new. I then dragged the drip stand with me while I walked and Julia held me by the other side.

I entered the bathroom and was unable to remove my underwear, I felt like a huge burden on Julia but I had to ask for help.

"babe! can you please come in here and help me with something" I shouted in a low but audible voice

"OK, so what I'm I doing in here?"

"can you please help me remove my underwear so that I can pee." I said and added a smile

"yeah sure."

"damn girl! When last did you take a shower ? you're stinking bitch! We really need to give you a bath as soon as possible before this gets worse." Julia said and then laughed at me

"babe you can be mean at times, can't you see that I just came back to life and all you think about is how I'm smelling, damn" I said then stood up.

"I'm just being a good friend, and this friend is saying you need to get into the shower and take a bath. If it means me taking you in there and bath you then I will definitely do it." Julia

We walked about of the bathroom and Julia helped me get back to bed and she went to sleep on the small couch. But I still couldn't sleep and it was now 3 in the morning.

" I can't sleep "Julia said

" me either and I am lost in my own head. "I replied

" so what's the way forward after this? What are you planning on doing with life after giving you a second chance? " Julia asked

" uh.... I'm not really sure what I will do after this but I just want to get out of this place and go home. I'm feeling suffocated in here, it's like the walls are closing up and there is no air. "I murmured

" what about Sean. Like are you guys going to be together or you will end things with him." Julia

" for now I think I will just stay away from him, looking at him makes me get anxiety and I panic. When I feel better and ready to talk then I will have a conversation with him about our relationship and future. " sam

" what do you mean by your relationship and future, don't tell me you're thinking of staying with this guy Sam? "

" I really love him and would do anything just for us to be together. I know what he did was unacceptable and insane but I can't just throw everything we had out the window just because of one silly mistake. "

" Oh, so now you call this silly. Have you seen yourself in the mirror? Have you seen what your face looks like. You have stitches all over your face and you call it silly. Lord help me! Each and every day of your life you will remember this day when you look at yourself in the mirror and I can't even imagine you waking up next to a man who almost killed your ass. Anyway do whatever you want and I will always be here to support you in everything. "

I know Julia was right about everything but what can I do when my heart is thirty for him and my body recognizes each and every touch of his.

There is no turning back now I'm already trapped and only death can separate us.